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MAH MAH.. I am looking at You.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and we are both standing by the Tree.. as I am looking.. I see five Guards approaching.. and I turn to look at YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please stand Back.. Go behind Me.. MAH MAH.. I am ready.. and I am holding the Sword in my hand.. and I see one of the Guards.. looks and points at me.. and He pulls out his sword and runs.. I turn too look back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. do you trust Me.. I know that I can handle this.. and as the One of the Guards comes up.. I turn too look.. and I run and I jump into the air.. I would swing my Sword.. Both the blades hits together.. and I land on the ground.. He swings and I swings.. I would jump back and I would swing the sword.. the Four Guards comes and circles around me.. I would turn back.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please Go back.. and I see the Five Guards holding the Swords.. and I would walk forward.. Swing my sword.. and I can Hear the words Stop.. and the Five Guards would stop.. and they would drop the swords on the Ground.. and they would all kneel on the ground.. and I see you walking forward.. and I grab Your Arm.. MAH MAH.. PRINCESS.. what are you doing.. I asked of YOU to step back.. I wanted to protect YOU.. if Harm would come.. YOU know that I will fight for YOU.. on your Behalf.. I was ready to strike back.. ready to die if I have to here.. But.. why did you stop the fight.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I grabbed unto your wrist.. Please.. don't go.. and Be here with me.. and I see YOU turn your head looking at me.. telling me that YOU needs to go.. I would hold unto your wrist.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that once I let this Wrist Go.. I may never be able to Hold unto this wrist ever again.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. why did YOU even bring me to this Place if YOU are going to let go.. YOU are the one who wanted to bring me here.. I was standing by the Gates.. YOU know that I was happy just being in the palace.. just being close to your Chamber.. just watching your figure.. even from the distance.. as long as I get to see YOU.. it made me the most happiest place.. then.. why did YOU tell me to come.. YOU are the one who got the Horse for me.. YOU are the one who asked me to come and follow YOU.. I only agreed too because YOU asked me.. and Now.. why are you changing your Mind.. if I let YOU go.. YOU should just let me Die here.. I don't want to go if I can't be with YOU.. if I can Not hold unto your wrist.. what is the point if I let it go now.. Let me just die here.. Let me fight these Guards.. if they win.. I will die here.. Bury me next to my Father.. Bury me here.. if I win this fight.. then you can be with me forever.. How about that.. and I see you turn your Head looking at me.. and I would fall on my knees.. kneeling with the five Guards.. I even drop my sword on the floor.. WHY do I have to let go.. I can't let your wrist go.. do YOU not remember How I got here.. ever since YOU came to the garden.. I would also take you to this Tree.. the reason why I have brought you to this tree.. my Mother is buried next to this Tree.. My Mother died giving me birth.. so I never met my Mother.. MAH MAH.. I have never met my mother.. so I have never seen her.. never heard the voice.. but My Father told me that she was very beautiful and was very bold.. had the Heart like a lion and would fight even in battles.. but giving birth to me was hard and gave her last breathe after I came into this world.. I remember my Father told me as He was watching YOU growing UP.. some reason YOU reminded of My Mother.. and told me a lot about her.. I remember when I was young boy.. I would follow my Father.. did not know where he was taking me and would take me to this Tree.. I would ask my Father.. what is this tree all about.. it must have a meaning because.. My Father would come nights.. He would be talking to this Tree.. and crying.. and told Me.. My mother is buried next to this Tree.. a little bed of flowers.. this is where.. and told me that MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is so much like Your Mother and One day.. he tells me that I am going to love YOU.. that is why my father would tell me never get too close to YOU.. I would laugh at those words.. but Now.. I realize that He is truly right.. because my father tells me I am so much like him.. and Now.. I do see myself more like my Father as time goes by.. Now.. I do miss my mother who I never seen before.. but when I look at YOU MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. what my father said is so True.. I love YOU because YOU are so Strong and YOU are so bold.. courageous.. which I never met my Mother before.. I wanted to take you to this Tree.. so that I can introduce YOU to my Mother who is buried by this Bed of flowers.. but.. I did not want to tell YOU who.. but just wanted to show YOU there is someone very special and dear to me.. I believe my mother's spirit is here.. and I just wanted to tell my Mother.. her spirit.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM is the One who I love.. I don't know why it has to be you.. if you are asking me.. WHY DO I LOVE YOU.. what am I suppose to say.. How am I suppose to answer if it is just because Y O U.. DO I needs to explain why or How much I love YOU.. isn't just enough to tell you that I love YOU.. MAH MAH.. and Now you are wondering why DO I tell you this Now.. I just had to know for sure if YOU are the One who I truly Love.. I wanted to know for sure.. is it really CONG JU NIM.. is it really MAH MAH.. the princess.. and I had to hold it for years.. do you know how many years it had to cross.. how many times I had to ask myself if this is real.. if this is true and had to ask thousand times.. maybe even million times I had to ask myself before I would accept the truth.. and yes.. Like I said to YOU.. I have never felt like this way before.. because I just love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I just had to tell myself.. it can't be.. I would ponder on this for a long time.. my Father would look at me when I was young.. what am I suppose to do with his Son.. knowing that I was going to love YOU.. he told me.. I don't want me to love YOU.. but He knows that I was going to love you anyways.. my Father when he was alive.. looked at me.. told me never to get close to YOU.. it is going to hurt me more when I do.. it is going to tear my heart into pieces if I do.. Now.. Look at me.. I can't help but just fall in love with YOU.. I am holding unto your wrist.. I just can't let go.. but I see that YOU want me to let it go.. if I do let Go.. would you let me hold unto your wrist again and next time I do.. that you.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I am not going to let It go.. Please don't put my hand away.. because I won't let it go any more.. as I would look at you.. I open my hand and I release your wrist.. My Chest pains.. it comes and hits me Hard and I can feel this Pain growing stronger.. I just can't.. I see you walking forward.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. Will you please come back.. I am going to wait for YOU.. you know where to find me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please don't Go.. WHY do you have to go.. if you love me.. if YOU really really Love me.. would you not stay here with Me.. and as I would watch YOU keep walking.. I see the Five Guards getting UP.. and I see them also walking and they would follow You.. and I am here by the Tree.. my Heart.. and I would Open my Mouth Wide yelling.. WHY do you have to Go.. why do I have to let Your wrist Go.. my hand hits My chest.. I can't let YOU go.. and I get UP.. and I look.. my tears just falling from my eyes.. I grab the sword on the ground.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do YOU have to go and One of the Guard looks back.. and He has a sword.. and I grab the sword and I would start to run forward.. the Other Guards would turn too look back.. running and holding the sword.. the One Guard.. we both swings the swords at each other.. and the Blades hits and Hits together.. I see you turn around and YOU look.. I would jump UP.. yelling and screaming.. swinging the sword.. and the Guard swings back and I am jumping swinging the sword at the Guard.. another Guard runs up and Plunges the Sword into me.. and He pulls the sword Out and I drop the Sword.. and I am yelling.. I see you telling to Stop.. the five Guards stops and pulls back.. and I can feel.. I am dying inside.. I can feel the chills in my body as I would kneel.. and I know that I am going to die soon.. my tears.. my blood on the side.. my hand holding the side.. I see you running.. and as I am feeling like.. I am just like my father.. I am also losing YOU.. But I love YOU.. I love you so much.. I can feel this Ache MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do I have to die like this without fully able to love YOU.. I want to love YOU and love you well.. but I think that I just can't.. Look at me and I would lay on the ground.. Bury me next to my Father.. or you can bury me next to my mother.. I am dying because I love YOU so much.. it hurts.. and I would cough blood.. and it is so hard to move.. and I see you next too me.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. if I hold unto your wrist.. I asked you.. if you come back.. can I hold to your wrist and this time.. Please don't go.. I am not going to let the wrist go.. as I would lay my head on your lap.. I can feel the wind blowing.. I see the grey clouds gathering.. and I see the sky darkens and I know it is about to rain.. I know this time.. when it rains.. I can go gone with the Wind.. I would ask YOU.. MAH MAH.. Send my ashes away.. to the waters that I love.. put my ashes into the waters where I can go as far.. I will be with YOU.. because I will still love you then.. I will love YOU forever.. and as I would close my eyes.. my eyes open..

MAH MAH.. I hope that YOU know it is me who was looking at YOU from the distance.. YOU are so Beautiful.. makes my heart wants to cry because I know you are so beautiful.. Breathe taking Beautiful.. so Hard to breathe after I saw Your Eyes.. Now.. I am wondering.. WHY did I even turn to Look back.. all it does it hurt me More.. In pain I feel so much of missing YOU but Wanting YOU.. needing Your love.. WHY can't YOU love Me.. Why can't YOUR HEART feel what I feel.. Can I give YOU my Heart CONG JU NIM.. do YOU want the Heart I have inside of Me.. so that When I give it to YOU and Put inside of YOU.. you are able to know HOW MY heart was feeling all this TIME.. It hurts.. it hurts so bad because I want Your Love.. I need Your Love as much as I love YOU.. why can't you feel the same as Me.. WHY do I must suffer.. and Now.. knowing YOU are so Close.. it hurts Me.. WHY keep hurting Me.. WHY keep on loving YOU when It hurts me so Bad.. I want YOU to know My Heart.. so One day it can Kick Your Heart and YOU can say.. It hurts.. that is How my Heart feels right Now.. someone kicked my Heart and It keeps ON hurting ME.. Loving YOU hurts Me.. Missing YOU hurts me.. and waiting for YOU hurts me as well.. but.. I never stopped Loving YOU.. Let me love YOU.. then tell me that I can love YOU.. so I can show YOU that Love hurts.. as the rain keeps on falling from the sky.. I hear the thunder crumbling.. and Loud it growled at Me.. rain starts to fall harder and More it came down On me.. Princess.. WHY DO I have to Love YOU.. WHY PRINCESS.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do I have to love YOU like this.. my Princess.. I saw YOU by the Window.. I am still wondering.. if YOU have noticed me.. did YOU KNOW that it was me looking for YOU.. it is me.. who keeps on looking.. because I want to say something to YOU.. that I love YOU.. but.. I know you can't hear me when your Chamber is way ON top of the tower.. I want to say to YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can write it on the sky.. when YOU were looking at the Moon.. I am sure if I was able to write on the Clouds I love YOU.. and YOU see the three letter words.. YOU would know that It be me.. I love YOU.. Now I am here stuck in the Rain.. I want to see YOU.. I know I can't take the Sketch paper Out.. the drawing.. the Picture of YOU.. it will get wet by the Rain storms.. and I would stand there.. my hand starts to Hit My Chest.. I love YOU.. I be missing YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to tell YOU I love YOU.. but WHY can't I tell you these words.. I want to tell YOU My Heart because I love YOU.. and I would hit my Chest Hard.. I just can't Stop loving YOU.. if though there are times I do want to stop.. because it hurts.. and Missing YOU hurts me more.. every day I am missing YOU.. and I start Cry.. My tears falling from both Eyes.. as I am getting Hit by the rain.. the rain becomes more harder and it pours down.. I want to say I LOVE YOU.. I get on both knees.. As I go back to the Garden.. I see YOU.. I get down on my fours.. I see that YOU have turned to walk away.. and I stop you.. WHY.. please Wait.. WHY are you leaving so SOON.. you just came to the Garden.. why leave so Fast.. is it because YOU don't like Me.. is it because I am born to the Lowly People.. but.. I wanted you to Know something.. If you are going to leave so soon like this.. WHY come.. if you did Not come to the garden.. LOOK what you have done to Me.. that I can't stop Loving YOU.. I am looking a ground.. TELL me that YOU are Not leaving yet.. because I know there is something that My Heart needs to say.. to tell YOU.. why did YOU leave this One SUN FLOWER.. I gave it to YOU.. but I have found this Sun Flower on the ground.. if YOU did not like this Flower at ALL.. if you told me that this is the Flower you don't like.. I could of took it and put in with the Flowers in the House.. but when I saw the Sun Flower laying on the ground.. it broke My Heart.. finding it on the ground made me cry because I cared for this Flower like a baby.. that I love this Sun Flower the way I love YOU.. It breaks me heart of being rejected.. even though you had the choice not to take it.. I would of understand.. from a Lowly Person giving it to YOU.. it just don't make any sense.. but taking it My heart was filled with Joy and gladness that the Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. the Highest of all.. has taken the Flower I grew and just taking it means everything to Me.. but When I found it laying on the Ground.. it told me this Flower is dead.. I feel it in my Heart that I died with this SUN FLOWER.. I want you to Know that I love you more than this SUN FLOWER.. that is why it is Only Flower I wanted to give.. at least if YOU can listen to my words.. and I know you don't needs to explain anything.. I just wanted to say.. this SUN FLOWER means everything to me.. and you tell me to Get UP.. I am holding the SUN FLOWER in my hand.. and I see your hand grab the Sun Flower.. as my tears are rolling down my two eyes.. down my cheeks.. WILL you still want it.. I am only giving it to YOU because YOU are the Most beautiful Flower.. I look far back.. two guards are waiting by the Horse.. I know that It is Late.. and I know that YOU have to go.. but.. Do you know that I love YOU CONG JU NIM.. WILL you accept my Love.. my Heart.. if YOU take this Sun Flower.. does it means YOU can accept my Heart.. my Love.. I would stand there.. YOUR HAND grabs Hold unto and YOU take it.. I start to cry More because my Heart.. I always wanted to give YOU my heart.. give YOU my Love.. I want to love YOU.. WILL you let me love YOU.. I don't want to stop loving YOU.. and I look.. I want to tell YOU something.. that a man like myself should Not Dream at all.. the People who lives around here tells me Never to Dream.. it is useless and worthless to dream if YOU are a Low Born.. but I want to tell YOU my Dream.. that I am going to JOIN the Army.. and I want to be a CHIEF GENERAL.. so that I can be close to YOU and be a man who can protect and Love YOU.. I have Not told anyone but I just want YOU TO KNOW.. I know that I can fight for the country and even die as a Warrior.. I can Die in the land and my Heart to protect YOU.. I am Not asking for YOU to love me.. I know that I am not allowed.. but.. it would be Me whose be loving YOU.. I want to love YOU.. I want to keep on loving YOU.. loving you where YOU can be sick and tired of this Love.. but.. Just loving YOU means everything to Me.. let me Love YOU.. Let me Love YOU.. I want to love you with my Whole Heart.. would you let me Love YOU.. and my hand grabs Your Wrist.. WOULD YOU let me Love YOU.. Please answer me before YOU go and tell me right Now.. can I love YOU.. I need to know.. because YOUR TIME means everything to Me.. as I grab your Wrist.. and I stand there waiting for YOU to say something.. my hand opens releases your Wrist.. but I see you holding the Sun Flower and I know.. when YOU take it with YOU.. it means something to Me because I love YOU.. don't look back.. Please don't drop the Sun Flower.. because it tells YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. because I really do Love YOU PRINCESS.. My PRINCESS.. CONG JU NIM.. I love YOU.. Your Heart.. baby Blue Bow.. looks at the Flower too.. DO you see what I am holding.. It is for YOU.. this Flower belongs to YOU.. it is made to be Loved by YOU.. this WHITE ROSE FLOWER wants to go with YOU.. but.. YOU Have to come closer.. come closer because I will not bite.. I will Not hurt YOU.. but to Only Love YOU.. Please come and step closer.. all you needs to do is walk few steps closer.. I have a full basket of Flowers.. and they are filled with different colors but are ONE.. they are Roses.. because I want to give this Basket full of flowers to YOU.. as I waited for YOU.. ALL I can say is that YOU are so Beautiful.. I don't know it My eyes are lying to me or Not.. it seems like the more time passes By.. YOU are getting More Prettier.. I get so confused because.. YOU are getting more prettier from the last time I saw YOU.. WHAT IS it.. who is it that is causing YOU TO BE this Pretty Pretty.. SO beautiful.. as I waited for YOU.. It seems like YOU DO NOT want to come.. I see you just standing there.. YOU LOOK at your Heart.. and lower to Place the Heart inside the Glass Jar.. and I see you looking at the Door you came Out and I see you walking back that direction.. I am wondering.. DID I say something Wrong.. Poor man like myself cannot ever be with YOU but.. I can dream right.. I can dream that One day I can see YOU right.. that I am able to stand on the side line and at least Wave as YOU pass By.. I am standing by the Palace Gates.. Watching through the Night.. A guard who is next to me looks at me and tells me the One Window.. When I look back.. That is Your Chamber.. Where CONG JU NIM sleeps.. I am Looking UP.. I see the Dark Skies.. I see the Stars twinkling High Above.. I am missing YOU.. I am thinking about YOU.. the More I keep on missing YOU.. I keep on thinking.. The Guard Next to me says.. I am so Crazy.. What if the King finds Out about this.. What if the Queen Finds Out.. It is going on my Death Row.. and I look at the Moon.. I see Your Beautiful Face.. So beautiful.. and I reach on the back Pocket.. pulling Out is the Sketch Paper.. the Drawing of YOU.. I wish that I can see YOU right Now.. I wish that I can tell YOU HOW MUCH I miss YOU.. I miss you so bad.. feels Like I am going to have an Heart Attack.. DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW much I love YOU.. as both hands are Holding the Sketch Paper..

MAH MAH.. The drawing.. this Picture of YOU.. I am wondering.. WHEN can I see YOU again.. can it be really Soon.. I need YOU.. I need YOU close.. and I want to tell YOU.. put your hand on my Chest.. right here is where my Heart is at.. Can YOU feel how Fast My Heart is running.. How Fast my Heart can beat when YOU are so Close.. Please tell me.. my Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. Can I go to Your Chamber.. I need to see YOU right Now.. I need to tell YOU.. How much I need Your Love.. and see YOUR PRESENCE.. I miss YOU.. I really Miss YOU my Princess.. as I turn to LOOK back.. I look UP at the Window.. I am wondering.. Are YOU sleeping.. Are YOU sleeping.. Please come to the Window.. if YOU look Down.. I am sure YOU will find the Smaller Gate.. I am here waiting for YOU.. and I am waiting to see if YOU would ever come BY the window.. can I at least say Hi to YOU.. I know that I am a Lowly Born.. and I have NO rights to Love YOU.. but what can I do when My Heart does Not listen to Me.. Does Not listen to my Voice or Hear my Words.. It just does what the Heart do the Best.. to Love YOU.. can I please Love YOU.. and I turn to Look down.. this Sketch Paper.. the drawing of YOU.. this Picture.. I would feel so Sad.. because It has no colors.. just a Black and white.. but if it had some colors.. I think it would Hurt me More than YOU.. because loving YOU always Hurts my Heart.. I am wondering.. Do you think about Me.. or maybe YOU are just too busy in life that YOU HAVE no time to think.. But.. it seems like I am waiting for the next Military Camp.. and SOON it opens the door.. I am going to join to become in the Army Forces.. I can hear the Crumbling.. I see the Clouds forming and The Sky Grew Dark.. As I can see light rains falling from the Sky.. and has Become chilly.. I roll the Sketch Paper and Put it back into the back pocket.. As I look UP.. I am looking at the Moon.. Do you see me.. I see the Light on the Chamber.. if YOU are not asleep right Now.. can YOU Please come closer.. and I would turn to Look back.. and I see YOU.. standing by the Window and I see YOU looking at the Moon.. we are both Looking at the Same Moon.. CONG JU NIM.. if you can lower your head and Look down.. I am sure YOU can find a Figure.. a man who is standing Out.. who is guarding through the Rain.. Can YOU Please Look down.. and I would be Looking back.. LOOKING at Your Chamber.. the Window.. and I would wait for awhile.. But it seems Like YOU don't look down.. so I turn around.. LOOKING UP.. it is okay.. It is Alright if YOU don't look down.. YOU don't have to because YOU WILL not find anything down here.. as I look UP.. looking at the Moon.. How do YOU feel CONG JU NIM.. we are Both looking at the same MOON at this Night.. Of course I did not know that the Chamber back there was Your ROOM.. I just heard it today.. a new Guard has come and has replaced the Old Guard.. and He told me that the Chamber back there belongs to YOU.. when I heard about it.. IT took me by a surprise.. I wanted to turn back.. Open this gate and RUN towards that Window.. of course it is way HIGH up on tower.. But.. I wanted to let YOU know.. I came here for YOU.. I wanted to come to Protect YOU.. even though I may not be able to do Much.. at least I wanted to show YOU.. I am here.. A lot closer then YOU think.. as I keep on looking at that Moon.. I feel the rain drops coming.. and lightly.. as I am getting wet through the Night.. I am missing YOU.. we are here so Close but so Far because I want to be with YOU.. why can't I be with YOU.. as I turn to Look back.. I look UP towards the Chamber window.. I see YOU still there.. and I see Your Head Lowers to look down.. I am not sure if YOU know this is me.. and I see Our eyes meet.. but.. Seems like YOU don't recognize Me.. I see you turn your head away and YOU leave the Window.. I hope that YOU know it is me who was looking at YOU from the distance.. YOU are so Beautiful.. makes my heart wants to cry because I know you are so beautiful.. Breathe taking Beautiful.. so Hard to breathe after I saw Your Eyes.. Now.. I am wondering.. WHY did I even turn to Look back.. all it does it hurt me More.. In pain I feel so much of missing YOU but Wanting YOU.. needing Your love.. WHY can't YOU love Me.. Why can't YOUR HEART feel what I feel.. Can I give YOU my Heart CONG JU NIM.. do YOU want the Heart I have inside of Me.. so that When I give it to YOU and Put inside of YOU.. you are able to know HOW MY heart was feeling all this TIME.. It hurts.. it hurts so bad because I want Your Love.. I need Your Love as much as I love YOU.. why can't you feel the same as Me.. WHY do I must suffer.. and Now.. knowing YOU are so Close.. it hurts Me.. WHY keep hurting Me.. WHY keep on loving YOU when It hurts me so Bad.. I want YOU to know My Heart.. so One day it can Kick Your Heart and YOU can say.. It hurts.. that is How my Heart feels right Now.. someone kicked my Heart and It keeps ON hurting ME.. Loving YOU hurts Me.. Missing YOU hurts me.. and waiting for YOU hurts me as well.. but.. I never stopped Loving YOU.. Let me love YOU.. then tell me that I can love YOU.. so I can show YOU that Love hurts.. as the rain keeps on falling from the sky.. I hear the thunder crumbling.. and Loud it growled at Me.. rain starts to fall harder and More it came down On me.. Princess.. WHY DO I have to Love YOU.. WHY PRINCESS.. CONG JU NIM.. WHY do I have to love YOU like this.. my Princess.. I saw YOU by the Window.. I am still wondering.. if YOU have noticed me.. did YOU KNOW that it was me looking for YOU.. it is me.. who keeps on looking.. because I want to say something to YOU.. that I love YOU.. but.. I know you can't hear me when your Chamber is way ON top of the tower.. I want to say to YOU how much I love YOU.. if I can write it on the sky.. when YOU were looking at the Moon.. I am sure if I was able to write on the Clouds I love YOU.. and YOU see the three letter words.. YOU would know that It be me.. I love YOU.. Now I am here stuck in the Rain.. I want to see YOU.. I know I can't take the Sketch paper Out.. the drawing.. the Picture of YOU.. it will get wet by the Rain storms.. and I would stand there.. my hand starts to Hit My Chest.. I love YOU.. I be missing YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to tell YOU I love YOU.. but WHY can't I tell you these words.. I want to tell YOU My Heart because I love YOU.. and I would hit my Chest Hard.. I just can't Stop loving YOU.. if though there are times I do want to stop.. because it hurts.. and Missing YOU hurts me more.. every day I am missing YOU.. and I start Cry.. My tears falling from both Eyes.. as I am getting Hit by the rain.. the rain becomes more harder and it pours down.. I want to say I LOVE YOU.. I get on both knees.. As I go back to the Garden.. I see YOU.. I get down on my fours.. I see that YOU have turned to walk away.. and I stop you.. WHY.. please Wait.. WHY are you leaving so SOON.. Don't go.. Why are you leaving Me.. why can't you stay a little bit Longer with Me.. WHY must you go Now.. and I would grab Your Wrist.. Please Wait!! CONGJU NIM.. can YOU please stay here with me a Little Longer.. And I am AT THE Outer Court.. Looking at YOU and the King.. and I cry Out.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I get your attention.. DO you remember the Tree incident.. and I see the King.. PEH HA and he sits on the Chair.. and YOU are next to Him.. Do you remember what happened at the Tree.. WHY did you save me.. I was close to death.. I was very close to dying.. why did YOU save me back there.. I asked of YOU to release me.. and I look at YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. if you just let me Go.. I would not be here.. Please tell the King.. PEH HA what happened.. and I see the King turns too look at YOU.. and you just stoop there speechless.. PEH HA.. CONG JU NIM is the one who saved me.. I closed my both eyes and sword plunged into the side.. and I knew that I was going to die that day.. but MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM saved my Life.. what does this Means.. and the King LOOKS at me.. and He turns too look at You.. if the ROYAL Family saves a Life.. there is a rule.. that I become a slave in that family.. and the King looks at me.. Am I not to be a Slave for the Princess.. I am Now a Servant for the CONG JU NIM.. and I would look at the ground.. and the King turns too look at YOU.. He gets UP and He leaves the chair.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I am your Slave Now.. There is NO one like YOU.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. there is NO One as Beautiful YOU are.. because YOU are all I see.. I know that I am Poor.. I am very lowly and I know I have Nothing much to give YOU.. that is WHY I am so sorry for being who I am.. that is WHY I know that My Heart is breaking into pieces.. I am so Sorry that I was born from a Lowly Family and YOU are from the Royal Blood Line.. but what can I do that It is my Heart who keeps on Loving YOU.. My Lips would call out your Name many times a day..

MAH MAH.. Asking MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. MAH MAH.. I love YOU.. and I am looking at the SUN setting.. YOU are standing next to Me.. and ALL I do.. even though YOU may be here right NOW.. I know that by tomorrow YOU will be Gone.. WHO can Love YOU.. even though I want to love YOU as much as I can.. bur YOU are the Princess.. YOU are CONG JU MAH MAH NIM.. YOU are the Princess and I am Nothing.. and as I am standing beside you.. two lines of tears starts to fall.. it is hard to Love YOU.. even though I just want to love YOU.. but How hard it is for me to stay beside YOU.. One day I am here.. who knows that tomorrow I will be gone.. that is why this uncertainty kills Me deep inside because I love YOU and something falls and Hit the ground and I look down.. there is a Knife.. and I know what this Means.. and I would kneel and My hand grabs hold to the Knife.. this is the reason why I know that It is so Hard to Love YOU.. but if this means that my Love comes to the End.. let me end it right here for YOU.. as I drew the Knife close to My chest.. my eyes open.. and I am staring at the wall.. and I am looking at the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I can hear the chains on my ankles and it was nothing but just a Dream.. but why does it feels so real.. like something is going to Happen soon.. and I would sit UP.. my hand touches the Sketch paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and Now I can start to feel the missing of YOU.. MAH MAH.. how are you doing.. CONG JU NIM.. I hope that every thing is fine with YOU on the Other side.. as YOU can see.. I am still alive.. I have opened my eyes to a new day.. and I can breathe.. as long as I can see YOU.. It means everything to Me.. MAH MAH.. I hope that YOU are doing good.. Just don't worry about Me because I am doing well.. only if you were here.. if you were close.. if my hands can touch YOU if it means for the last time.. and my hand would touch around the Sketch Paper.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. just missing YOU and wondering.. I just want to see you so that YOU can tell me that YOU are doing good and I don't have to worry about anything else.. I know that the days are coming soon.. days are coming but I want to see you before I go.. before I am gone.. I want to see YOU for once.. can I hold YOU close.. can I tell YOU how much I love YOU.. will you let me speak to your ears.. will you allow me to speak and share How much I love YOU because I really do love YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. if you need to see me.. YOU know that I am close by.. this Prison is close where you at.. so Please.. come visit me.. because One day YOU come to this Prison.. I may not be here any more.. before it is just too late.. come and show me Your Face.. I needs to see YOU close because I am missing YOU.. I want to say and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. How can it be a dream.. I saw YOU in a White dress.. How can this be a dream because I don't believe it.. it felt like I was really there with YOU.. I saw YOU by the ocean.. we were standing together.. How about the Horse.. I brought the Horse Out of the barn house.. pulling the string.. and it felt like I was really getting close.. I saw YOU leaving the Chamber ROOM and saw YOU sitting on the Top of the Horse in that White Dress.. and I was pulling the string and walking next.. YOU were smiling and sharing.. I have never heard you speak so much.. YOU were the One who was mentioning about my Father.. how you remembered who He was and when YOU saw me pulling.. felt Like I was like my Father and smiled.. I was so happy because when YOU smile.. I can see SUN SHINE everywhere and felt so GOOD of walking.. just to know that YOU were close.. that YOU were there with Me.. How is it that this be a Dream.. I saw the Ocean.. from the Far and you told me to get close to the Waters.. and yes.. I had to pull the strings of the Horse and at first.. the Horse did Not want to follow my Direction until YOU spoke to the Horse and it listened to your Voice.. I saw YOU getting down from the Horse and we both stood.. My Heart.. I never felt the Beating of my Heart goes so Fast.. it feels like whenever I would run very fast and I would slow down.. the Up beat.. the fast beating of my Heart.. it would not stop beating.. I did not even run.. but when YOU got so close to me and stood next to Me.. I just wanted to cry.. I wanted to cry out loud because of the Fast Beating of this Heart.. because I wanted to turn to you and tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I wanted to say How much I love YOU.. and hold your Hands and tell YOU.. DO you know that My Heart is beating so fast because YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. YOU are so close to me that I never felt a Heart who can beat this fast.. YOUR Presence.. How near and close you were standing.. as I would LOOK at the Sun.. and we both watched the SUN going down.. I can hear waves of waters coming in and leaving.. I saw the birds flying.. I just wanted to tell YOU how much I wanted to be with YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. but something was holding me Back.. even though I tell you these things.. I be asking myself this.. WILL you love me too.. But I know that it be unfair for YOU because YOU are MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. I know that I should Not.. that I could Not.. I should back Off.. but I just can't right Now.. something is holding me back but at the same time I don't want to hold back anymore.. I have hidden myself for a long time.. I would be the One to watch you from the distance.. could Not say a word to YOU.. felt so Shy because I knew I was a SON of a SLAVE.. Born as a lowly Man.. How can I tell YOU when YOU are at the TOP.. and I am at the Bottom.. but I wanted to tell YOU.. even though I should Not.. for a long time I would hold back that only tears will tell YOU NO LIE.. I had to cry from my Heart because ALL I can do is hold back.. if you are asking then why am I not Holding back any more.. I do want to hold back and say Nothing.. I think when YOU be holding back but YOU love.. it is hard to hold back when YOU truly love and it is YOU MAH MAH.. It is YOU CONG JU NIM who I really Love.. maybe because it has be growing for a long time and Now.. I am able to tell YOU something that is within my Heart.. But I would be standing next to YOU.. watching the Sun Going Down.. I saw the Night rise UP.. the stars I saw up in the sky and the MOON as well.. How can it be just another dream.. It felt like YOU and I saw it together and I just did not want to leave but wanted to be there with YOU.. I don't want to go.. I want to go with YOU.. go to the Place where YOU are most happiest.. I saw YOU smiling CONG JU NIM.. I saw YOU laughing as YOU were riding on the Horse.. YOU would share stories about my Father which I did Not know of.. things He did as you were with Me.. and It made me thing.. this is what my father did because I never knew about it.. My Father would share but of course.. there were things YOU were telling me about I had no idea.. How he fell when He was walking while holding the strings of the Horse.. But.. I am Now here sitting in the Prison.. only looking at the Wall.. I am looking at the Sketch Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. I saw you at the Oceans.. How is it that I am still here in the Prison.. I want to be with YOU.. I want to go where YOU are going.. I want to love what YOU love.. but I can't if I am here in the Prison.. How can I be where YOU are if I am here.. SO.. am I suppose to sleep just to see you again.. because I know that I won't be leaving here soon.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. Please come and tell me How you are doing.. I am wondering about YOU.. tell me that YOU are doing alright.. Let me know.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. you know where YOU can find Me.. I am not that far from YOU but so Close.. YOU know How much I love YOU and How much I have waited for this day.. as I am sitting here and Looking at the wall.. My hand touches the Sketch Art Paper.. the Picture of YOU.. and I would get closer to the wall.. and I hear something.. I hear foot steps and stops by the Door.. the door Opens and I would turn my head to look.. I would see the Prison Guard looking at me.. and I am able to get Out of the Prison.. my ankles are chained UP and my wrists are chained UP and I am walking behind the Prison Guard who leads me to the Outer Court.. and I see the King.. and I see YOU.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. and I would fall to the floor.. and I would be the Only one out.. with few Guards surrounding me.. and I can see that the King.. He wanted to have answers.. and I would LOOK UP.. PEH HA.. I have already told the messenger everything that I know.. and if there is a Lie what I have spoken.. Yes.. YOU can execute Me.. and I turn my Head to look at the Princess.. MAH MAH.. CONG JU NIM.. DO you not remember the day you came.. YOU came to visit me at the Prison.. I was there writing.. and I told you the truth about the History.. I told YOU MAH MAH.. Please tell the King PEH HA what I have said.. YOU are the Only one who heard with the Prison Guard and the Messenger.. I know that the ears heard what I have to say.. yes.. if YOU want to know.. and PEH HA.. if you are still wondering.. I do not want to leave.. until I can Love CONG JU NIM.. if I have to Die here.. or in the Prison.. Please kill me.. I would rather DIE than to go on an exile.. I don't want to leave but be Close to Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. I am ready to DIE.. so if you want to execute me.. I am willing to take the FALL.. I am willing to die tonight but Please.. let me love MAH MAH.. I want to love CONG JU NIM.. I can't live with out YOU and

My room.. How is it that YOU left Your Heart behind.. why would you do that because what if the wrong Person comes trying to steal Your Big Heart.. YOU should not just put Your Big Heart in any one's room.. but I guess YOU know that I am not a stranger any more.. Do you even trust me to Put your Big Heart here.. I know that I been asking for Your Big Heart for a long time.. and My Heart has never changed.. because even right NOW.. I still want Your Heart.. I want to have Your Heart.. and I want to love Your Heart.. so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. and I would slide and I hit something.. which is stopping me to go and I know that there is a Glass.. there is a Glass Wall in my room.. and Now I know that I can't get to Your Heart.. why would you put a Glass and it has a wall.. which I know that I can't go across.. why did you put the Wall and put the glass there.. then WHY would you show me the Big Heart if you know that I can't get to that Heart.. what are you trying to do.. are you telling me that I should Not get close.. are you telling me that YOU have put a wall against US.. so I am only to look at the Heart.. and then What.. if I am Not allowed to go across but YOU have to remember that this is IN my own Room.. I would understand if I cam over to your House and went to Your room and has placed a Wall against so that I can't enter.. I would give the room and space because it is your privacy.. But think about it.. I am here at my room.. this is My room here.. and I am sitting down in the room.. and only looking at your Picture.. Now I see a Big Heart.. But the Big Heart is Not in your room.. but in my room.. how can this Be.. why would you do that since it is IN my room.. Now.. I am wondering.. how did Your Big Heart come across.. How did your Big Heart come into this room.. are you laughing at me.. are you teasing me that I can only watch.. My eyes can sit here and just look at Your Big Heart.. but what if I want More.. what if I want to go over and touch Your Heart.. if I want to Hold Your Big Heart.. I want to tell Your Heart something I wanted to say for a Long time.. YOU know that I want More.. I just do Not want to have and hold your Big Heart.. what I truly want is YOU for myself.. that is why I am asking you for that Big Heart.. Please tell Your Big Heart to come across.. command Your Heart that there is a Person waiting for YOU.. waiting for the Heart.. Your Big Heart because I want to Love YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart How much I truly Love YOU.. since YOU have placed the wall and there is the glass in my room.. when did YOU come to my room.. and why would you leave Your Big Heart behind.. and for me to see.. why do you want to show me Your Heart.. your Big Heart if I am Not allow to touch.. if I am not allow to hold and not allow to tell and speak.. I want to say something to Your Big Heart.. I want to tell Your Heart how I feel.. to tell you Heart to Heart.. but with this Wall.. the Glass Wall is Not helping me at all.. but I want you to know that I need your Heart.. to love YOU.. if I want to love YOU.. I need to say.. Tell your Heart how much I love YOU.. Please tell me that I am allow to speak to Your Heart.. I can't even go across.. this wall.. I am stuck here.. DO you see that I can't go any further now.. but I needs to go.. pass and go across.. so that I can get close to Your Heart.. I want to know if YOU can tell Your Heart.. your Big Heart.. I love YOU.. I want to Hold your Heart.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I want to tell YOU.. but How can I if you look at my shoes.. looking at the wall seems so miserable at this Point.. my head goes down looking at the floor.. I feel so sad because I know that I do Love you.. holding your Picture.. I would lift up the picture and I would look at YOU through the Picture and I would say.. I know I don't have much.. I know that I can't love YOU either and I should Not because I truly have Nothing to give back.. but all I know is that I have me Your Picture.. I know that I love YOU.. I know you be asking for so much more.. and that is why I will show YOU.. there are many empty bottles in my room.. you will say what are you going to do with all these empty bottles.. it is just a trash too you.. I know you will look at it as It is nothing to YOU.. because it has NO value on your Part.. but for me I am giving it my All.. Heart to Heart I would open the Bottle.. Letters are written.. I am writing to YOU.. I know that it will have NO value because I can't sell it.. But I don't want to sell anything.. it comes from My Heart.. what more can I do if it is all from MY HEART I am giving.. from my Heart.. I write letters.. and Open the Bottles to place each Letters inside.. I am a writer YOU Know and I put My Heart and Soul.. and I share Love to YOU.. I want to give you the bottles.. it has messages in the bottles but if it means Nothing to YOU.. I feel like I am standing in the ROOM.. LOOKING at the wall.. feeling like I can't do much or give Much when It means everything to Me because LOVE is only thing I can give and share to YOU.. because I truly Love YOU.. I need YOU.. I need you forever so that I can love you forever.. because I love YOU..I would walk to the Mirror.. and I would face the mirror and I would look at myself.. and I would say.. why do I have to look at myself.. why can't I see you here.. if I can only picture Your face and Not see my own face.. I know that I am able to tell YOU something that is from my heart.. but when I am standing here looking at this mirror and I see my own face.. I just can't say anything.. and as I turn.. I hear a knocking on the door.. DOK DOK DOK.. I am standing there frozen.. My Heart.. I put my Hand on my Chest.. I can hear My Heart beating fast.. I hear another Knock.. DOK DOK DOK.. I am standing here.. I can't breathe because I know that it is YOU who is here.. I know that It has to be YOU.. I haven't been able to speak to the wall well.. I been trying to talk to the wall for a long time.. but whenever I try too.. I would struggle with words to say.. I don't want to get the door because what if my words.. I hear.. knocking.. DOK DOK DOK... I walk.. and I open the door.. and when the door Opens.. I see you there.. as I am looking at YOU.. MY Heart can't stop crying.. My Heart cries because YOU are so Amazingly SO Beautiful.. takes My Breathe away in a Heart beat.. I have been waiting for YOU for a Long time.. it has been so Long and Finally I see you here.. holding the Glass Jar.. But.. I can't find YOU.. so I am asking.. Where are YOU.. I am walking and standing Out side.. I am looking UP at the Sky.. Knowing that it is going to rain.. I see the Moon.. and I am holding the empty Glass Jar.. and I lift UP both arms showing the Moon the Glass Jar.. I know there is Nothing for YOU to see.. But I am asking for a Heart.. Do you see what I am holding UP.. I need a Heart.. is there a Way YOU can get me the Heart.. I would be standing.. I want to hear the Answer.. but I know I will be getting No response.. but I truly want to Know.. I need the Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I know that standing Out side.. YOU are miles and miles away from Me.. and No Matter How many times I would be asking for YOUR Heart.. you can't hear me.. I have a Letter.. I have written you a Letter.. in the back of my Pocket.. I have written YOU something from MY Heart.. I saw Your Picture before I came out here to see the Moon.. I was touched and My Heart was touched because each TIME I see and I look into your Picture.. my Heart is touched and Moved by your Beauty.. What am I suppose to do when YOU are so Beautiful to Me.. I can't remove two of the My eyes.. I know that I can't tear your Picture into pieces either.. if I did.. I would be looking for a New Picture.. If I am unable to tell you standing Out here.. here out side.. I know that my Words.. my Voice is unable to reach YOU.. that is why I have written YOU a Letter.. I want to tell YOU.. even though YOU may not able to hear me Out here.. I don't care.. the neighbors can hear me But I don't want the neighbors to hear me.. I want YOU to hear me instead.. I am only focusing On YOU of letting Out How I truly feel inside.. Only if YOU can catch my Emotions and My Words I tell YOU.. I wish that I can tell YOU.. if YOU can put your ears and Let the MOON have your ears.. How nice would that be for More.. that no matter HOW many times I miss you.. and would come Out to see this MOON.. and knowing having Your ears.. and I can just look UP and I can see the ears.. Your Ears.. I would be writing more Letters and I be walking outside.. LOOKING UP to the sky.. asking the MOON to come closer.. if you can hear me far.. then It be alright to stay where It is.. but I want to know.. if you can give Your ears to the Moon.. I won't have to be crying any more.. wondering when I can share and tell you through the Letters.. I will say.. LOOK at the MOON.. with your ears.. and I would reach the back Pocket grabbing the Letter.. and I would open the Letter wide and I would turn towards looking at the MOON.. and I will say to the MOON.. if you can hear me.. please Come closer with your ears and if the MOON listens and turns and get close.. I would say.. this is the Letter to the One with Your ears.. Please give me your Ear.. and I would read the Letter to YOU.. telling YOU.. I have been waiting for this very day.. How come it has taken this long for YOU to put your ears on the MOON.. if you did it sooner.. I would of told YOU through these letters way before..