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Park.. that It was located on the Third BIG TREE.. I would be walking with tears in my eyes.. because I knew that I should of Came before.. that I should of come on the appointed time that YOU TOLD ME to come.. I could of saw YOU.. if I saw YOU.. I would of grabbed unto Your Arms.. and pull YOU closer into my arms because I would say.. I love YOU.. I would say to YOU.. if I came that day.. the appointed time that YOU gave me the Note to come.. I would asked YOU.. it is very dangerous to climb up.. when the rain comes Hard.. things can happen where YOU would Not believe but.. that Courage and being so brave.. I just wanted to say.. I am so sorry that I did Not come that day.. But.. I now see why YOU have a Big Heart.. such a Big Heart that I want My Heart to be as big as YOURS.. so that I can tell YOU in many words.. how much I love YOU.. and to tell YOU how much I been missing YOU lately.. that I know deep inside.. I need YOU.. I need YOU to need me too.. I need to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I need to say to that Heart.. Your Big Heart.. that I love you.. and I am so sorry that I love YOU and I thank YOU.. thank you for being YOU and also having that Big Heart.. NOW I know how much My Heart needs to grow.. so when My Heart starts to grow as BIG as YOURS.. I can finally say.. holding YOUR BIG HEART.. I love YOU and kiss Your Big Heart and tell Your Heart over and over.. this is why.. I love YOU.. that is why I need YOU so that I can continue to say to YOU that I love YOU.. Feels like the Spring time.. as I am holding the Empty Glass Jar.. around my arms.. I am thinking of Your Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. I want to see your Heart.. WILL you let me see that Heart of Yours.. and I am walking and I stop by this Tall Tree.. and I am wondering if it is this Tree.. I been waiting for this very day.. the weather Out side has been very cold.. looking at the Snow falling.. even it has been raining a lot around this time.. I could Not come to this Tree.. I do missing this Tree.. which I received a Note.. YOU be telling me to come to this Tree.. and I just could not come around for a while.. But.. I am here today.. wondering.. DID YOU leave your Heart here.. I had a dream.. dreaming of the day.. my arms can wrap around.. looking at YOU.. but.. asking if I can see your Heart.. if I am allowed to speak to your Heart.. will you let Me.. will you allow me to talk to Your Heart because that is all I want.. that is ALL I need.. I want to first tell Your Heart.. how much I love you.. but I needs to say It.. I needs to tell It to your Heart.. without Your Heart.. My Love will Not last.. it cannot go very far.. that is why I am asking first for Your Heart.. so Please.. tell me that YOU have left your Heart behind.. as I would sit on the ground.. I would pull out the Paper which was inside this Glass Jar.. I started to Miss you Last Night.. for some reason.. I started to Miss you all over again.. I would be sitting at the desk.. and ON the corner of the Desk.. I would put your Picture.. and as I turn to LOOK at the corner of the Desk.. I would grab Your Picture and I would take a closer LOOK at YOU.. looking through the Picture.. I would say to YOU.. even though YOU may Not hear me.. YOU may never hear my voice.. I would look at Your Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would smile and say to YOU LOOKING at the Picture.. I miss YOU.. and I do Love YOU.. but first.. why do I keep on missing YOU even though I have your Picture with me.. why do I keep telling myself but Looking at YOU through this Picture.. I know that YOU can't hear me now.. But I know.. I believe that One Day YOU will hear me Loud and clear.. Holding YOU close in my arms.. I will say to YOU.. LOOKING at and asking.. is this YOUR HEART.. can I tell YOUR HEART that I love YOU.. will you please let me say it.. that I love YOU.. as I would be looking at the Picture of YOU.. I be very sad.. because when I start to think about missing YOU.. I really really do Miss YOU.. and I would pull out a clean piece of paper.. there is nothing written but just a Blank sheet.. I would grab me the Pencil.. and of course I have Never seen Your Heart.. but start to draw a Picture of Your Heart.. thinking maybe this is How YOUR Heart Looks Like.. the shape and the size of It.. I wish that I can have a picture of Your Heart.. How Big is it.. the shape of It.. can I take A picture of It.. only If I can see YOU.. and YOU holding a Heart in the hands.. I want to click to take a Picture with the camera.. but.. only thing I can do at this Point.. just draw a Picture.. Picture of Your Heart.. and I would put.. Can I write My Name in Your Heart.. would you say something about It if I do.. Please tell me if YOU don't want me too.. because I want to write my Name in your Heart and speak to this Piece of paper of drawing of Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to say It.. and tell YOU what My Heart truly feels.. I received few months back.. a Note from You because I have been asking for Your Heart.. that I want to see your Heart.. I been calling YOU On the Phone.. only hearing your Voice.. that is all I can receive from YOU.. but.. I want More than just hearing your Voice.. that is why I started to ask.. If I can see Your Heart.. will you allow me to see Your Heart.. can I get close to Your Heart and Know what is really in your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even though it can be very far.. even it can be from a long distance.. but I am just asking for this One thing.. Can YOU Please tell me where is Your Heart.. and I be putting YOU on the Loud speaker.. wanting to hear your Voice.. and YOU telling me you be sending me a Note.. when the Note arrives.. YOU are going to tell me where to GO.. and There.. YOUR HEART is going to be there too.. after I heard this from your voice.. I waited for the Note.. day would go by but it be very long as I would wait for the Note.. the Note comes and it arrives.. as I received the Note from YOU.. I open the front door and some one put the Note on the ground.. I do remember when I opened the front door.. I only found the Note on the ground.. I would go to the Note to pick It UP.. as I hold on and looked at your writing on the Note.. I would read it.. It is at the Park.. there is a Tree.. on a top of the Branch.. the Heart is there waiting.. I should of gone when I received it.. I should of walked right when I received It.. but it was raining Hard and I would hear the wind blowing Hard.. and I wanted to go but why on this day.. and I would just close the Door behind.. I do regret not going at that time.. I should of Gone because It is YOU.. I even told YOU that I be waiting for YOU.. for the Note which it came to me.. I do remember grabbing the Note.. walking into the House.. the Next day.. the Snow comes.. and It be very cold.. for weeks it would be cold with the Snow falling from the sky.. I should of Gone is what I should of done.. the weeks turned into Months now.. I would be waiting for the Snow weather to die down.. But why did I not come at the time YOU send the Note to Me.. as I am sitting on the Ground.. I am just looking UP at this Tree.. hoping maybe your Heart is still here.. am I just too Late.. did I come at the wrong time.. It is because I did Not come right.. I am looking at this Note.. with the Date YOU have written it to tell me when.. But.. LOOK at the time now.. I have decided to wait a little more longer.. and I should of come at the time.. at the Moment YOU wanted me to come and to show the Heart.. as I am sitting.. I would pull the Paper.. the Drawing of Your Heart.. I am still wondering.. will YOUR Heart be here.. I know that deep inside YOUR Heart is not going to be here.. because it is ME to be blamed for Not making it ON time.. I am the One to be blamed.. I was asking YOU.. I was begging for a Chance to see Your Heart.. I wanted too.. I also even brought the Camera with Me.. it has the straps around my Neck so that I can take a picture of Your Heart.. Just in case Your Heart falls from the Branches.. I can catch YOUR Heart with the Glass Jar.. as I would sit on the ground.. I feel so Sad.. I feel so Hurt all of a suddenly.. because I missed Out.. was I afraid to come because of the rain.. if it did Not rained at all.. I know that I would of showed UP 100 percent.. and I would push back saying.. maybe tomorrow.. but even when the tomorrow became today.. the weather did Not help me at all.. I should of still gone.. I should of come even though it could of delayed just for one day.. I choose not to come because of the weather.. but if I should of known that I would Not see your Heart here today.. then I could of made up my mind to show UP.. because do you not see that Now I am here.. I have come to see your Heart.. prepared and brought everything I told you that what I am going to do.. I told you that I wanted to take a picture of Your Heart.. to get the closer look.. I even told YOU that I drew a Picture of Your Heart.. Not sure the shape or the size but I wanted to know if it is going to be the same imagine of the drawing and Your Real Heart.. I want to see It.. I want to see Your Heart.. I want to hear Your Heart.. even it can be at the Way top of the branch.. as long as it is You.. it is Your Heart.. as I am looking at the Piece of paper.. looking at the drawing of Your Heart.. I wish that I came sooner.. I wish that I came early.. I wish that I would of walked and ran in the rain.. Just to see Your Heart.. just to see the Shape and the Size of Your Heart.. no Matter How wet I be.. or can be sick from the rain.. I could of catch the flu from the cold rain.. but at least I could see Your Heart.. taking the Picture of it.. your Heart.. and when I get the Photo picture of your Heart.. I would of pulled Out the Blank sheet of paper.. and LOOKING at the Photo picture of Your Real Heart.. I would try to draw the One that is in the Photo picture of Your Heart.. and let you see that this is the Heart I see on the Top of the branch and

Please.. Please give me YOUR Heart because I love YOU.. why can't YOU give me Your Heart so that I can tell YOUR Heart and say to your Heart How much I truly.. really really love YOU.. but the feeling would be at the Best as I would be able to turn the other way.. after I get to see Your Heart.. after I get to LOOK at the Drawing Picture of what I think your Heart looks Like and looking UP at the TOP Branch of this tree and looking actually at Your Heart.. and taking that picture.. taking the picture of Your Real Heart.. and I am able to print out the Photo Picture.. and I do not have to think if it is right but when I am holding the Actual Photo Picture of what I have taken of the Real Heart.. I know that I do not have to imagine it.. but can trace it and copy drawing on a Clean Blanket of Piece of paper.. and I can tell YOU.. I have seen Your Heart.. and here is the proof.. here is what I saw.. and when I saw Your Heart.. I just had to take a closer LOOK.. looking from the ground UP with my eyes was very Hard to know.. but when I put the Camera up.. and I looked through the Lens of the Camera.. able to focus and ZOOM it to get a closer look of your Heart.. I was Moved.. my Heart was moved.. I was touched deep inside.. because It is Your Heart I am looking at.. it is Not another person's heart.. but it is Your Heart who I be loving.. and wanting to see even from afar.. I would say.. even though it be hard for Your Heart to hear me from the ground.. I will tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. for the first time.. I am saying it loud to YOU.. will you please accept these words of Mine to YOU.. that I love YOU.. and I am just waiting for the day.. I can Hold Your Heart in my arms.. I want to hold Your Heart and tell YOUR Heart.. I am so sorry that I missed YOU.. but I am Not sorry for loving YOU.. missing YOU hurts me More than anything else in the world.. but as long as I can get close to Your Heart.. I only want to see this Heart.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. allow me to love Your Heart please.. will you please let me love YOU more.. love your Heart too.. as I am sitting on the ground.. I would start to cry.. I know that I came just too late.. I am only looking at the Piece of Paper.. the One that I drew thinking this is the shape and the size of Your Heart.. but I needs to see Your Heart.. not what I think it should be.. I should of come.. I have waited just too long or delayed too long.. Now I am missing Your Heart.. tell me where is Your Heart so that I can go.. go where your Heart is so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I am so sorry that I came just too later.. Please forgive me and help me again so that I can see Your Heart.. I want to say to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. please tell me.. where do I go now.. where is Your Heart so that I know where to go.. please tell me.. please.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking

Heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not Standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me.. that YOU know How much I love YOU.. YOU know How much I miss YOU and able to know my Heart.. that I am able to tell YOU.. and I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can finally hear Your Heart.. listen to the Sound and the Beating of Your Heart.. when it comes so Close.. I can tell your Heart.. DO YOU HEAR ME.. Can YOU Hear me.. because NOW I know.. Now I feel.. Now I hear that my Dreams.. hopes and wishes can come true because I have Your Heart.. I really Need Your Heart.. because I love YOU.. I am sitting down by the shores.. Looking at the Waters coming In.. On a big rock.. I am sitting and just thinking about You.. I am looking at two Empty Bottles.. for some reason.. I started to drink.. the More I think of YOU.. the More I miss YOU.. on this Night.. why do I feel the aching in my Heart.. I wish that I did Not look at your Picture.. I received a Letter from YOU.. and YOU are telling me YOU are going some where so far.. and telling me that It is going to take YOU a while and after hearing these words after I read the Letter you wrote me.. I just could Not take it any more.. I could Not stay inside the House.. so Leaving the House.. and so I wrote YOU a Letter back.. But.. I am wondering at this Point.. what am I suppose to do with the Letter that is In my Hand.. if I am unable to reach YOU.. YOU have Not tell me where YOU are going.. and how long will it take for YOU to come back.. I would look at your Picture.. and looking at the Letter.. I am feeling so much hurt right Now.. it is because I am missing YOU so Much.. All I ever asked for is Your Heart.. I would ask if I can Have your Heart.. is it just too much of asking YOU for It.. because I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. without Your Heart.. there is Nothing that I can do.. then please tell Me.. How do I win YOU over.. How am I suppose to make YOU mine.. what is the secret so that I can take action.. and also tell YOU because I am Not sure what to do at this Point.. So I have decided to come to the Place.. this Rock has been here ever since I first came.. I would sit on the Top of this Rock.. when I want to see you the Most.. I brought with me a Shot Glass.. of course I did not bring YOU picture with me this time.. because I know if I do.. I would be taking a Look.. which it can make my eyes pop out whenever I see Your Picture.. I wish that YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. why can't you see through.. why can't you understand me.. or relate with me what I am going through right Now.. I have bought three bottles of Rice wine.. so far.. I have finished two Bottles.. I am taking a Look at the third.. the last One.. I don't feel drunk at All.. but I need to wash away what is in my Mind.. what is inside my Head.. I am trying to wash YOU away.. trying to forget.. or to erase YOU off but the More I try.. the More I just can't.. so Please Help me for once.. Help me How to win YOU over.. I am still trying over and over.. but I am asking YOU now.. if you know the answers.. if you know the secrets of How to Make YOU Mine.. I feel like I am dying inside right Now.. I feel like I am ready to die instead because I want to have Your Heart.. if only YOU can show me Your Heart and I be able to hold Your Heart in my arms.. and to able to speak to Your Heart.. will you let me tell YOU something.. will you let me speak to Your Heart.. because that is the Only One thing I want.. what I truly need.. to have your Heart and to tell Your Heart.. I have a Heart too.. and My Heart just loves YOU.. How can I transfer this Message to reach Out to YOU.. How can I tell you that I love YOU.. YOU are so far away.. there is this distance between Us.. and I would like to get close to YOU.. How can I get close to YOU.. to your Heart.. Please tell me and let me Know.. as I am looking at the last Bottle.. my hand grabs.. twist the TOP and open it.. holding the Glass shot in the Other hand.. the One with the Bottle.. my hand pours into the Shot Glass.. what if I get sick.. so sick that I rather die instead.. I feel so sick in my stomach because I need to see YOU.. I need to hold YOU Near in my hands.. in my arms and I would say to YOU.. will you please show me Your Heart.. How can I see your Heart.. Please.. let me see your Heart and Please hear these words of Mine.. that I been here.. always waiting for YOU.. just to Love YOU.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. will you let me tell YOU these words of Mine to YOU.. that is why I need your Heart.. I need to know so that I can tell YOU.. but when YOU tell me that YOU are going to take a Long time and YOU are leaving going somewhere very far.. How can I tell YOU.. that is why I been asking YOU.. at least Leave Your Heart with Me.. let your Heart be close to me so that I will not feel like I can't do nothing.. as I am looking at the Shot Glass in my Hand.. I would open my Mouth wide and slam the Shot Glass with rice wine into my mouth.. since I did Not bring your Picture with me.. Now I am dying to see YOU.. I am starting to miss YOU because all I see is the waters coming IN and going Out.. I just can't stop.. but why can't I stop.. I would tell myself to stop.. but How can I stop.. it is because I love YOU.. How can YOU stop someone who loves YOU so much.. that is why I need to hear words from YOU.. If you can tell me to stop Loving YOU.. I know that I can finally rest in Peace.. but.. I still be missing YOU.. still be looking at your Picture and just wondering.. what If something can happen.. How would it be Like if YOU were here with Me.. and I be able to hold YOU in my arms.. and tell YOU.. looking at Your Heart.. even though the Time flies and many weeks and months has passed By.. I still Love YOU.. and If you are asking me.. why do I love YOU so Much.. how is it possible to love YOU this Much.. and if you are asking me and wondering on the Other side.. I would look at the One I am holding the Bottle of rice wine.. Looking at the Other hand holding the Shot Glass.. I would be pouring the Bottle of the rice wine Into the Shot Glass.. placing the Bottle on the ground.. I would be looking at the waters.. I open my mouth wide and pour.. slam the rice wine into my Mouth with the Shot Glass.. and I would close both eyes.. Just thinking about YOU.. I be thinking of YOU.. as I am going back.. I am standing inside the House.. and I hear the Knock On the door.. and I know that YOU are coming over.. after receiving the Message.. the text Message from YOU.. I open the front door.. and I see YOU standing there.. I receive the Letter YOU gave me.. and I wanted to ask if YOU wanted to come inside.. but.. YOU tell me that YOU needs to go.. and I watch YOU turn the other way and YOU start to walk.. where I stop seeing YOU.. as I close the Door.. I would unfold the Letter.. and a Picture falls Out from the folded Paper.. as I go down.. and I pick Up the Picture.. I look at You.. and YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and I just can't believe it.. YOU are so Beautiful.. especially in that White Dress.. But this is Not just an ordinary Dress.. It seems like something is going to happen soon.. It looks like a Wedding Dress to me.. and On the Letter YOU are telling me that YOU are going to get married.. and YOU have invited me to come to see YOU at your Wedding.. I am wondering.. with who are you getting Married too.. because I don't want to receive this from YOU.. why are you telling me to come if I am Not the One who is going to stand next to YOU to make YOU my wife.. If I am invited for the wrong reason.. I do not want to come.. I don't want to watch YOU leave my Life and go with another.. It should be Me who should stand next to YOU.. the One who can put the ring on your Finger.. But why did YOU write me this kind of letter.. It really hurts Me if YOU are telling me to sit and watch the One you love to be taken away from Me.. and I just can't believe you are telling me this.. so I would rip the Letter into pieces.. I just can't take this from YOU.. I don't want to receive this from YOU because YOU are Only hurting me More.. what have I done to deserve this Kind of News.. why hurt me when YOU know my true intentions.. My true Motives.. I know that if I stand next to YOU through Thin and through Thick.. through the good times and the Bad times.. I know that after a certain time.. YOU can Love Me.. why can't YOU give me a chance to proof that I can love YOU more

The prove that I can share and show YOU that It is real.. My Heart is real.. just too real sometimes but is it not better to be more real than to be fake.. that is why I can tell YOU.. for weeks.. for months.. I can still tell YOU that I loved YOU then and I love YOU now.. as I am sitting on this rock.. I open both eyes.. and I look UP to the Moon.. wishing why does has to happen.. to hear this from YOU.. I wanted to hear.. can I marry YOU and will you be mine forever please.. Let me be the One.. Please.. let me be the One to stand next to you and exchange the Vows.. the One who can say I do to YOU.. and the One who can put the ring on your finger and tell YOU.. thank YOU for being the One for me.. the one who I can love forever and say that YOU are Mine.. YOU know that I love you too much.. because I just can't stop but just Love YOU.. because I do.. truly love YOU.. really really.. just love YOU.. the Angel.. Your Angel who loves YOU.. it is because I really really Love YOU.. and this is the Only thing I can do and I can show.. and tell YOU.. which It means truly.. I love YOU.. I received and I would be wondering.. why would someone write me a Note.. but there is No Name telling me from who.. I have this note and tells me to go to the Park.. and there is a Big Tree.. I have this Jar.. it is an Empty Glass Jar.. I am sure I am going to be meeting.. and I see a Picture.. of course it is YOU.. I am sure that the Note has to come from YOU.. because why would anyone write me a Note.. So.. I have a Flower.. a SUN FLOWER.. putting into the Empty Glass Jar.. and with the Note and the Picture.. I would walk outside.. and I love the Sun.. it makes me really really happy when I see the SUN outside.. when the MOON comes UP.. I do get very sad.. because I start to miss YOU.. and I just don't want to keep on missing YOU when I see the Night with MOON up on the sky.. but on this Day.. yes.. I am so Happy that I did receive a Note.. I never receive notes from anyone.. but when it comes from YOU.. it does Not matter How many Notes you send.. just receiving from YOU means everything to me.. So I walk outside and I am thinking of YOU.. Not missing YOU.. but just thinking of YOU.. of Us.. the Hope that Dreams can come True.. So I am holding the Jar.. the Empty glass jar but the SUN FLOWER has entered inside.. So as I am walking.. I see the Park.. I am getting closer to the Big Tree.. and I keep on walking.. I am wondering.. Am I suppose to be meeting YOU here.. I am wondering.. what am I doing here.. I only received a Note card.. telling me to come to this park by this Big tree.. am I suppose to be receiving or am I suppose to be giving.. I am Not sure because I only read it to come here.. so I am standing around.. Placing the Jar.. the Glass Jar down.. I am looking around.. there is another Note.. the NOTE is taped on this tree.. I have the note card.. I have Your Picture.. so I know who I am suppose to look for.. but.. this Note.. I would pull the Note Out from the Tree.. it is taped.. and I would turn around.. it is a Drawing of a Heart.. I am thinking.. is this a JOKE.. a Heart.. and someone drew it with a pencil.. Now.. it is a Heart.. Yes.. I know I want a Heart.. I don't want a Heart with someone draw on it.. I am asking for a Real Heart.. Not a Heart that someone sketched and says it is a Heart.. Honestly.. I want Your Heart.. the One that is inside your Chest.. Not my chest but Yours.. I been asking for a long time now.. it has been so long.. and Now.. are YOU telling me that I am able to have a Heart.. or are you asking me.. if I can give YOU my Heart.. but.. I don't want to give YOU my Heart.. what if My Heart cries because of YOU.. what if YOU Hurt my heart.. what if my Heart does not work or feel the same once YOU take my Heart.. I am Not going to give YOU my heart unless you give me Your Heart first.. I need your Heart.. do YOU see that I am able to speak and share through this.. I am telling YOU.. right Now.. I have not forgotten.. I want... I really really want.. and I will say it over again.. I want it.. I truly want Your Heart because I been asking.. even praying and begging for Your Heart.. why I need it.. TO be honest.. what are YOU going to do with Your Heart.. if I am the One who loves YOU first.. and I am able to tell YOU how I truly feel inside and as been expressing and telling YOU.. how much I need YOU so Please give me Your Heart.. But let me ask you this.. what are you going to do with your heart.. are you just going to let Your Heart just sit there.. YOU know that at least.. I can have your Heart.. if YOU are able to give me Your Heart.. I can speak.. I can pour my Heart and soul and say something to Your Heart.. YOU know that I will never hurt Your Heart.. I can love YOU heart and tell Your Heart How much I love YOU.. so help me to understand.. what are you going to do with Your Heart.. I know that I can take your Heart close.. I can whisper and say that I love YOU.. I can speak and whisper How much I missed YOU.. the sorrows and the tears I had to deal with.. how I would cry in the nights.. when I look at the Moon.. I would say.. I wish.. Only if I can hold your Heart close.. if my hands be able to hold and carry your Heart.. by the MOON.. I would turn to LOOK at the Moon and tell the MOON.. do you see this.. it is the Heart who I love the Most.. able to show this MOON.. How I would be out in the Night.. looking and speaking to the MOON how much I wanted you close.. or wanted you near.. and I can show the MOON.. on this very Night.. just Look.. I am holding in my hands.. palm of my hands is this Fragile Heart.. do you see what I am seeing and I would lift it UP to show the MOON.. YOU have seen me out here.. and Here comes this Person again.. asking for the Same.. Night after Night.. here I go out.. turning and LOOKING at the MOON.. I would be raising UP my voice.. saying How much I missed YOU and needed you close.. Only If I am able to have Your Heart.. closer to me.. and able to speak and share My Heart to your Heart.. how much I want YOU near.. and How I am dealing with the times of distance.. when YOU are so far away.. I am torn down into pieces because I want you close.. and I would say.. if I have Your Heart.. if my palm of hands able to get Hold of YOUR Heart.. I know that in due time.. YOU will come.. YOU are not going to leave your Heart with me.. soon or later I believe you will come to get Your Heart.. that is why I want this Heart.. I want Your Heart.. that is the only way I know that I will see you soon.. as I am standing by this Big Tree.. I know this can't be a joke.. why would you do this to me.. DO you think that I am dumb.. because I don't want this kind of Heart.. I want the real Heart.. the One I can touch.. I can hold and feel.. and able to speak and say to the Heart How much I love YOU.. what am I suppose to do with this Heart.. I know that someone drew this Heart.. thinking this is funny.. But to Me.. it is Not that funny.. because I am serious about Your Heart.. I want the One who lives inside YOU.. so Please.. tell me that it is a sample.. that this is not a real Heart.. and I take a Look at the Note again.. this time.. a written on.. the Heart is On top of the Tree.. of course I missed this Line right here.. which Now I do feel so Dumb for missing the Purpose of this Note.. as I smile.. I know that YOU are Not joking.. it means it is a real Heart.. of course.. While I was walking.. I saw the Big Tree from the distance and It is very Big Tree.. I get closer to the Tree.. and I am able to look UP.. it looks so much bigger.. as I would lift up my Head to look UP.. can I ask YOU a Big Favor.. if I am able to see the Heart and I am able to get Your Heart.. can I please write My Name on that Heart.. will you let me.. will you allow me.. will you give me the Permission to write my Name on your Heart so that YOU will know that I did find your Heart and that I love YOU.. How do you know who loves YOU.. YOU will not know unless someone writes HIS NAME and tells YOU to Your Heart.. I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. that is why I want to tell YOU and remind YOU many times.. the Name will cross your Mind.. when YOU LOOK at your Heart and YOU find a Name.. YOU are able to remember that this Name.. this person Loves YOU.. He loves YOU to death that He also writes.. the way I received the Note and it was written.. I want to write.. Not ON the Note.. and No.. I am not going to draw No Heart and paste ON you.. but I want to write on your Heart.. that I love YOU.. when YOU feel like it seems like NO ONE cares at least YOU will know that I do.. that I care and I do love YOU.. so please.. Give me Your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. why do you have to make it so Hard for me to get to Your Heart.. why.. YOU know that this tree is Big.. is is very Big with many branches going UP.. which I am sure it is going to be so hard for someone like me to climb.. if the branches breaks.. you know I will fall on the ground.. But.. how am I suppose to get to Your Heart.. as I am looking UP at this Big tree.. and I am much smaller.. I look way UP.. at the way top of the tree.. a Branch is there.. I do see the Heart.. I see Your Heart sitting on the top of the Branch.. it takes my breathe away that I finally see your Heart

The Heart.. That Heart is the Only way.. YOUR HEART.. as I look at your Picture.. I would speak to your Picture.. right Now I have NO idea.. but I got a Note from YOU and I have come here because of the Note YOU gave me.. I also have the Other Note which was taped on the Tree.. and I saw the Note.. it has a drawing of Your Heart.. and I even read the NOTE down below.. telling me to LOOK UP on this BIG TREE.. I looked UP and way UP on the first Branch.. the top branch.. I see a Big Heart.. and It must be Your Heart which is sitting on top of the first branch at the TOP of this Tree.. I am holding the Shot glass into my hand.. as My other Hand holds the Bottle.. Bottle of SOJU and I am pouring into the Shot Glass.. Only words I would say to YOU.. I miss YOU.. I don't know why but this very Night.. I am missing YOU.. wishing that YOU are here with me.. I just want to hold YOU in my arms.. Hold YOU close.. Hold you tight.. But No matter how many times I call for YOU.. calling YOUR name.. it seems like YOU Never answer.. Can you Hear Me.. Can you hear my voice calling out to YOU.. calling out your Name.. I put the SOJU bottle down on the Floor.. my other hand holding the Shot Glass.. both eyes closes.. I open my mouth.. I would slam the Shot Glass.. the SOJU hits me.. as I would sit.. I put the Shot Glass on the ground.. Next to the Bottle of SOJU.. as I would open both eyes.. I look down at the Bottle of SOJU.. it is Now Empty.. I just finished taking many shots.. I just needed to get.. My Heart Hurts.. because I am missing YOU.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. as Your Picture is laying on the ground.. my hand grabs the Picture.. I pick up your Picture.. looking at YOU.. LOOKING at this Picture of YOU.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. that because of the distance.. the distance that keeps us apart.. I wish that I wouldn't miss you like this.. but there are some nights that I would feel.. My Heart gets heavy.. and for no Other reason.. I just miss YOU out of Nowhere.. as I want to cry.. I just want to pour down my tears.. and I would get UP slowly.. standing Out side.. On this very peaceful Night.. I would Look UP.. Looking at the stars.. and I turn to LOOK at the MOON.. my arms stretches further.. towards the MOON.. the Other Hand with No picture.. I am looking at the MOON.. I wish that the MOON can come close.. so that the MOON can hear Me.. I know that since you are far off.. YOU can't hear me.. NO matter How loud my voice gets.. NO Matter How louder I want to speak UP.. these words.. Words I want to tell YOU.. these words to Tell your ear.. I need your ears tonight.. so that I want to speak.. speak to YOU.. to Your Heart.. to tell YOU.. I miss YOU.. I miss you so much.. sometimes I just don't know what to do.. what can I do.. what could I do.. missing YOU.. wanting to dry my tears.. Missing YOU.. my words wants to speak to YOU.. but.. YOU can't even hear me.. so what am I suppose to do if I want to speak and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I love YOU that I am missing YOU.. missing you which is driving me crazy.. I feel so Crazy right Now.. look at me.. Look at what I am doing right Now.. as I am looking UP.. I am looking at the MOON.. as my hand.. my arm is reaching for the MOON.. I want this MOON to come close.. Please.. can YOU come closer.. I want to say something.. I need to speak.. it is my Heart.. I want to speak from My Heart.. so Please.. if you can lend me the ear so that when I finish speaking.. I know that YOU know where.. I want to show you the Picture.. the One who I love the Most.. my beloved.. the One who I miss the Most.. the One who I wants to tell YOU about.. If you can come closer.. and show me your ear so that I can tell YOU.. my Heart.. needs to say.. and I know that when YOU see the One who I love the most.. Please tell Her.. I miss Her.. and I love her.. can YOU do me a favor.. I am asking YOU from My Heart.. as I am looking UP at the MOON.. I don't see any reaction.. the MOON does not come near.. Does Not come close to Me.. as I lift up the Other arm.. the One my Hand is holding your Picture.. I would look at your picture.. looking at YOU closer.. I open my mouth LOOKING at your Picture.. it is so sad that I am talking to a thin air.. I feel like NO ONE knows and NO ONE cares.. Not even the MOON seems like He cares.. I asked the MOON to come closer.. if that MOON has an ear.. that My Heart.. I am burning inside to speak.. to say.. to share what is deep in my soul.. I asked the MOON if he has an ear.. I wanted to show that MOON the picture of YOU.. when the MOON looks at YOU.. this Picture I am holding in my hand and show the MOON.. so that He is able to know who YOU are.. That Moon is able to know because the MOON is lifted UP.. able to find YOU.. able to know who you are so that if that MOON has the ears to listen.. I wanted to sent a message to YOU through this MOON.. If the MOON is able to find YOU on the Other side.. and if YOU ever go Out side on this very peaceful Night.. if the MOON spots YOU.. He can call out to YOU.. AND say Your Name.. calling out to YOU by asking YOU.. calling out your Name so that YOU can turn and KNOW.. a message must be delivered.. but.. No matter How many times I tried to call.. I know that YOU are unable to receive.. even this MOON does not respond to my calling.. I am asking this MOON.. but the Moon seems like He don't know.. So I am here.. standing alone on this very night.. wanting to tell YOU that I miss YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU.. But.. How can I tell YOU if you are so Far away.. miles and miles.. distance apart.. what am I suppose to do if I can't tell YOU what is in my heart.. this afternoon.. I saw your picture.. when I saw your picture.. I would smile.. saying YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Lovely and so wonderful.. I would smile looking at your Picture.. but at the same time.. my Heart.. grew sad on Me.. I went to a shop.. and got me a Bottle of SOJU.. I did not want to drink it at first.. I don't like getting drunk.. I hate waking up with hang over.. but for some reason.. I went to a shop.. and GOT me a Bottle of SOJU.. grabbing the Shot Glass out of the kitchen cabinet.. I placed it next to the Shot Glass.. as I would look at your Picture.. I started to miss YOU.. I would ask myself.. WHY all of a sudden this feeling over came me.. that I felt so Sad.. it is because I want to be with YOU right Now.. I want to tell YOU.. Hold you close.. hold you tight and pull you close.. wrap my arms around you and tell Your ears.. How much I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. and I will never stop.. I will keep on loving YOU.. looking at your picture.. sometimes I am overwhelm by your beauty.. I never get tired of looking at YOU.. my hand touch my chest.. and I can feel how much I love to look at YOU.. and only If this Picture had ears.. if your picture had ears.. I know that I do not have to be going outside.. looking at the MOON.. if your picture only had ears to listen.. How lovely would that BE.. I can just speak.. speak from my Heart to tell YOU.. whenever I feel I miss YOU.. or My Heart feels to say I love YOU.. I can just tell YOU.. how much I do.. but.. I look at your Picture.. I don't see any ears.. so I know that Your picture is unable to hear Me.. so what am I suppose to do if I can say these words to YOU.. it hurts me More than hurts YOU.. there are times when I miss you more.. days when I want to see YOU.. when I want you near and close.. so that I can feel your warmth.. see your smile.. and to even hear your voice from time to time.. I got the Shot Glass.. with the BOTTLE of SOJU.. and I would pour the BOTTLE OF SOJU into the Shot Glass.. and I would look at Your Picture.. I would say.. Do you know that I miss YOU right Now.. please say something.. Please tell me that YOU also miss me too.. I need to hear something from YOU.. but.. I know that If I tell you these words.. YOUR Picture has No ears to listen.. and I would say to myself.. why am I always hoping.. I am hoping that YOU can see me.. I am hoping that YOU can hear me.. but NO matter how many words I would speak looking at your Picture.. I don't hear any words back from YOU.. I grab the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth wide and slam the SOJU into my mouth.. I am asking YOU.. I am asking you because I miss YOU so bad.. I miss you like there will be NO tomorrow.. I miss you because I love YOU.. and I know that even though the tomorrow may come.. will YOU able to hear me.. hear me say to YOU that I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. as I would turn.. I would look UP to the Moon.. I would open my Mouth looking at the MOON.. thinking of YOU.. thinking because I love YOU.. thinking because I miss YOU.. I would look UP.. at the MOON and say.. Only if this MOON can hear Me.. How nice would that be.. because there are so much to say.. if YOU can only come down.. and if you have ears.. I be asking YOU.. can you lend me your ears on this very Night.. can YOU do me favor and send a Message.. Do you see this Picture.. DO you see the One who I love the Most.. Please remember this Picture and the Face