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MAH MAH.. I felt so Lonely at One Point.. at the Lowest of My Life and It was Only YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. It was Only YOU.. I cried when I saw YOU gone.. I remember watching YOU leave.. Sitting on the Horse.. I kept on calling Out to YOU.. But it was one of the Servants who took Me.. and Told me that I just could Not go.. I was reaching Out both arms.. shouting Out.. as the Horse was leaving.. in the Garden I felt so Alone.. crying in the dark.. I just could Not believe that YOU were gone.. I stood alone.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. I just could Not stop.. But kept calling Out to YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would watch the Moon come UP before Me.. and I would shout with the Loud Voice.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I am going to YOU.. very soon I will go to YOU.. when I heard the News.. and MY father died.. and came to the Garden.. I saw His body and with the servants.. We would bury my father.. I just could Not take this kind of Pain any More.. as I sat that night.. My Father was gone.. my Mother died when I was very young.. and even whom I love.. which Is you.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. even YOU.. I had to watch YOU leave me.. and Now.. there was NO reason for me to be at the Garden any more.. everything was Gone.. and whoever came to the Garden.. they were all taken away from me.. when I felt the Most lonely in my life.. the Only thing that remained close to my Heart.. It was the Art sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would unfold and I would take a Look at YOU.. talking to the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. I would say.. Is it okay if I go to YOU.. what If YOU do Not want me to be near.. But there is nothing else.. there is NO ONE else I can Love.. but Only YOU I truly Love.. Please.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. would you let me get close to YOU.. I needs to tell YOU something.. packing One bag I would carry in my back.. I would look at the Garden One last time.. and I cried looking at my Father's grave and I would leave.. telling that I am Not going to ever come back.. too many people who I loved are gone before me.. My Heart is broken already.. I don't need my Hear to break again.. so I left the Garden.. wanting to start a new Life.. and I was thinking of the Palace.. Your Kingdom.. wondering if I could enter.. since I knew who YOU were.. maybe I be your servant.. I be your slave then.. so I have set my eyes on Your Kingdom.. I wanted to get close to YOU.. walking through the Day.. I would Not eat.. not much Out in the desert.. so I had to stay hungry for few days.. I would stop for rest at Night.. LOOKING at the stars in the sky.. Looking at the Moon.. and I would unfold the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I would Kiss the paper and say.. MAH MAH.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I will see you soon.. since I have No other place to Go.. I have made UP my Mind.. that I will come to YOU instead.. so I would take some rest.. thinking of YOU.. missing YOU.. sitting on rocks.. watching the Night passes by.. LOOKING at the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. early in the morning.. before the Sun sets.. I would start the Walk.. I have NO other place to go.. but I only wanted to see YOU.. to tell YOU that I would do anything to be close to YOU.. I be a servant.. Your Slave if YOU want me too.. so I started this journey to go to YOU.. did Not think that the winter storm was coming.. and It got so Cold.. I saw the snow flakes falling from the sky and dropping to freezing cold.. I begin to think about Death.. Maybe I won't make it after.. I am suppose to die here instead.. But I want to tell YOU something before I die.. I have to tell YOU one more time.. and I kept on walking through the freezing cold.. I would shiver and I would cry.. is it suppose to end like this.. that I always wanted to go to the Palace.. always dreamed of being close to YOU and to Love YOU.. even though YOU do not have to tell me anything.. I am Not asking YOU to tell me.. until you know in your Heart that YOU do.. if YOU truly love Me.. I believe Dreams will come true.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. If I die right here.. will YOU know that I never stopped believed in love.. I have never stopped believe that One day.. something Can happen.. and the lack of Food and the energy and the coldness of the air.. I just could Not continue to walk further so I fell on the ground.. and ALL I can hear is.. and ALL I wanted to tell YOU is that I love YOU.. that I never gave UP on love.. I truly feel it in my heart.. don't YOU know that I loved YOU and still do.. and I saw my tears ran down as I would close both eyes.. I would hear some noises.. and my two eyes opens.. and I am laying on the ground.. I turn my head too look.. an Older man was sitting.. reading pages of something and looks at Me.. I could Not believe that I did Not die.. But.. I heard.. it is the WILL to Live.. because I know that IN my Heart.. I am truly determined to Love YOU.. My WILL to Live so that I can Love YOU is what I got.. as I would hear.. I would be calling Out to YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. PRINCESS.. CROWN PRINCESS.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and even when I was on His back.. I would be calling Out to YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. that I needs to go to you.. and too see YOU.. and as I would be healing from the cold.. and the Low of energy cause of the lack of food.. the Older man became my teacher.. telling me that I can't go Now.. that I needed to wait and give some time.. and He was going to teach me the Art of War.. the Art of swordsmanship.. and Saw my Heart.. my Dreams of Loving YOU.. and to be protecting the Nation YOU were going to create.. and I would sit.. and I wanted to tell Him.. why.. and next to me is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. I wanted to tell this Older man.. I should just go.. and just go to YOU before it is just too Late.. but One thing that the Master told me is this.. if I truly love YOU.. I will be a Man.. a warrior who can Protect YOU.. Like a real MAN who fights.. and Just like my Dead father.. he was like the second father I really needed.. I would turn.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. But My Heart misses YOU.. what if I can't take this missing away.. I know that I miss YOU so much right Now.. what do I do when my Heart feels like it has been cut with a knife.. and My Heart right Now feels like bleeding to death.. and I wanted to say.. I should of been left to die instead because I knew I was going to die anyways.. but I looked at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would take a Look and would say.. MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. CROWN PRINCESS.. YOU do not know How I am feeling right Now.. I just came from the Garden.. and I left everything so that I can go to YOU.. I have made UP my mind and My Hear to see YOU.. even though I may Not be able to enter the gates.. at least I can go to ask if I can see YOU for Once.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. what do I do at this Point.. because I can't take this Pain anymore.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. I needs to go to see YOU.. I remember I got UP.. the Old Man was sleeping.. and I would try to go.. I went Out.. but it was just too cold.. and I knew.. maybe I truly needed to wait.. after some healing time.. then I would go to see YOU.. of course.. The Older man gave me Books.. Books to read.. read and to study which it instructed the Art of war.. using the sword.. I would always PUT the Art sketch paper next to me.. I would look at the Drawing picture of YOU.. and I would tell YOU.. MAH MAH.. I will see YOU soon.. I will be there soon.. and One day I will let YOU know about this journey How I came to be.. YOU know that I love YOU right.. and I would start to write YOU a Letter.. Like a Diary on paper.. and started to share.. putting into a BOX that the Older MAN gave me.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of You.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. and every night.. I would go Out.. LOOKING at the MOON.. and I would pull out and unfold the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would look at YOU.. I would walk into this One room that was given to me to sleep.. and I would write YOU.. each Night I would write as I would put this Letter into the Box.. knowing that One day.. some day SOON I will see YOU and I am going to give you the Box.. with the FULL of letters.. telling YOU what I been through those days when I felt alone.. when I felt very lonely and just kept on Missing YOU.. I would cry some nights.. that I told myself.. the main reason WHY I left the garden in the first Place is so that I can go to YOU.. and show YOU that I have come long ways just to be close to YOU.. but Now.. I feel like I am stuck here.. what am I suppose to do when I want to go see YOU.. and I would bump heads with the older man who told me to be patient.. to wait.. to wait until.. but I just wanted to go to see YOU.. How Long must I wait.. what if.. I would go out side into the Night.. and Unfold the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and say.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. How long must I stay here.. I don't want to stay here for long because I want to go see YOU.. but I can't let go of my Dreams.. I have made a promise that I wanted to be a real MAN for YOU.. a WARRIOR and a Man who holds the sword so that I can fight to Protect Your Nation.. I want to also be Your Fighter who will never backs UP any fights that presses On.. but I am still having this Heart of Mine.. I want to see YOU.. see YOU how much YOU have grown.. I want to tell YOU.. for a Long time.. How I been loving YOU since.. and still I just can't let go of Loving YOU.. what do I do WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. can YOU please tell me what I must do.. because even for loving YOU seems like a

MAH MAH.. One Box and If you open this One Box.. it be many letters.. I was aching.. in pains I would tell YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. How much I missed YOU.. and what it felt like because I could not go to YOU Yet.. how delaying and spending more time with this teacher.. How I just did Not want to stay long because it seemed like He wanted me to stay there for a Long time instead.. But finally.. the day comes WHEN HE gives me a paper.. and HE puts HIs name and says that if I can take this Letter.. I am able to go into the opening of the Palace.. I waited for a Long time.. I waited for more than eight years.. that much time has passed by since.. and Now.. the paper is in my hands and I am allowed to go and be a part.. Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I always wanted to be a part of Your Dreams.. to be a Part of Your Nation which YOU are building.. and to go see YOU.. and a Friend.. close friend of Mine also is coming with Me.. to tell you that I love YOU and that I have never forgotten to tell YOU still I love YOU..MAH MAH.. I am taking you to the Garden.. I want to show YOU something.. and I am walking.. my hand on the Strings of the Horse.. and YOU are sitting on the Top of the Horse.. with Your White Dress.. as I am walking.. hand grabbing unto the strings and the Horse is walking next to me.. I see the Garden.. and Closer and closer we are getting.. I would turn my Head looking UP toward YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. YOU know that YOU did not have to do this.. YOU are in the Royal Blood Line.. and I am a son of a servant.. but why do you want to go with me here.. you know that I am a low Born.. from the lowest clan.. but tell me Why.. all you need to say is one word and I can just die in the streets.. and No one would know my Name.. would ever recognize me.. but why do you want me to take YOU back to this Garden.. and I would turn my Head looking straight and I went into the Garden.. hand grabbing unto the strings of the Horse.. I don't hear any words from YOU.. as YOU are sitting.. with a Crown on top of Your Head.. with the most beautiful white Dress.. My eyes.. which I just can't keep it still.. My eyes just kept on looking at YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. MAH MAH.. My Princess.. CONG JU MAH MAH.. why are you asking me to take YOU back to this Garden.. I told you that my Heart left this Garden long ago.. the day I left was when I saw YOU with another MAN.. the royal Prince.. it hurts me when I come back to this Garden.. it hurts me of the bad memories I had when My Heart would torn into pieces.. knowing that I am so little.. I am so lost.. I was so confused.. even though I knew that I could never be with YOU.. but still.. my Heart was torn when I saw YOU standing with the Royal Prince.. How small and little I felt when I saw YOU holding his Hand.. I would stop.. the Horse stops.. and I am looking at the Bed of flowers.. and I am not sure why you wanted to come to this Flower.. as I would stand next to YOU.. two guards also came.. and they would help YOU to get Out of the Horse.. and I am looking at the Bed of Flowers.. and this is where my Father is buried.. of course YOU don't know it.. but I have taken you to his Grave.. as YOU were standing next to me.. and I wanted to tell YOU something.. which I had Not before.. and I turn my Head on the side to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do YOU know what this Is.. and I would look at YOU.. turning your head to look at me.. and I would turn my Head to look at the bed of Flowers.. I know that YOU wanted to come to the Garden but before we can go further down.. I wanted to stop by my Father's grave.. this is where My Father is buried.. When he died.. I did not know where to put His Body.. but I wanted his Grave to be close where I am able to find and to go.. my Father may not be here.. but I know his spirit is with me.. I wanted to remember my Father.. and wanted to be close to HIM.. so I remember this would be the best place to bury his Body.. so with the grave diggers.. I would be standing here.. crying as my Father's body would be laid to rest.. I remember I would be crying for him.. days after days would go by.. I still could Not believe that My Father would be gone.. and I wanted to show YOU.. this is my Father's Grave.. when times are rough.. when times are tough.. and I feel like pouring out my tears.. I would come to my Father's grave.. I remember when I would be sad.. when I be hurt.. He would be next to me.. I would be crying as he would tell me all things be okay in the end.. Now MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that YOU may not remember my Father.. He was close to you Once.. and yes.. he was your servant.. the King.. PEH HA would put my father in charge to look after YOU.. I am not sure if YOU ever remember my Father.. of course something happened that my father went into the prison.. and he was sentence to death.. I saw HIM in the prison bars.. a carriage with bars.. and he told me.. never to Love YOU.. Never to love the Princess.. and I saw the carriage with bars leave off.. that was the last thing.. I think YOU were young back then.. because I was Young too when he died.. MAH MAH.. do you remember the Man who was your servant.. and I see YOU turn your head to look at me.. I see your head moving Up and down.. means YOU do remember my Father.. I think he told me YOU were so bright.. very bold and courageous.. Loves to shoot bows and arrows.. told me that YOU love riding Horses and loves to Hunt wild games.. has never seen any one like YOU before.. that My father believes if YOU were a Prince.. YOU be a Mighty warrior Prince is what he told me.. but YOU are a Princess instead.. I don't know why and I don't know how this happened to me.. why would I love a Mighty Warrior Princess.. my father told me before He was going to prison.. Never Love the Princess.. Because something Horrible can happen to me in the end.. and Now.. I have brought YOU to the Man.. the one who use to serve YOU as a servant.. this is my Father's Grave.. this is the bed of Flowers I was talking to YOU about for a long time.. and now you were wondering how come I am telling YOU this HUH.. MAH MAH.. I know its be long years since then.. and many years has passed by.. there was No chance where I was able to tell YOU.. everything happened so fast.. I know that I should of never met YOU.. then I am sure I would never fall in love.. but what good is all that talk about the past when I am here in the present with YOU.. I told YOU that I am Not afraid to Die.. if I die because of loving YOU is a sin.. then Please.. Kill me for my Sin.. but I did not mean to love YOU this Long.. I did not mean to love YOU.. it just happened out of nowhere.. I remember it was the day my Father came from work.. serving YOU.. and He brought a Picture.. he brought the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. he told me when he came Home late into the night.. I was Not sleeping.. and showed me the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. My father was smiling when He gave me the Picture.. the sketch paper.. telling me an Artist drew this Picture of CONG JU NIM.. I would be asking How YOU.. MAH MAH was like.. I was very curious because my Father who served YOU would always be smiling.. and He was very happy to be there as Your Servant.. of course.. I took the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU into my hands and I looked.. when my eyes first saw this Picture.. I would feel something was wrong with my Heart.. it would burn and kept on burning with me.. I would place my hand on the chest.. I don't know but something is wrong with me.. what is happening to My Heart.. it burns like fire within me.. and my Father would stand there and He looks.. He told me it should not be.. that this is Wrong.. and I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch paper.. My Father looks.. and he grabs the Sketch Paper and snatches off my Hands.. and He turns and walks off.. I remember I started to cry.. crying loud and loud.. asking for the Sketch Art Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I want to see the Picture.. I want to see YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I want to see YOU.. I would be looking for it.. my father would tell me Not to love YOU.. I just can't.. I should Not.. because If the King knows that I do.. even he can die because of Me.. if the words get out.. and someone finds Out.. I can be executed with my Father and he tells me never to Love YOU.. I remember my father was sleeping in his room.. and I came into my father's room.. I see the Art Sketch paper laying next to HIM.. I went over and I grabbed the Art sketch paper.. walking into my room.. I would unfold and find myself looking at the Picture of YOU.. my hand goes across the paper.. and I just wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to see MAH MAH.. can I ever see CONG JU MAH MAH.. would I get the chance to see YOU.. and I would sit by myself.. looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my Hands.. my arms.. putting the Picture of YOU.. the Art sketch Paper to my chest.. I want to see YOU but I want to love YOU.. I saw my Father looking at me.. he stands in the room.. He sees my arms.. the Art sketch paper.. the picture of YOU close to my Chest.. close to my Heart and I turn too look up.. I want to see CONG JU NIM.. CAN I SEE MAH MAH.. Father.. can I please see how CONG JU NIM is like.. Please Father.. and He gets very angry at me and grabs.. snatches it off.. take the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture and tears it into the pieces and tosses it out side.. and He walks off the house.. and I would look out side.. I see the Art sketch paper torn into pieces.. and I would cry.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I would go out and sit.. picking UP the pieces toward.. trying to find each torn pieces of papers.. and the light rain would not help me at all

MAH MAH.. Bed of flowers because this is where My Father is buried.. it has been a long time since I visited him.. but I wanted to tell YOU this.. my Father wanted me Not to Love YOU.. told me that YOU were so dangerous to Me.. that my life has to be on the line if I cross this Line and yes.. I have crossed the line for a long time.. but the Word never got out until now.. I have been loving YOU the day I saw Your Picture.. I have never met YOU in my life but knew that one day something has to happened.. I wanted to tell my Father.. I am at his grave with YOU next to Me.. of course he is right because I am on the verge of facing my own death.. but I want to tell my Father.. I will go down with HIM.. and I turn to you.. MAH MAH.. I loved YOU then.. I loved you when I never met YOU.. I started to love you when I met YOU the first time.. I love you much more because I still have life in me.. if I am given me a new day.. I am so thankful that this day is made so that I can love YOU MORE.. Now.. I am able to show you my Father's grave.. I was warned and been warned for a long time.. not to cross the line.. Not to love YOU.. but My Heart.. I just could not let YOU go MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I guess I wanted to tell YOU.. whatever happens to me in the future.. at least YOU get to see my Father's grave.. in the bed of flowers where he is buried.. I am Not sure if this was the main reason why you wanted to come to this Garden.. is it too meet my Father's grave.. because this is where My Father was buried.. after he died.. His Body.. his Bones are here now.. as long as I still have life in me for a day.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. PRINCESS.. I will always love YOU.. even then.. even now and forever I will love YOU..I am Looking Up at the Moon.. the Seven Men are behind Me on Watch Guard.. the New Recruits are in the tents and they are all sleeping.. I would unroll the Paper.. the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. my hand runs over.. Looking at How Beautiful YOU are.. I have Never seen such a Great Beauty.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I know that I am getting the New Recruits.. the New Young Men.. So many people are waiting.. the Fences are blocking More New Recruits.. and I am Not sure where all these YOUNG MEN came from.. but.. Many wants to Join this Military Arts.. wants to join the Circle.. But it is YOU.. CROWN PRINCESS.. these are YOUR YOUNG MEN.. the New Recruits who are.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I only saw you this Morning.. watching More YOUNG MEN.. the New RECRUITS.. By the Fences.. trying to get in.. but the Fences would Not let them Pass through.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. the training will start when the early Morning.. when the Sun comes UP.. I am going to prepare these YOUNG NEW RECRUITS.. they are going to come to this training Ground.. the Ones who passed the examinations and now.. ready to pick UP the WOODEN SWORD STICKS.. and I would be turning Back.. Looking at the Seven Men.. the friends of Mine.. and they all look at me with a SMILE.. and I turn to LOOK UP.. looking at the MOON.. Just thinking of YOU.. HOW far I came.. and How it is because I love YOU.. I never stopped Loving YOU and that is the Driving force behind of Never giving UP Hope.. it is because I love YOU.. I wish that WANGSEJABI MAH MAH knows this Heart of Mine.. that I would see.. A Messenger comes.. I hear the Horse running.. and the Horse stops.. the Messenger gets Down from the Horse and LOOKS at me and the Seven Men.. He shows me a Scroll.. and the Enemies are going to Come Back again.. and they want to fight again for this War.. it is Not Finished Yet.. and the Messenger tells me.. get the YOUNG MEN RECRUITS also ready for the war.. I watch the Messenger gets ON the Horse and He leaves out of sight.. as I am thinking about Another War.. I am Not sure if I will make this One alive.. But.. For YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. we Must Win for YOU.. so that YOU WILL BE our QUEEN.. and to make this Nation stronger and the People.. the New Recruits stronger to protect YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. DO YOU remember.. When I first came.. and I am looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture.. as I am speaking looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture.. drawing picture of YOU.. and I would say to your Drawing Picture.. DO YOU NOT remember when I first came to the Training Ground.. I wanted to come.. I wanted to be the part of the Military Arts.. but My Heart.. I always believed that I will meet YOU one day SOON.. that I get to show YOU my Face.. I get to draw Near.. to get closer to YOU.. I remember it was in a Night like this.. and as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. I would go back to the Good Ole Days.. I am sitting in the ROOM.. with the Closet Friend.. I am looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. and I would smile.. I will see YOU soon.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Please be Patient and wait.. I know that I be meeting you so SOON.. I lost my Father.. but there was a Older MAN who became Like a Father.. taught me the Arts of Swordsmanship.. and has told me.. it is TIME for me to enter the training Camp.. the Training Ground.. and Gave me a Letter.. with the Stamp.. I would be looking at the Letter.. and His Mark of stamp.. on the Other Hand is the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I can't believe this Teacher gave me this Stamp Letter.. which Allows me to go direct into the Training Ground.. and I know.. the Next day.. Many are going to enter the training Ground.. or the Camp which YOU MUST pass in the Camp to go into the Ground.. but This Letter.. with the Stamp.. for Many Years.. I have been waiting for this day to Come.. for Many Years.. I would be coming Out side.. and I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. and I would ask.. I will be there very SOON.. I know that the distance between YOU and I seems a LONG WAY.. but I believe.. I know.. why.. because I know my Heart.. My Heart which Loves YOU.. I have Never stopped thinking of YOU.. I have never stopped Loving YOU.. YOU may Not know It.. when YOU LOOK at the distance between YOU and the MOON.. it is very Far to touch that MOON.. but I know.. Because I love YOU.. it does Not seems so Far any more.. as Long as I believe and I know.. I will be seeing YOU SOON.. I will be meeting YOU so SOON.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. the Closest friend would look at me.. but I never get tired of LOOKING at YOU.. even though the Drawing was when YOU were much more Younger Years.. I do remember that with out YOU.. I know that I can't dream of coming this Close.. dreaming of getting close to YOU but I never stopped dreaming of Us.. of We.. that One Day.. I will see you and meet YOU.. I be close to YOU that I am able to speak and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. as the Next Day Comes.. me and the Closest Friend are standing in the Line.. the Line is so Long.. too many Young Men.. waiting in the Line to either go into the Camp or to the Ground.. and My Heart is beating.. It is beating so fast because I know that I am getting Close to YOU.. I see about one Hundred Young men standing.. waiting for their Time to enter.. I am so excited.. but also.. My Heart keeps on beating just too Fast.. I would be holding the Art Sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. and I would be looking at YOU.. YOU do Not understand How Long I waited.. I had to count for many Days.. Many Weeks and Many Years.. and was Not sure at First.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. I am here on the Line.. I am right Close.. and I just can't believe that I had to wait this Long just to stand Even in this Line.. but also.. this Letter is the way I can see YOU.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Crown Princess.. few days Ago.. even just the few days ago.. I felt like I was very far.. that I wanted to say.. Maybe I am thinking just too Hard.. or Just the dream is Non Sense.. WHO is going to believe me that I can get close to YOU.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would be staying with the Older Man.. who was my teacher.. I was living with Him for awhile.. in the WOODS.. where there was nothing to DO.. NO dreams to think about.. Just be chopping down woods.. and getting the water in a bucket.. doing a lot of chores for this Older MAN.. who was a teacher.. Like a Father Figure to Me.. I would be walking Out side.. In the Night.. I would stand Out side.. LOOKING UP.. looking at the MOON and I would ask.. after looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU.. am I NOT allowed to dream.. Can a fellow Like me dreams TOO.. because maybe I am Not suppose to dream anything.. living as a Slave Boy.. But I do Have a Dreams.. and I would look at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and I would say to YOU in the Picture.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. why can't some one like me dream.. will YOU laugh and Mock at me if I tell YOU these dreams I have.. and It is ALL About getting closer and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't I even share this Dream to YOU.. WILL you allow me to share it what I have IN my Heart.. will YOU open your ears to listen to My Dreams.. will YOU hear it and give me permission to Speak and to share this Dream of Mine to YOU.. is it truly wrong to Love YOU.. Please tell me that I am right.. I told YOU HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. ever since I was A Boy.. walking with my Father.. another BOY who drew a Picture of YOU.. He fell before me while He was running.. He tripped and the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing picture of YOU came.. and When I bent over to pick up the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU.. My Heart.. I could Not tell my Heart to stop Beating.. I don't know why my Heart kept on

MAH MAH.. have this Picture.. the drawing of YOU.. and ever since I had it in my hands.. I would never let this drawing picture go.. because I just Love YOU.. I would be waiting in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. but the Line would Not Move.. Just too many Young Men has all shown UP for this Once a Year event.. and I know If I don't make it this Year.. I know I have to wait Next year.. but this Letter is only for this Year usage.. so I would wait and wait.. even though the Line would Not Move.. few days ago living with the Old Teacher.. I would be cleaning.. and the Old Teacher asked me to come Closer.. and I just could Not believe what He wanted to show Me.. and Showed Me.. the Letter.. when the Old Teacher gave me His Letter to me.. I would sit in the ROOM and I would cry.. alone I kept ON crying because.. I always dreamed of Getting close to YOU.. it felt like I would never see YOU again.. ever since in the Garden.. so many Years has passed since the last time.. the Old memories of YOU.. but I would revisit the Old Memories because I missed YOU.. when the Old Teacher called me to come into His room.. and gave me the Letter.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and I would tell Your Picture.. what if the Old teacher never gave me the Letter.. I wonder what would happen.. I would be still living with HIM and be His Slave instead.. I would take a LOOK at the Art sketch Paper.. the Picture drawing of YOU and say.. I never stopped dreaming.. the Old teacher also knows that I have the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. I am always taking it with me.. wherever I go.. the Art sketch paper.. the drawing picture of YOU comes with me.. when there are Hard days.. when I be struggling.. Or just missing YOU.. I would pull and unroll the Paper.. and I would look at the Drawing Picture of YOU.. and I would say.. I want to see YOU SOON.. I want to be close to YOU SOON.. but I would say this and believe it.. but it seems like It is never going to happen to me.. but I want to get close.. My Heart wants to tell YOU that I love YOU.. when can I tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. but it seems like it is so Far.. Just like when I come Out side.. and LOOKING up to the MOON.. it is so far for my hands to touch that MOON.. the long distance.. which it is IMPOSSIBLE for me.. when will that day be when I can see YOU and be close to YOU.. when my arms can hold YOU near and I am able to say.. how much I love YOU.. but.. when the Letter came.. and the Old Teacher tells me.. when He stamps on the End.. That I am going direct to the Ground.. Not the camp site.. and I saw the Stamp He put.. I would cry in the ROOM.. just could Not believe It.. that HE is letting me get close to YOU.. without this Stamp and this Letter.. I would be still waiting.. and Only LOOKING at the MOON wishing every night.. but feeling that distance that IT is Never going to happen.. but when the Stamp was set.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. I would run Out side.. and I turn to LOOK at the Moon.. holding the Stamp Letter in my Hand and I would be waving the Letter.. telling that MOON.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. Just Wait.. I am coming.. I am going to get close to YOU.. I am going to be there very SOON.. I know that One day soon.. I will tell YOU how much I love YOU because I know that I do.. I never stopped believing that I will love YOU and I can say it to YOU SOON.. as I am standing in the Line.. with the Closest friend.. I begin to see the Men moving forward.. and yes.. Finally I get to enter the Ground.. I will see you soon Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I will see you soon.. because I love YOU..I am looking Across.. Standing by the Gates.. with the three Friends.. as the Back of the Palace Guards.. I am looking at YOU.. and so many people has gathered.. ALL of the TOP Generals.. the Commanders.. the Head servant.. maids.. even the Highest Kitchen Lady.. and ALL of the Special Body Guards.. the servants and I can hear a Great Celebration.. on the Outer Court.. I am watching YOU.. looking through the gate Bars.. I am wondering.. what is going to Happen after this.. WILL I able to still love YOU.. Look at the place I am standing.. and my three friends who are standing next to me sees Me.. I am sad.. My Heart is broken because NOW.. it is so Hard to Love YOU.. of Course I should be the One who should be the Most happiest to support YOU.. I know that it was ME who told YOU to leave.. to GO.. to go back to the Palace because It is the King.. PEH HA is calling.. He wanted to show YOU and give YOU something.. I was so Happy to hear this News.. that something Great was going to Happen.. and I am now Sad.. NOT sad in a Bad way.. I am just so sad because of this Distance.. I want to come Close.. I want to be near YOU.. able to hold Your Hands.. able to be close and to tell YOU at least I miss YOU.. or say I love YOU.. YOU don't have to accept the Words but.. If I were able to get closer to YOU.. at least YOU are able to feel the energy.. able to see me Smile.. but.. NOW.. I feel like only looking at the MOON can be more closer than for me to LOOK at YOU.. I am looking through the Bar Gate.. as I am watching the People.. the Most important People.. even the Prime Minister has come.. also the Queen.. the People all lowers and falls to the Floor.. QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. people all shouts on the floor.. lowering as she walks.. YOUR Mother has come and Me with the three friends all hit the Floor.. even though she can't see us.. knowing that the QUEEN has COME.. there is a Throne Seat.. in the Middle.. but a stage which YOU are on.. and Now the Messenger Shouts Out.. PEH HA!! the King is Coming.. the KING has come.. PEH HA! and all the people shouts Loud.. PEH HA! and me with the three friends shouts together PEH HA! and the King says for the attendants.. all rise UP and every one stands UP on the two feet.. so me and the three Friends all get UP.. the King is on the Outer Court.. and there is stairs.. He looks at YOU.. HE is with tears in his Eyes looking at YOU.. and there is a Big Crown.. and as the King steps UP He tells YOU to sit on the Throne.. and I look.. It can't be.. and He places a Crown ON the TOP of Your Head.. and He looks at YOU.. kisses Your Hand and says.. Now the CROWN PRINCESS.. SOON to Lead.. SOON to take over the Place.. and everyone Falls ON to the Floor.. lowers all.. and Says CROWN PRINCESS.. I am On the Floor.. with the three Friends.. HWANGTAEJABI.. WANGSEJABI.. MAH MAH.. and every one shouts.. YOU sit there very shock.. but We all knew that IN time YOU will become the TOP RULER for the Nation.. People cheers and shouts Out.. WANGSEJABI.. CROWN PRINCESS.. we honor YOU.. the Commanders comes and they take a Bow to YOU.. kneeling and lower the Heads.. to the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI MAH MAH.. the Crown Princess.. and Each Man comes to kiss your hand.. few Commanders.. the TOP 1st Chief Generals line UP.. to the 2nd In command of Chief Generals.. to the 3rd in command of Chief Generals.. and the Lower top generals and I am watching.. this is the Most biggest celebration.. very close of becoming the Ruler.. and I am falling looking on the floor.. What am I suppose to DO.. One side of my Heart.. I am truly joyful.. and I am so Happy for YOU.. I knew in time YOU would become the Crown Princess.. WANGSEJABI MAH MAH.. I would feel so happy that Now you are going to be taking over.. even though there is NO crown Prince.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA made that calling.. Knowing that YOU are ready.. I am looking at the King and the Queen.. both lower themselves before YOU.. I am in shock.. It is PEH HA and HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and they made this Happen.. Now.. On the Other side.. I am watching all of these Most important people who works for the King.. they are all going over kissing Your hand.. I see a long Line and I would be on this Position till the Sun Goes Down.. and I see YOU still sitting on that Throne with the Crown TOP of your Head.. as I am hearing foot steps.. and it stops by the gate door bar.. I know someone is coming.. Is it my turn to kiss Your Hand.. If I kiss your hand.. I know that I can't love YOU any more.. what about me.. What about my Heart.. WILL you still let me Love YOU even after I kiss YOUR HAND.. I want to know.. will you let me still come close.. because I told YOU that I did not want to Come.. I knew that THIS would happen.. I told you before.. when We were back at the garden.. up on the Hill side by the tree.. I told YOU to let me stay Alone.. that I did Not want to go with YOU.. that I told my friends to take YOU instead.. because I knew that this is going to happen to Me.. WHY are you making my Heart to Bleed.. WHY don't you just give me a sharp blade knife and cut UP my stomach instead.. it be better if I just die like this.. I told YOU that YOU SHOULD go alone.. and I know that YOU wanted me to see YOU and to join in the celebration.. Yes.. it is the Best day I see.. it is the greatest day I am feeling at One side.. that Now.. YOU are the Crown Princess.. HWANGTAEJABI.. MAH MAH.. but the next thing I want to know.. what am I suppose to do with my Heart.. I have been loving you for so Long.. I mean it has been such a very long time.. and I began to think.. if it is all about MAH MAH.. WANGSEJABI.. the Crown Princess.. YOU becoming the Next Ruler.. I told you that I did not want to come because the Distance is going to push me far away from YOU.. that is why leaving me behind would been a great idea because my eyes seeing YOU Close is good but bad when I can't ever come close to YOU.. DO YOU KNOW how much I love YOU.. DO you know that I love you so much that

I can't sing at all.. I won't sing to you at all but.. I would press the recorder and let YOU Hear my voice on the Recorder of what I said.. I would let it all Out to tell YOU that I loved YOU.. from the day I first saw YOU.. the moment I had to be far away.. as I would be facing the Walls at night.. going Out at Night looking at the Moon.. watching the showers of the rains fall down on me as I would be playing the Little Piano out side.. My Heart was burning because I kept on missing YOU.. even I would think that the showers of the rain.. it is going to cool me down.. this burning in my heart of Loving YOU and of missing YOU together.. I saw the rain falling from the sky.. I took with me the Little Piano.. and stood.. getting Hit by the rain.. and I would be playing.. fingers would press on the key bars.. and I would open up my Heart to YOU as I would stand looking at the MOON.. asking do YOU Hear me now.. DO you hear me from here where I stand.. I would be crying in the rain because I be missing YOU.. Nothing ever worked Out but.. I wanted you to stand next to me.. maybe this is it.. and giving YOU the Letter.. I press the recorder so that YOU can hear me.. what I needs to say.. and I would tell YOU this.. I been missing YOU lately.. is it because I am growing older.. Maybe.. is it because I am thinking you may forget me.. or is it because YOU may find another Love.. it is None of those things because I know who I love.. when YOU are sure about who YOU love.. it does Not worry YOU at all.. I know that I love YOU.. I have been for such a Long time.. as long as YOU are able to receive it.. it does Not matter How far YOU are.. who you are with or seeing.. I don't care about that.. because I know that I have loved you since the day I first saw YOU until Now.. I been patient and I been waiting for YOU.. YOU are standing here next to Me.. as YOU are hearing this Little Piano playing.. I been wondering for How long much time.. but when I think about the TIME.. it only hurts me more painfully so I started to think it is going to come soon.. I know that as long as YOU KNOW IT.. YOU will one day know how much I love YOU.. YOU may not know it yet.. it can take even several more years.. I should never count on time if I love YOU.. just to know as long as it will come soon and to believe.. that I love YOU.. and.. ONE Day it will come to YOU.. One day YOU will realize the One who loves YOU.. you truly to run away.. or tried to push as far as YOU can.. but if the Only ONE MAN never gives UP on YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. can you still here the Little Piano Playing.. I am playing to tell YOU as you read the Letter.. I love YOU.. I have told you many times that I loved YOU.. do you not still believe me yet.. YOU are wondering.. when am I going to give up on you right.. as long as YOU know right now.. I still love YOU.. why would I give up on you.. when YOU are my Heart Beat away.. I know that I be seeing you very soon.. I would turn to look at you as I am playing on the Little Piano.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I would say to YOU.. I took this Little Piano Out side.. there were nights when you find Peace in the Night.. standing Out side.. alone with this Little Piano.. I would turn to look at the Moon.. I would only see your Face in the center of the Moon.. with Your Smile.. my arm stretches out.. my hand opens wide to touch.. I wanted to touch YOU but YOU were so far.. I saw you in the center of the Moon.. I could Not touch you with this Hand.. but.. I would play on this Piano.. on this Little Piano I would try to play a song.. I would look UP at the MOON and say.. DO you Hear Me.. I know that I will see YOU SOON.. I know that I will meet YOU soon.. of course I don't know when.. I have NO time Line but I know.. if YOU KNOW WHO is the One loving YOU.. I know that YOUR Heart will be opened.. I know that YOUR Ears be opened too.. and I believe YOU want that man to Love you over and over again.. because I want to Love YOU.. just as YOU are.. just the way YOU are suppose to be loved.. and my fingers stop pressing on the Little Piano.. and I turn to look at YOU.. I say.. I love you.. just the way this Little Piano Loves to play a tune to make a sound of its music for YOU.. I just wanted to say.. it is because I love YOU.. How much I waited for YOU.. can I tell YOU.. your ears.. do YOU know that I have been waiting for you for a long time now.. just missing YOU.. can I tell you.. your ears.. How much I love YOU.. will you accept these words of Mine.. that I love YOU.. I can't believe YOU are gone.. I am trying to get YOU off my Mind.. looking at your pictures really stole my Heart.. How can I burn My Mind.. keeps on thinking of YOU.. your smile.. I love those eyes.. there is something inside of Those Eyes.. I wonder what are your thoughts.. I want to see what is in your MIND.. I wish that I can able to read those mind.. what are YOU thinking.. If I ever cross Your Mind.. DO you think of Me.. or Do you even say my Name.. will YOU call upon my Name.. then I want to know Your Mind.. How about Your Heart.. I wish that YOU can give Your Heart to me.. let my finger traces and touch Your Heart.. I will write something.. I means a Name.. My finger will touch Your Heart as it will spell Out a Name into Your Heart.. if YOU are able to give me Your Heart.. I will write my name across Your Heart and with my Lips.. I will kiss Your Heart. letting YOU know that the name and the kiss belongs to a person which is from Me.. I will never let YOU go and will never Let YOU forget.. Only if I can have your Heart.. I will Hold YOUR Heart.. finger touch and traces writing into that Heart.. YOUR HEART.. When I give Your Heart back.. I want to ask YOU.. DO I ever cross Your Mind.. DO you think of me as much as I do.. I think about you all the time.. it drives me crazy.. I feel like I just can't get rid of YOU OFF my Mind.. Inside my Heart.. YOUR NAME has been written Down.. NO matter How many times I want to erase Your Name off my Heart.. My Mind tells me.. Not too.. because I love YOU.. if this is happening to me.. and I can explain this so well about HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. can this happen to YOU as well.. that is why I want your heart.. Please.. give me Your Heart.. Let my finger touch.. Let my finger trace.. Let my Finger spell Out one's name.. Let me finger touch to say I love Your Heart.. I want to know if YOU will give me a chance.. a Chance for me to Love YOU.. only way is when YOU think of me.. YOUR mind needs to tell YOU Yes.. Your Mind has to work with Your Heart and together has to tell YOU.. If I am able to have Your Heart.. Your Heart is able to speak to Your Mind and tell YOU what is in your heart so that the MIND will let you think.. think about me.. I want to be the one who is in your Thought.. your Mind.. But.. without Your Heart being touched by my hands.. My hands wants to hold Your Heart and I want to speak to Your Heart.. will you let me write my Name.. I want to write My Name in your Heart.. so Please.. pretty please let me write into that Heart of yours.. so that when the MIND looks at Your Heart.. it will look at one's Name.. who is this Person.. whose Name is this and start to think of the Person.. I want to be the One who be loved by YOU.. I want to be the one who you be thinking of and feeling of.. I want to be the One who wants to enter YOUR HEART and YOUR MIND.. I am not going to force YOU.. But I need Your permission.. Like I am knocking at the Door.. am I allow to draw near to YOU.. can I come closer to this Door.. If you want me to leave.. I am not going to force myself to draw or get closer to YOU.. But I do want to come.. can I be the one to Knock.. help me to get Your permission.. I need Your Permission so that I can love YOU.. Openly and freely love YOU.. But YOU have brought this Line.. I needs to go across so that I am allowed to draw closer and near to YOU because I love YOU.. will you allow me to get closer.. Please help me to understand.. without Your words.. I need your permission first.. Before I can knock at this Door.. I need you to answer me Yes.. or No.. I want Yes to be Yes.. I do not like the word No.. as I am laying on the bed.. my two eyes opens.. I am looking at the ceiling.. the fan is turning round and round.. I close both eyes trying to sleep.. but I can feel something near Me on the Bed.. I turn aside to see the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wish that it be you.. I want to say I love YOU.. I want to hold YOU.. of course it is pretty cold outside.. I want to hold YOU.. close and tell YOU I LOVE YOU.. and I would put my arms around YOU and tell YOU.. I don't ever want to let go of YOU.. but I know you have choices in life.. but I want to be the one to love YOU.. that is why I need Your Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your Heart so that The Heart of yours can say to me.. If I can get your permission to love YOU for the rest of your Life.. may I be the one to love YOU.. will you allow me to love YOU.. I can't without YOUR permission.. so please.. Give me Your Heart.. allow me to write my Name.. with my Finger and traces over.. spell my name into your Heart so that YOU will never Go.. I can't live without YOU because YOU are all in my Heart.. and in my Mind.. If I am able to write my Name into your heart with my Finger.. I know that maybe Not now.. but Later.. the Heart.. YOUR HEART can remind you of a Person.. who loves YOU.. Your Mind would look at your Heart.. it is that Name.. That Name just sticks Out of nowhere.. WHO IS this Person.. why is that name written in Your Heart and the Mind can help me to think of me where I can come across Your Mind.. WILL you let Me.. allow me to write.. It is not going to hurt at all.. I am not here to hurt YOU.. but to just love YOU.. why push me away.. why are you not here with me.. all I ever want to give you is my Love.. that is all freely I can give.. Love that comes within me.. a Love that has NO price

I just can't stop looking at this Little Piano.. why is it keep on telling me to come Near.. and I am thinking of YOU.. I need your Heart.. I need your Heart here with Me.. that is only way I can tell YOU what is IN my Heart.. I am asking YOU.. Heart to Heart.. Please.. tell me can I have your Heart close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to say that I love you like I am so Crazy in Love with YOU.. Please.. How can I have your Heart close to Me.. I turn to look at the Little Piano.. it is telling me to play a tune.. telling me to touch the Key bars.. that Only it is fingers away from the Touch.. if I can only play.. If I can only write the Music.. compose a Song.. write a Music so that YOU can hear something Out of this Little Piano.. but.. I know that I can't play a tune.. I can't make a sound.. it just be so noisy in your ears.. the tunes will Not sound right which it should make you feel something very special but If I play on this Little Piano.. instead of smiling.. YOU can be angry with me instead saying.. WHY can't I play a Good music that makes you smile and makes you happy.. that is why I am telling YOU I can't play.. but the Little Piano who is in my room.. is looking at me telling me.. I want to play something for YOU.. to tell you that I love YOU.. I have the Recorder in my Hand.. and I put a tape inside the recorder.. and on the Top of the desk is the Empty Glass Jar.. inside is Your Picture.. I took your Picture and someone was able to make it pretty big.. the Picture I put inside the Glass Jar.. I can see your Beautiful Face.. only if YOU were in this room.. Only If I can have your Heart.. and Place your Heart inside the Glass Jar next to Your Picture.. I am able to tell YOU something.. I would turn to look at the Little Piano.. I would ask.. would you let me Play.. even though I would Not be able to play anything.. I can push the Play Button of the Recorder and the Instrument of a Piano.. a Professional Pianist can Play.. I would stand next to the Little Piano.. can Act like I can Play.. when YOU hear the sound of the Music coming Out of the Recorder of playing the Piano.. I would turn and I would LOOK at the Desk.. I would look at your Picture.. I would Look at the Heart.. only If I have your Heart.. I be saying to YOU.. I have written YOU a Letter.. I wrote it last Night.. I was thinking about this very night so I had to write it.. and I had to memorize what I wrote to YOU in the Letter to tell YOU.. Can YOU hear the Song.. the Instrumental of this Piano Playing.. If YOU look towards me who is standing by the Little Piano.. YOU can be pretty confused because It looks like I am playing the Piece of Music.. Yes.. my fingers are pressing into the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. but.. I have turned off the sound that comes Out of this Piano because.. the recorder is playing instead.. Can YOU hear the Music of this Piano Playing.. Please if YOU can't.. Open your ears.. Please tell me that YOU can hear Me.. Please.. open your Heart for me and listen to the Sound of this Music of Piano.. the Instrumental Playing.. I want to give you this Song.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I know that YOU are hearing the Sound of this Little Piano Playing.. it is what I will say to YOU.. that I love YOU.. My Heart can't take it no more.. My fingers pressing.. hands wants to pound on this Key Bars on this Piano.. when ever I think of YOU.. when ever I want to say I love YOU.. I can hear my own Heart.. telling me It wants to beat faster.. it beats faster because I needs to say it and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the desk.. Looking at the Glass Jar.. I am looking at your Picture.. and.. Only if Your Heart be placed inside.. I be crying Out Loud.. I love YOU.. you do not know what YOU have done to me but I want to say that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the Little Piano.. I feel so sad.. I feel so happy but sad again.. because all I see is myself.. I don't see YOU.. But I needs to see YOU.. I want to see you.. I needs your Heart here with me.. so that I can tell your Heart.. I do not know How long.. but I have to say to Your Heart.. I love you.. How Long.. I will say it I love YOU.. looking at the Little Piano.. I know that It feels My Heart.. it knows My Heart because it knows my Heart.. I believe the Little Piano hears my voice.. as I am playing and touching the Key bars.. it knows that I love YOU.. knowing how much I needs to be with YOU.. but I will say.. YOU are so Far off.. WHY do you have to be so Far that I can't see YOU.. I wants to find a way where YOU can be near.. will you let me come close to YOU.. Please let me know because.. I want to take this Little Piano with Me.. and stand next to YOU.. I would turn to LOOK at you.. and I will tell YOU.. this is the Little Piano I was talking to Your About.. every Night.. I would turn to look at this Little Piano.. I feel stuffy inside.. sometimes I feel frustrated because I want to be close to YOU.. when I feel so stuffy inside.. I get close to this Little Piano.. and I would turn it on.. where when My Fingers touch the key bars.. and it presses into it.. YOU can hear the sounds of each key bar when YOU press it down.. it makes a noises.. and as my fingers touch and presses into the key bars.. I want to play you a Song.. making a Music and I would face the Wall.. Only if YOU can be right there.. Only if YOU can be that close to Me.. and I would say.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. that I can't find YOU any where.. I can't see YOU any where.. I want to tell YOU so that YOU can hear me but I know that NO matter how much I speak.. or how much my fingers press into the Key bars of this Little Piano and YOU can hear sounds out of the Little Piano.. YOU can't hear me.. it breaks my Heart.. I needs to say It.. I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. if I say it to YOU.. I know that I can see YOU to get a certain response.. but in this ROOM.. with the Glass Jar and Your Picture inside of it.. YOU can't never hear me.. that is why it kills me inside because I want to play for you something.. but I know that I can't.. I know that I can't play you a song.. even if YOU were standing here close to me.. I know that the sound will Not come out right.. but. I know that as long as I have a Heart who loves YOU.. I can at least tell YOU what is in my Heart.. that I wants to be with YOU.. I wants to be close to YOU and that I miss YOU.. that I want to say How much I love YOU.. No matter how many times I say it in this ROOM.. you will never hear my words.. this is what is hurting Me the Most.. this is what is killing me inside that I needs to say it to YOU.. but I can't.. I needs to tell YOU but I can't.. the word Can't is driving me crazy right Now.. as I stop the recorder.. and I am standing by the Little Piano.. I am aching so Much.. It is hurting me so Much.. this Pain.. when YOU love so much.. it can also Hurt you the Most because it drives YOU mad.. it drives YOU crazy to see your Face but I can't.. so If you are telling me to wait.. How Long must I wait for YOU to know Your Heart.. How long must I wait.. as I open the recorder.. I put another tape inside the recorder.. and I would push Play to record.. Can YOU hear my voice.. Can you hear me Now. I am looking at the Little Piano.. which I can't play at all.. but it has been with me for a long time.. wanting me to play a tune.. to bring out a sound and make a music with this Little Piano.. for me to play this Little Piano.. I needs you to be here.. I want you to stand next to me so that I can stand next to YOU and show YOU that only when YOU are here.. I am able to do something with it.. only way this Little Piano can bring out the music and the sound is when YOU are here with me.. I can't play anything.. and I won't play it because.. I want you to be here to see it.. I will be standing next to the Little Piano.. and My fingers will be placed on the key bars.. and I would put the Letter I wrote for you.. I want YOU to hold the Letter.. and YOU can read it while I play and I can say it to YOU.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I don't need the Heart to be inside of the Glass Jar.. I don't need to put Your Picture inside of it either.. I want YOU to be here standing next to me.. to hear it as I show YOU how Much I love YOU.. I would be.. my fingers would be pressing onto the Key bars.. and I would turn to look at YOU.. I may not be able to show YOU the voice.. I can't sing at all.. I won't sing to you at all but.. I would press the recorder and let YOU Hear my voice on the Recorder of what I said.. I would let it all Out to tell YOU that I loved YOU.. from the day I first saw YOU.. the moment I had to be far away.. as I would be facing the Walls at night.. going Out at Night looking at the Moon.. watching the showers of the rains fall down on me as I would be playing the Little Piano out side.. My Heart was burning because I kept on missing YOU.. even I would think that the showers of the rain.. it is going to cool me down.. this burning in my heart of Loving YOU and of missing YOU together.. I saw the rain falling from the sky.. I took with me the Little Piano.. and stood.. getting Hit by the rain.. and I would be playing.. fingers would press on the key bars.. and I would open up my Heart to YOU as I would stand looking at the MOON.. asking do YOU Hear me now.. DO you hear me from here where I stand.. I would be crying in the rain because I be missing YOU.. Nothing ever worked Out but.. I wanted you to stand next to me.. maybe this is it.. and giving YOU the Letter.. I press the recorder so that YOU can hear me.. what I needs to say.. and I would tell YOU this.. I been missing YOU lately.. is it because I am growing older.. Maybe.. is it because I am thinking you may forget me.. or is it because YOU may find another Love.. it is None of those things because I know who I love.. when YOU are sure about who YOU love

Stopped loving YOU.. can you still here the Little Piano Playing.. I am playing to tell YOU as you read the Letter.. I love YOU.. I have told you many times that I loved YOU.. do you not still believe me yet.. YOU are wondering.. when am I going to give up on you right.. as long as YOU know right now.. I still love YOU.. why would I give up on you.. when YOU are my Heart Beat away.. I know that I be seeing you very soon.. I would turn to look at you as I am playing on the Little Piano.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I would say to YOU.. I took this Little Piano Out side.. there were nights when you find Peace in the Night.. standing Out side.. alone with this Little Piano.. I would turn to look at the Moon.. I would only see your Face in the center of the Moon.. with Your Smile.. my arm stretches out.. my hand opens wide to touch.. I wanted to touch YOU but YOU were so far.. I saw you in the center of the Moon.. I could Not touch you with this Hand.. but.. I would play on this Piano.. on this Little Piano I would try to play a song.. I would look UP at the MOON and say.. DO you Hear Me.. I know that I will see YOU SOON.. I know that I will meet YOU soon.. of course I don't know when.. I have NO time Line but I know.. if YOU KNOW WHO is the One loving YOU.. I know that YOUR Heart will be opened.. I know that YOUR Ears be opened too.. and I believe YOU want that man to Love you over and over again.. because I want to Love YOU.. just as YOU are.. just the way YOU are suppose to be loved.. and my fingers stop pressing on the Little Piano.. and I turn to look at YOU.. I say.. I love you.. just the way this Little Piano Loves to play a tune to make a sound of its music for YOU.. I just wanted to say.. it is because I love YOU.. I am listening to the Song I am playing on this Piano.. of course I am Not a composer.. I can't write any music.. but I have the Letter I have written just for YOU.. Only YOU can hear the Words that is coming Out of My Mouth.. which it was written last Night before I went to Bed.. I just could Not sleep.. I would be tossing and turning on the side.. I would be laying.. Looking at the wall of the ROOM.. my Heart was Beating Hard from the Inside.. which kept me waking UP.. I would try to close the two eyes.. shut I would close.. but I would see YOU in my Head.. in my Mind I see YOU and I would think of YOU.. opening both eyes does Not work because My Heart is beating Hard.. I would sit on top of the bed.. trying to lay back Down and again I would sit.. I would look across is the Desk.. maybe it is telling me to write YOU another Letter.. why do I have to keep On picking UP the Pen.. putting the White Piece of paper before my eyes.. I would pull the chair closer and I would sit.. but the Night.. it is like deep into the Night.. where I am suppose to be sleeping the Most.. But I would have your picture on the Top of the Desk.. I turn on the side looking at the Door.. I see the Little Piano.. it is waiting for Me.. by the Door which it leads me to the Living ROOM.. the Little Piano looks.. and I look at the Little Piano.. it is telling me to Play so that I can tell YOU.. what is IN MY HEART which it says IN my Heart I love YOU.. I love you so Much that I am Not sure how much to Love any More.. do I have to love you so More.. but How BIG and Wide must this Love must carry through.. How can YOU tell.. but I would look at the Little Piano on the side by the door.. and I know.. I may Not be able to play a SONG.. it may Not come Out right.. YOU will not hear it right.. then.. How about the Letter.. maybe the Letter can over come and the Music YOU listen with YOUR ears of the TUNE of this Piano.. it may Not affect Your Hearing Loss.. but when YOU hear the Words.. the Letter.. I will let YOU hear the Letter that I am writing this Very Night.. as I turn the Other way is the Window.. pulling the Curtains UP.. I can see the Window.. and I can see the MOON from where I am sitting in this Room.. and I look at the Moon as I am sitting.. turning to the Moon.. thinking of YOU.. grabbing the Picture and looking at YOU through this Picture.. What am I suppose to do.. when can I see YOU.. when can YOU hear my Heart.. the Out cry that Comes from within me.. I want to tell YOU I love YOU.. I want to say to YOU that I love YOU so Much.. will you let me tell you these words of Mine to YOU.. will you let me ever come close to YOU and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. How about the times having when I really Really Missed YOU.. I want to pour a Wine on the Glass.. and I want to drink.. take a sip of the Wine of the Glass cup.. taking a Sip and when I face you.. when I see YOU.. I will be first approaching YOU.. holding Your Hands.. It has been so Long I have been waiting.. it took more than thousand days.. even ten thousand days had to pass me by.. how many weeks does it needs to pass by for YOU to ever miss Me.. How many Months does it needs to take for YOU to Miss me.. How many years must it pass by for YOU to miss me and see My Heart.. when will YOU KNOW that I be loving YOU for so Long.. do YOU know that every Night I miss YOU.. I can turn.. looking at the MOON.. if YOU ever have some time.. and when the Day turns into Night.. Please step Out side.. just once in a blue MOON will do.. as I be walking Out side.. Holding the Letter In my Hands.. I would be walking and I stop.. I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. and I would hold UP the Paper.. the Letter in my Hands.. and I would say.. if YOU hear me.. and the Little Piano is there with Me.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. my hands.. my fingers would be pressing the Key Bars.. I am Not sure what kind of sounds YOU can be hearing.. it is good that YOU are ON the Other Side.. if YOU can't hear the Key.. the sounds and the Tunes of this Piano.. I think it can be good for those ears.. instead of hearing the Words that I speak coming from the Heart which I would memorize the Written Words I have written in the Letter for YOU.. YOU may Not hear my words right.. I would be hitting the Key bars.. it is making a lot of sounds and a lot of noises on this Piano.. as I am pressing the Key Bars which it is bring Sounds Out.. I am Looking UP.. turning to the MOON.. and I know.. I can see Your Face inside the Moon.. as I would close my two eyes.. I would say.. DO you Hear Me.. do I must speak Louder to YOU for the waves to go across.. do I needs to Lose my Voice for YOU to hear me Now.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU have Not showed UP yet.. I have been waiting for Your Answer.. WHY can't YOU tell me that YOU Miss me.. why can't YOU be truly Honest with me for Once.. Please tell me that YOU love me Too.. Please tell me that YOU also can miss Me.. I been holding IN for a Long time.. I wanted to say it.. to tell YOU that I am missing you so Much right Now.. I am Not even looking at the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. so I have NO idea what I am playing.. If YOU were here.. I know you would tell me to Stop playing on that Little Piano because YOUR ears will Hurt.. and that is why I just can't stop.. if YOU can be hear and hear the sounds of this Little Piano which I am bringing Out some kind of Noise.. YOU will tell me to Stop because It is hurting Your Ears.. that is HOW MY Heart feels at this Point.. that I can't stop that It hurts if I choose to stop.. If I cannot tell YOU that I don't love you.. it hurts me more than the Tune.. the Playing.. the SOUND and the Noise.. It will kill me if YOU tell me to Stop telling YOU that I love YOU.. I can't breath.. I love that I love YOU.. I love the thoughts that I can tell YOU that I love YOU.. to able to tell you this is My Dreams come true.. dreaming of the Day.. I can hold Your hands and truly.. PULL you closer to Me.. and I will speak softly into Your ears.. and I will tell YOU one Hundred times.. How much I love YOU.. and I will tell YOU One thousand times.. how much I will love YOU.. I will cry if I can't say it to YOU any more.. I will sit and ball hard like a Child.. like a baby I can cry if I can't tell YOU that I love YOU.. I have been loving YOU for so Long.. WHY can't YOU see that In me.. I have been here all along.. why can't you accept it.. because it is NOT enough for YOU.. I am trying Hard to tell YOU.. I been here telling YOU that I love YOU.. the Joy that brings into my Heart.. when I am allowed to say it.. to tell it the way it is meant to be said.. I want to tell you that I love YOU.. as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I can feel the tears.. My Heart is burning.. My Heart is beating Hard.. my fingers pressing into the Little Piano.. I am Looking UP at the MOON at Night.. making all kinds of Sounds and Noises YOU just don't want to Hear.. that is why I am here on the Other side which You can't Hear it.. but the Words I am telling.. the Words I been writing to YOU all this time.. Letting YOU know that It is my Heart.. It is the Pencil which I pick UP.. it is the Piece of paper.. and writing to YOU which makes me Happy.. gives me Hopes and to dream Bigger for YOU and to love YOU more and more.. as my fingers stops pressing on the Key bars of this Little Piano.. I would still Look UP at the Moon.. and I would say in the Loud voice.. DO YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please Hear me standing here on the Other side.. I am waiting for YOU.. that is why when YOU take the TIME to come Out.. Please come out at Night.. when YOU can stand out alone.. and YOU can see the MOON above YOU.. what YOU will see is not Me playing on the Little Piano.. YOU are not going to see a Letter with two wings flying down to YOU.. But the MOON is going to show you the Tears that came Out of my eyes.. comes Out from the Heart.. comes Out from my Mind and my thoughts of thinking of YOU.. YOU will see the Moon so differently because the MOON will shows YOU tears.. My Tears because I love YOU.. My Tears because I miss YOU.. My Tears because YOU do Not understand my Heart.. But that is Okay If

At your Picture.. wishing that I can be with YOU.. Can YOU hear me on the other side.. that is why I would stand here alone.. LOOKING at the MOON.. I would cry before the Moon.. because I want YOU to Hear Me.. I want you to able to receive what I can give.. I wish that YOU can Hear me.. but All I see is the MOON before me.. It does not Move.. Does not make any kinds of expression.. It does not speak back to Me.. but I still see the MOON standing still.. How do I get this Letter to YOU.. How am I suppose to deliver this Letter to YOU.. can you please show me the way to Your Heart.. please show me How can this Letter get into your hands.. as I grab the Little Piano into my Hands.. and I am walking back to the House.. and slowly I am walking away from the Moon.... the Door opens and I go into the House.. I am in the ROOM.. looking at the Letter on the Top of the desk.. and I am sitting on the Chair.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. How can this Letter get to YOU.. what am I suppose to do for YOU to know.. that I needs to give YOU this Letter.. and even though I sit here by the desk and I write YOU a Letter.. I am wondering.. DO I ever come cross your Mind.. that means do YOU even read the Letters.. and I would look at Your Picture.. I want YOU to know that I love YOU.. I want you to know that I needs to give you this Letter so that my Heart Knows that I love YOU.. will you accept the Letters I write to YOU.. Please tell me so.. Please tell me that YOU do read it which I give you from the Heart.. I am laying on the Bed.. trying to go back to the bed.. I am turning on the side.. but I know that I can't sleep.. YOU are always on my Mind.. YOU are always in my Heart.. I think of YOU over and over.. NO matter How much I try to do something else.. I keep on think of YOU.. I see YOU everywhere.. what does this Means to YOU.. it means because I love YOU.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. but I love YOU the Most.. I am in the Room.. Looking out the window.. I see the rain showering down.. I would like to walk in the rain.. but it be nice If I take this Piano with Me.. I have written YOU another Letter.. I wonder if YOU can Hear Me Now.. I know that just standing Out alone.. and Turning to LOOK up.. LOOKING at the Moon and just speaking to the MOON.. that Moon does Not Hear Me.. so I am trying something New.. something different so that Maybe the MOON can catch the glimpse of Me.. and Can turn to LOOK at Me.. and Hear me.. I am trying to grab and get the attention of that MOON.. so maybe I can bring Out this Little Piano that I bought.. and PUT it outside.. and I can Hit the Keys.. making the Sounds.. and with the Recorder in my hand.. and Push the Recording Button as I can open this Letter.. which I have written just for YOU and share it.. If YOU can Hear Me.. Can the Moon hear me Now.. if I can get the MOON to get closer to Me.. I can ask the MOON.. and show the MOON the Picture of YOU.. and ask the MOON.. if YOU see this Person.. in the Picture.. can YOU do something for Me.. will you send me an Angel.. call an Angel for Me.. and I will show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I would open the Recorder.. and give the Angel the Tape I have recorded and If the Angel can do me a favor.. that I have One Wish.. to give this Tape to YOU.. and YOU can hear my Voice.. YOU can hear me say and tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. as I would speak to the recorder to tell YOU.. HOW much I miss YOU.. How Much I want to be close to YOU.. I know that if I just appear out of the Blue.. I don't want to scare YOU.. I don't want YOU to think that I am stalking YOU because I am Not.. so Maybe the MOON.. which hears me Press the Key notes and making the Sounds of pressing the Key bars can turn to Hear and Notice me that I am here down Below.. and If the MOON comes closer.. I will ask.. DO you know any angels who can do me favor.. because I have One wish.. Not asking Much but just for ONE wish.. so I will tell the MOON.. Please get me an Angel to come at my aid.. and If I see the Angel.. I will give HIM the picture of YOU and the tape which I have recorded over and also if YOU need the Letter.. I will give this Angel the Letter too.. just in case YOU want to read this Letter of Mine.. as I am looking out the window.. looking at the rain pouring down.. I have the Piano.. the Little Piano with Me.. I want to take it Out.. I want to go out side and play the Piano.. of course I don't know how to Play.. so If you hear the back ground and It does Not sound right.. YOU know that it is Me.. it is Me who is pressing the Key bars.. just pressing because I want YOU to hear me.. Please hear Me.. Please hear me what I needs to say and to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. why do I love you this way.. I love you in a way YOU can say.. I am creative with what I do.. I am looking at the Little Piano.. Looking at Your Picture.. and I would say to my self.. I miss YOU.. I really really Miss YOU.. just watching the rain fall and the shower of the rain coming down from the sky.. It makes me more miss YOU.. I wish that I did not have to Miss YOU.. but for some reason.. this very Night I really miss YOU.. the way my Heart truly feels is this.. grabbing an Empty Glass Jar.. I want to pull out My Heart from my chest.. grab a Knife and stab my Heart right in the Middle and put the wounded Heart.. the One with the scars.. Put it inside the Glass jar.. watching my Heart be bleeding.. I feel like I am slowly dying instead.. as I look at the Blood gushing Out of my Heart and I see my own blood filling UP the Glass Jar with my Heart still inside it.. I be looking at it.. and I would take the Little Piano Out side.. does Not matter How wet I get.. But I feel like I am dying inside for YOU.. because I miss YOU.. as I am out side.. standing in the rain.. getting wet by the Rain.. I would also bring the Glass Jar.. with My Heart and the Blood filled.. and let YOU see It.. I would ask the Moon.. do YOU not feel sorry for Me.. Do you not see How much I am in pain and that I am suffering so much right Now.. and I would push the recording Button of the recorder.. pressing with my fingers of the key Bars.. telling YOU what I wrote.. I would memorize the Letter I wrote to YOU.. in the Rain.. I am calling Out for YOU.. crying Out for YOU.. can YOU see my Heart.. DO you want to see My Heart.. if YOU can't see it.. I have brought the Glass Jar.. with my Heart inside.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. I just don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to do when I miss You like this.. Please tell Me.. I have the tape with me.. with My Voice and words speaking into the recorder.. I am reading the Letter which I wrote.. I am reading as I am looking at the Heart.. LOOKING at my Heart inside the Glass Jar covered in Blood.. Please Help me to recover from this Wound and from the scars I feel in my Heart when I be missing YOU.. I just can't take this pain any more.. Please help me to Love again.. If I don't see YOU.. this is how My Heart feels right Now.. as I would look UP.. looking at the MOON.. I be pressing the key Bars of the Little Piano.. and I am crying.. crying because I want More than just this.. I want More of YOU.. I want to say it to your ears.. and tell YOU as I hold you near.. hold you near in my arms.. telling YOU.. why can't I tell YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU in person.. give me the chance to speak to YOU so that YOU can hear me clearly what is IN my Heart.. help me to love YOU more.. only way to can help me.. only way I can get to YOU.. Please Open Your Heart to me.. show me that YOU care.. show me that YOU are truly listening.. because many nights I am Not sure if YOU are or Not.. as My fingers are hitting.. banging on the Key Bars making sounds on this Little Piano.. I want to hear from YOU.. I needs to hear from YOU.. that YOU are listening on the Other side.. I only see the MOON.. but I can't see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to see YOU near.. and as I would press the stop button of the tape recorder.. I stand still.. getting more wet by the rain.. showers of water of rain on me.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens out.. towards the MOON.. How can I get to YOU.. How can I get Your attention.. How do I get YOU to notice Me.. I know that I am very small as a person.. but the way I love YOU.. the size of How much I love YOU.. If YOU can come Outside at Night.. My Heart of loving YOU can be as big as the MOON I am looking at.. if YOU look at the MOON.. the same Moon I am looking at.. that is HOW MUCH I love YOU.. that is How much I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. even though my Heart breaks.. I can feel my Heart be breaking on the Night like this because I love YOU.. and because I miss YOU.. why don't you ever see Me.. why don't you ever notice Me.. YOU know that I been hear all this Long.. I been here all this Time telling YOU that it is real.. it is true that I be loving YOU.. YOU needs to see that and believe it too. Please give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please give me One Chance.. One shot is all I am asking for.. Not even a day but even few minutes of the time is all I am asking for.. But I am asking YOU.. that Only YOU can make me smile.. as I see the Rain stopped.. and I am standing alone out side.. I am soaked wet because of the shower of rains would pour down on me.. I would pull out the Letter.. of course the Letter is soaked wet too.. but I can still see the writings.. and I would look at the wet recorder and press the Button of the recording.. and the little Piano has a stand.. so I would place the Glass jar on top of the Little Piano.. and after Opening the Letter.. I would lift UP my head towards and I would look at the MOON.. DO you hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. ON this very Night.. I am want to speak to YOU.. would you let me speak because this is the Only thing I can do for right Now.. I want to show YOU this Glass Jar.. I want to take this

Time I been waiting and just kept on missing YOU.. every time I write YOU a Letter.. and I think of YOU and every time I take a Look at your Picture.. I can feel something inside of me wants to cry.. I want to cry More as I keep on missing YOU.. holding YOU in my arms is my first Wish.. and the second is to tell YOU how much I love YOU and how much I missed you.. that I know one day it needs to stop.. that I do not have to miss YOU any more.. I am standing Out here.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. when would that TIME BE.. when I can stop be missing YOU.. I would be wiping these tears.. most of the nights are very harsh for Me.. because my arms.. my arms wants to hold YOU.. hold you close and hold you still.. just to feel you close and that I get to call YOU mine forever.. will you Let that Happen to me.. Please tell me that I do have a hope still.. that I still have a chance.. a hope to tell you that I need YOU.. I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. Please give me the hope so that I can dream being US together for ever.. I am just waiting for that day to come.. but some nights I would say when.. what if It never happens.. what if you don't want to see Me.. what if YOU are happy being there.. but what I want to say is that I need YOU.. I need you more and more.. so Please tell me that YOU do on the Other side think of me too.. and still there is HOPE for me.. as time goes by.. I start to lose more HOPE.. but when I just think of YOU.. when I say your Name.. call out your Name.. I can feel my Heart once again coming alive.. it is because I know ON my part.. I still do Love YOU and never given up that HOPE on you.. that Hope just to say I love YOU.. the Hope to write YOU a Letter and tell you what is in my Heart.. I just Love YOU.. that I can't live with out you.. that I know that I needs YOU.. and as I am looking at the Little Piano in front of Me and on the Top of the Little Piano is the Glass jar.. looking at my Heart just sitting inside.. my Blood covers and has filled UP.. as I want to show YOU.. I want to show YOU this Heart of Mine.. to tell YOU.. it happens when I think of YOU and when I be missing YOU the Most.. I just can't get YOU off my Mind.. I just can't get YOU off my Head.. off my Heart.. and it feels this way.. LOOKING Up at the MOON.. I feel so sad in the days when I can't see YOU.. only thing my eyes can see is Your Picture.. I guess just the picture just don't cut it when YOU love.. when YOU start to love.. I want More.. More of YOU as I am missing YOU at the same time.. IT did not help at all when the Rain poured down as it showered from the SKY.. it did Not help me at all because I started to miss YOU more and more.. My Heart hurts.. and it aches when I don't see YOU.. that is why I be missing YOU all along.. when can I see YOU.. I am looking at the Piano.. as I would walk into the room.. I look at your Picture.. wishing that YOU can see what I just got.. even though YOU may be far from Me.. at least send me Your Heart.. if I can have your Heart.. I will keep Your Heart safe here with Me.. looking at the Empty Glass jar.. I would Place the Empty Glass Jar on the TOP of the Piano.. and I wish that I can Place your Heart inside this Empty Glass Jar.. even though YOU are far.. Knowing and Looking at your Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART is close with me.. I pull up the Piano Chair closer to the Piano.. and I would sit on the chair.. only if I can get You here.. will YOU ever come closer to Me.. How do I get you closer to Me.. and I would look at the key bars of the Piano.. But.. I can't play the tune.. I can't even sing with my voice.. just sitting here.. it seems like it be better if I was Not here at the first Place.. But.. I can write YOU a Letter.. I know that I can tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. I can tell YOU with the Words.. with the Lips.. with my voice.. What I truly feel deep inside my Heart.. I put all my time when I grab the Pencil.. when I grab the paper.. and I grab the piece of paper.. I know that for sure I can write and tell you.. How I feel.. How it feels to be me here on the Other side.. as long as the Letter is able to get to YOU.. will you please receive the Letters.. will you please unfold the piece of Paper which be folded when I give it to YOU.. will you please open your Heart.. hear the words of Mine that comes from my Heart.. how much I love YOU.. How much I adore YOU and admire YOU and How much I miss YOU too.. you are wondering.. what is it about the Piano.. why am I bringing UP the word Piano to YOU if I can't sing.. or can't play tunes of the keys of the piano to bring Music alive.. why am I telling YOU or sharing you about the Piano.. because I want YOU to know.. I want to Place Your Heart.. I want to place your Heart on this Empty Glass Jar.. which is on top of the Piano.. so that when I look at Your Heart.. I can learn How to play the Piano.. it make take some time for me to Know How to Play.. but when I look at your Heart.. when I look at your Heart inside the empty glass jar.. I would look at your Heart.. it may inspire me to say I love you in a way YOU never felt before.. I would think of many different ways to tell YOU.. that I love YOU and that I want to say to Your Heart first.. I would like to tell Your Heart first so that YOU can truly trust me with Your Precious Heart.. without any trust.. there is NO way I can love YOU where YOU are able to love me back One day.. that is why I need Your Heart first with Me.. I remember when I was Young.. my Mother wanted me to Learn something new.. and bought a Piano for Me.. I wanted to learn something New.. wanted to tell a story through but when my Mother bought the Piano.. it was just too complicated for me to learn.. I would watch the Teacher come.. and she would play on the Piano.. I wish that I learned at that time because Now.. when I look at you.. I would LOOK at your Picture.. and I would say WOW.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I would stand by the Piano and say.. YOU are as beautiful like the Piano because Now.. I want to play and make a Music for YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I want to step Out of the comfort zone and tell YOU what YOU means to me.. when ever I look at you.. through the Picture.. I would regret when I look at the Piano sitting in the Room.. because.. Now I want to play and make music so that I can tell YOU.. even though I may Not be able to sing YOU a SONG.. I would bring a recorder.. and would record my voice.. as my fingers would press on the key bars of the Piano.. I can at least speak to the recorder.. but before I would play on the Piano making Music to come alive.. I would be sitting in my bed room.. taking Out the Piece of paper.. I would write YOU a Letter first.. telling YOU my Heart.. speaking from my Heart.. and writing that comes from My Heart to let YOU know.. the Letter is Not the Only way I can tell YOU my Heart.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. regretting because I did Not learn at that time.. I had the chance to learn when I was young.. but I only watched the teacher play.. looking at her back as she played and making Music.. pressing the Key bars.. to the sound of my ears it tingled because she Played so well.. if I only learned from that teacher.. only if I took the time to be more serious about learning the keys.. composing and writing the music Notes.. the keys.. I wonder what could of happened Now.. if I learned at that time.. which My Mother would say.. It be wise to learn this kind of instrument because when it is gone.. YOU will regret it when TIME passes by.. I would stand by the Piano.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. looking at the key bars.. pressing the key bars.. only sounds but weird sounds will hit.. and I feel so terrible Not because I wish that I learned.. so that I can play for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU.. there is Much more ways to Tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I would even take the Piano out side.. even looking at the MOON in the Night.. when I miss YOU.. when I know that YOU are so Far away and I keep on missing YOU.. at least.. with tears in my eyes of Not able to hold YOU.. unable to be close to YOU and It hurts some nights.. I can play the Piano in the Night.. telling YOU.. looking UP at the MOON.. as my fingers hits the Key bars bringing music.. I would be pulling Out the Letter that is written for YOU and tell YOU a story of How much I love YOU.. if the neighbors would come out telling me about the Noises.. I would turn to that person and say.. DID YOU ever miss someone.. when it hurts.. it just hurts so much when YOU start missing.. I needs to say.. I needs to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. there are times that it feels so painful.. it hurts.. I see tear drops out of my eyes.. so to take this anger out of My Heart for Missing YOU.. I needs to play YOU a SONG.. this Piano is my friend.. helps me to express what I feel when I am dealing with so Much sorrow in me.. that I love YOU but I miss YOU more.. why.. why do you keep on making me feel this way.. when YOU are so far off.. what am I suppose to do when I miss YOU.. and only thing that I can do is taking out the Picture.. the only thing I can do is pull the Picture out of my pocket.. and LOOK at YOU.. do YOU know How it feels when YOU just can't do nothing.. but only thing I can do is look at you in this Picture.. but I needs to tell YOU that I needs to be with YOU.. I needs to get this Off my Chest.. Off my Heart that I needs to be with YOU.. and it hurts me so much because I am dying right Now without YOU in my life.. and to keep my Anger and this pain.. this suffering away.. if I look at the Piano.. and I am able to pull the Piano chair closer.. and able to play the tunes of the Piano pressing on the key bars.. I know that I can tell YOU what I have written.. pressing the recorder.. as I am in the ROOM.. I would open up my Heart and say.. I miss YOU.. I am not sure why I am missing YOU so much right Now.. and I be

Smaller where I can take it out side so that YOU can hear the key bars.. when you hear the sound of the Music coming out of the Piano.. YOU know that It is me.. which I am telling YOU.. I am hurting right Now.. I miss YOU right Now.. where are YOU so that I can tell YOU my Heart.. Please come Out.. come Out and hear this Piano playing.. making the Music to come alive.. only if YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. every time I am sad.. every time I feel this Pain.. every time I want to cry.. when I be missing YOU.. I will be playing the Piano out side.. where if YOU are able to see the MOON on the Other side.. YOU can hear me.. that I am crying right Now.. I am missing YOU right Now.. so you know that it is me on the Other side looking for YOU.. I am missing YOU.. I am missing YOU because YOU are so far away.. where are YOU.. Please tell me so that I know that How you be doing.. tell me so that I can go to YOU like the wind.. as I am standing.. I am looking at the Piano in the room.. I have the letter in my hand and On the Other hand I have your Picture.. thinking of YOU.. and just loving YOU even though I am not sure if I would ever meet YOU.. will I ever see YOU.. can YOU Please tell me that I can see YOU soon.. or do YOU want me to pull the Piano.. the smaller Piano and walk out side.. do YOU want to hear me playing.. when I play on this Piano.. just please remember I am wailing and I am crying on the Other side because I need YOU.. I need YOU and I love YOU.. but for most I am missing YOU.. between us.. it hurts of the Longing and waiting for YOU.. and many nights I be thinking.. what If YOU never show UP.. what if YOU never come to Me.. what if this is nothing but.. and I would ask this kind of question.. but at the same time.. It is good for my Heart to tell YOU even if it is written how much I love YOU.. to able to explore and express and share.. to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. that I won't give UP until I have YOU in my arms and when that day Comes.. in my arms I will tell YOU looking at Your Ears.. how much I love YOU and How much I missed YOU.. longing day and night just to see YOU very close to me.. and I turn to look at the mail Box.. and I would walk toward the mail box and open.. and put the envelop inside and close the mail box door.. I am looking at the truck.. I am not sure why this Truck is in front of the Mail Box.. I would look out the window but I don't see anyone inside the Truck.. I don't see any movement inside the Truck.. I am putting the Letter into the envelope.. folding the piece of paper into half.. this time I wrote two Letters and putting into One Envelope.. just letting YOU know how much I can't stop telling YOU the way I feel.. My Heart wants to burst.. like my Head wants to Burst.. my eyes wants to burst into tears.. as I would fold the two Letters putting into One envelope.. Looking out the window.. I don't see any One.. I don't see the mail man either.. it has been sitting by the Mail box for few hours Now.. I just did not want to go Out but.. then.. what do I do with the two letters I wrote you this Letters.. if there is No Mail man to drive this Truck.. is that Means I can be the Mail Man tonight.. is this Truck for Me.. is it for me to drive.. so is it time for me to see YOU finally.. maybe I can put the Uniform and can act like I be Your Mail man.. of course I am going to tell YOU that the Letters.. which I wrote is me.. If you are to ask Me.. where is the Other Mail man.. I would tell YOU.. I think he is sick so I have come to drive this Truck.. the Time has come for me to finally see YOU.. to tell YOU that it is Me.. all this Time.. I been sitting in my room.. with the Piece of paper.. and the eraser.. with the pencil.. I would write YOU a Letter.. Looking at YOUR picture.. I would stare.. feeling my chest.. and when It starts to burn from the Inside.. I would wait till I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would wait and wait.. and then picking UP the Pencil.. looking down at the Piece of Paper.. I would start to write YOU something that comes from the Inside.. speaking from my Mind.. speaking from my Heart.. I would open my Mouth and speak to the paper.. as I am watching my fingers hold unto the pencil.. and hand writing on the paper.. I see the piece of Paper with letters to sentences into paragraphs becoming long as I would keep on thinking of YOU to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. But last night.. I was out side walking.. I saw the Moon above Me and I wanted to see YOU.. I asked the MOON.. when will be the GOOD TIME for me to see YOU.. and looking UP at the Moon.. do YOU think the TIME is right.. asking the Moon Above Me.. I wish that the Moon can speak Back because all I can do is LOOK UP at the MOON and just wait.. waiting can be Hard sometimes.. because what if I wait but the TIME will never come to Me.. what if I keep on waiting but there is NO answer on the Other side.. am I just waiting for Nothing.. I would look UP asking that MOON.. what if the TIME be never.. which I do not like to put myself in that situation.. what if Never comes.. what if I stand still like this and everything just stops or pauses before my eyes and Only thing I do is wait but only waiting continues.. I would stand still.. LOOKING UP.. my eyes.. and I would feel so sad.. and tears fills my eyes.. and I would say.. DO you know that I want to be Loved.. I want to hear what YOU have to say.. I want to hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from your Lips.. what if nothing ever happens.. and I would stand in the Night.. LOOKING UP at the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and only thing I can do is wait.. just wait until YOU are truly ready.. what if YOU never wants to be ready.. or YOU end up loving someone else.. as I would think about this.. the tears would run down.. my eyes.. I close my eyes and I open the two eyes.. two lines of tears streams down.. thinking about what If I just stand here and everything just stops.. or just pauses where I can never meet YOU.. as I would look.. I started to see rain.. rain started to fall from the sky.. and it was very light rain falling.. I am thinking.. it might be the MOON crying for Me.. Does that Moon hears me.. does the Moon understand the words coming Out of my Mouth.. Does the MOON knows how much I love YOU.. and How much I want to see YOU.. and I just would watch the Light rain falling down as I would get wet over the rain fall.. I would turn to look at the Window of My room.. and I would walk into the front door of my house.. grabbing a Bottle of whiskey and the shot Glass.. I would have your Picture in my Hand.. sitting on the chair by the desk in my room.. with the Piece of paper laying on top of the desk.. with the Big eraser and with the pencil next.. I would look at your Picture.. just wishing.. just hoping I can see YOU.. to meet you soon.. and I am just wondering.. would YOU let me see YOU.. would you open the door so that I can see YOU.. will you let me in.. and to hold Your hand.. as I would hold the Paper in my hand.. the Letter and give it to Your hand.. as I would open the TOP lid of the whiskey Bottle.. Holding and pouring into the Shot Glass.. and I am just sitting.. turning to look out the Window watching the light rain fall.. I would grab the Shot Glass after putting the Whiskey Bottle down.. and Open my Mouth and slam into my Mouth.. I can feel the harsh of the Liquor going in.. and I would sit just waiting for the Big Kick.. I would pour another on the Shot Glass and placing the Whiskey Bottle Down.. picking UP the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth.. and Slam into my Mouth.. I am just waiting to feel that Buzz.. and just looking at YOU in the picture.. WHY can't I see YOU.. why don't you let me see YOU.. DID I ever done anything wrong to YOU.. would YOU let me visit YOU.. just please give me few minutes of your Time.. I am not asking for Hours but just even minutes is all I am asking for.. why can't YOU tell me that I am allowed.. please give me the permission to get close to YOU.. allow me for few minutes is all I need.. just to look at your eyes.. just too look at your hands.. Just to look at your smile.. just to ask if I can say Your Name.. can I say your name and tell YOU that I really Love YOU.. will you allow me to say that I love YOU.. Oh please tell me.. as I feel the kick from the Whiskey I drank.. I would look at the Whiskey Bottle.. half is empty.. did Not know that I drank this much.. but.. I just started to feel like I be missing YOU.. and it was aching me in my Heart.. I just could not stop putting the Whiskey Bottle Down.. I would watch the Shot Glass get filled.. hand grabs.. my Mouth opens wide and Slam the whiskey.. just could Not stop.. I would be looking at your Picture.. asking why can't I be with YOU.. asking why do I have to sit here and just can't see YOU.. hearing the rain falling as I turn to look out the window.. I would put the Whiskey Bottle down.. and the Shot Glass is emptied.. I would pick up the Pencil.. It is my Heart whose been loving YOU.. it is my Heart whose been waiting for YOU.. It is My Heart whose been asking for YOU.. It is my Heart whose been crying from the Inside.. screaming of this pain.. screaming of this Ache of wanting to be with YOU.. I need YOU more and More.. why can't YOU feel the same way as I do.. why is it me whose been loving YOU.. Please tell me.. Please allow me and give me the permission so that I can go to YOU.. so that I can run to YOU.. so that I can be with YOU and to tell you that I love YOU.. as I would look at the Piece of paper in front of me.. sitting on top of the desk.. I would take a look.. final look at your Picture.. and put your picture down on the top of the desk.. closing both eyes.. and I would picture YOU in my head.. and both eyes would open.. I am crying.. I am dying inside and Now I am crying.. as I would start to write on the piece of paper.. I am telling YOU.. My Heart is dying of Love.. my Heart is crying inside.. why