there is a rock in my house

it rocks harder than a rock

One thing! Just one thing! Please tell IT to me: WHY tf do I have so many fans even though no KRplusr is unprettier than I am? WORLDWIDE!!!! WHY??? Tell me, dear ba

even if its a metaphorical rock

i know from experience

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I just got the joke lol

"music with rocks in" 👍😁
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Check out Rocks Rock by Henry Oak

Specifically by Dungeons and Daddies

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I know. And I said aloud, "badly"

It wouldn’t scan in the meter… also I do think people use “bad” in that way informally. It’s fine.

If anyone ever finds out when "for now" ends please let me know

@@seven471 Well you’re not doing badly, you’re being bad, to yourself

@@DeathnoteBB it’s modifying “treat” which is a verb so you would want to use the adverb “badly”, but it’s informal so “bad” is fine too

oh god yes, this hurts, it resonates with me so much I can feel it. And the fears were right for me. My major depression has passed and now this normal-ish less intense depression doesn't define me, doesn't cradle me like it used to and I have been struggling with not knowing who I am or what I want. I'm totally lost without my rock. Ohhhhh... My rock... lol I get it now.

@@Erin-000 i understand how you feel. this is the last weapon that depression uses against anyone trying to leave, but let me tell you from experience that this feeling means you're already on the right path. i know it's a cliche phrase, but things do get better. it might feel that by clearing away the depression you've created an empty space in the place where your identity used to be, but actually you've just created the necessary space for yourself to grow and evolve as a person. it's scary at first, but it's worth it. keep moving forward, my friend! i wish you the best

I get this so much. It's like, I know that the way I feel isn't normal, and I also know that I'm slowly improving (which SHOULD be a good thing), but at the same time, it feels like the less depressed I feel, the less like me feel. I've also used suicidal ideation as a coping mechanism for years (never made an attempt, I've gotten close before, but never made that step), and I know it's not healthy to start wanting to die every time something in my life goes even a little bit badly, but by giving that up, I somehow feel like I'm no longer myself.
My self-identity is so tied up in depression and suicidal ideation that I often don't know where the depression ends, and where I start.
As I said, I'm slowly getting better, but it often feels like I'm fighting against this other part of me (that might not even be me, it could just be the depression) that just wants to go back to how I was before, and give up and die, because I'll never really be free of this.

@@electroman224 i understand. it's so difficult to get out, because the depression keeps saying that you can never escape it and that even if you manage to, you will no longer be yourself. these things aren't true. getting out isn't easy, but it's possible. and even though going back will feel tempting and easy for a long time, eventually even that feeling will fade away.
as for the identity part, who we are is always shifting and evolving. just because you are leaving something that feels like a part of you behind, doesn't mean that you'll have nothing left. it just means you're changing and growing, and that is scary but it's also good
sometimes toxic coping mechanisms are all we have, and they can help us out to an extent, but in the end they just make things worse for us. i have my own share of unhealthy coping mechanisms, so i know both how helpful they can be when you have nothing else, and how difficult it is to get rid of them.
im glad to hear that you're doing better. remember that this is a slow process, and not always straightforward, but there is an end to it if you keep moving forward. i wish you the best

Hope everyone is doing good.

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Finally it’s here.

The rock is eurydice.

And the fact that his shirt changes makes me think it didn’t end well

As a person with OCD this is a perfect summary

@@k80_ Now I'm imagining a modern portrayal of that myth with Eurydice played by Dwayne Johnson.

That's a pretty common third category, tbph

@scale Hell yeah dude I'm also glad Brian uploaded again

It’s pretty much always both

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i both want to listen to it again and am scared to do so

I hope everything goes your way, and wish you only the best!

best of luck !

Good luck mate. Stay strong.

You've got this :))

hope everything is going okay for you! you deserve to be happy!!

Prolly' thinking about rocks.

That's the thing about art. Art is never blunt, it's always vague to some degree (in a good way) and always open for interpretation.
Having said that, it amuses me that in schools (at least where Im from) they make you read certain books from an obligatory list and then literally kill them by providing the "one and true" interpretation of the texts. And if the book resonates with the student on a different plane than what the teacher (or rather the educational system) intended, it's considered incorrect.

@@Protegit my brain hurts
Can we go back to just thinking about rocks? c:

@@FriendlyNeighborhoodNarcissist Umm, sure XD

@@Protegit c:

If you check the shirt... I think he does have to look at the rock actually

@@Urammar OHH ITS A DRUG METAPHOR

or is he? *vsauce music*

he took so long bc he was busy looking at the rock

aye i like ur stream

Yeap, also am i the only person who thinks the rock is a stand in for phones, the internet and social media?

@@dyppityjoop5912 I thought it was a stand in for an abusive relationship

The idea that it might all be in his head is there, but what if the rock is really doing that to him? Both options are unsettling.

I think it is about abusive relationships, becoming dependent on something that isn’t good for you. I also think it’s a rock to make easy to see something in your life that troubles you as well. Relatable

I think it's about a rock

i thought it was about eds/toxic relationships/self harm

@@AlexLynch-tz9ep It is. It’s about all of those things.

@@AlexLynch-tz9epit is about everything

You can be proud of yourself for that 🤍

I'm proud of you. I think if Brian saw your comment, he'd be proud of you as well.

Fantastic job. I'm so proud of you

You tore yourself away from the rock. That takes a lot of resolve

That’s so awesome!!!!:D wow congrats man nice job 👍

Jesus christ this hit me hard

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Finally it’s here.

What are cement shoes but simply shoes made of lots of tiny little rocks?

the rock is actually the friends we made along the way

Yup!

Or possibly a metaphor for an abusive relationship

And here I was thinking it could be referring to smart phones

@@olive_riggzey "it tells me that if I stop looking at it I will stop existing"
I don't think that works with smartphones tbh
Social media maybe?

I thought it was about addiction to substances to be honest.

@@fakename287 That was kind of where I was going with it, but I really like the intrusive thought take, too. So many different ways to interpret things! For all we know it could just be about a very scary rock.

I never noticed that before.
Considering he starts wearing it after explaining how he feels he is insufficent to the rock's standards, the clip before showing an insecurity with his appearence facial appearence, the rock is making him wear the shirt.
He feels compelled to make clothing choices due tot he rock's influence

​@@jacobcarrasco6539 Right? Also I've noticed he shaves for the rock, hurting himself in the process and the band-aid is there showing hurt until he stops looking at the rock

If we think of the rock as a metaphor for the internet, then the colorful shirt could represent putting on a persona, which as any content creator can sympathize can be an exhausting thing to maintain.

Ingenious? More like igneous

that's art babey!

​@@sithdude2436💀

they're *MINERALS* KIMBERLY!

Yeah studying geology and I have a lot of very needy rocks

@@NoStereo you beat me to it with the Hank joke.

typical geologist, can only see rrrocks and minerahls

this comment hits different when your hate for geologists is purely theatrical

That was what I had thought

i think its about a rock with the devil living inside it

okay but what if your rock is just a rock

@@PandaXs1 might be true but dont take it for granite

The rock is a stand-in for anything or group you are attached to, especially ones that are emotionally manipulative

But the rocks in EEAAO do have a dialogue...

​@@brendonhavenerand more importantly, googly eyes

"whatever the bird watching one was" is the only way to describe it

the bird watchers were clearly an elder god's cult. same with the boyband

And Pumpkin Cowboy, cant forget him

We Like Watching Birds was just a 100% accurate description of twitch birders. (Nothing to do with the website)

The birdwatching one was about birds. AND NOTHING ELSE.

Life is just a constant sequence of moving from looking at one rock to another.

Like Sisyphus, we are bound to our own rocky torment

or it could be a metaphor for internet addiction

Definitely all of those things - the dark wizard is powerful and has minions.

@@sophiarhoads1196 Internet/Twitter was my first thought, too. I mean it's broadly applicable to any toxic relationship with anything or anyone of course. But this song specifically, but this person specifically, with these words specifically... I think it's the internet, being a content creator, us.

It is the phylactery for a real cruel son of a lich.

And most importantly, where is Dwayne Johnson?

ronck

Interesting, I took it as a metaphor for phone-use/social media. Phones are really just a bunch of rocks, after all.

@@Eclyptical That's actually a much more obvious reading I hadn't even considered, nice!

The rock is cool, but it started taking up more of my life than I intended. It fills my brain with bad thoughts, but I’m afraid to look away.
He also started out reading a book, and by the end all he can do is stare at the rock

YO IT IS A PERFECT OCD ANTHEM HOLY SHIT I ALSO HAVE OCD

Holy FUCK you're so right

Yeah...BDG you a person too...who deserves time to himself

Rachel Bloom, who has OCD, wrote this song complete with dance: krplus.net/bidio/hctpa3p0e4DdlKQ

It’s some really good and very subtle acting, actually - I knew he was great at over-the-top comical bombast, but those expressions at the end of this video go through a lot of really subtle but effective looks.

He conquered his rock. He conquered his worries.

it's so extraordinarily _genuine_ that it almost makes me think this isn't a metaphor and he legitimately has a magically addictive rock.

Wow you're right that's top notch

Especially with the winds in the background.

for some reason, the audio did not play on my device and i was so certain everyone saying the music was good were just joking. there is an uncomfortable horror in watching this video completely silent.

I came to the comments to see if other people appreciated that part as much as me.
I didn't have to look for long.

Right? I had to rewind and listen to that part again because it’s so pretty.

How do you know it was a flag? Did you _look at it?_

I create entertaining vids as well

This is josh's first comment on a bdg video i can smell the nft potential

Damn look who it is, "funny haha British man" himself

second monitor comment

I thought the same thing, it captures the absurdity of needing to follow compulsions while still portraying the anxiety of not doing those things

as someone who does not have OCD, my first thoughts were "well this is not a song about being mentally stable that's for sure"

@@epikitee2186 Let's be fair, that can be said about most of his content.

This was my first thought as well and I don't even have OCD

I think the song is more so about his relationship with the internet and creating content. it seems a lot of creators are getting burnt out but don't want to quit because it's the only job they know now, and social media does often feel like if you stop paying attention then you stop existing. also, there was that meme a while ago talking about how we found a way to make a rock in your pocket hold the worlds store of knowledge on it. it also works for OCD, though.

@Schlugel oh no

Yeah, I'm grateful for all his work. Given how much he's done for us, he deserves peace.

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Finally it’s here.

I mean he's mostly looking at the rock while shaving and all scenes prior but maybe that was the 'point of no return'

we loved the detail with the music being muffled, it's so funny

What's diegetic mean?

@@deella.3339 Diagetic means that the song actually comes from somewhere in the scene.

Also when he looks away his bandaid is gone.

Thanks PuttPutt

Very very well said. An important thought to keep in mind, for sure.

Agreed. I have it too, my friend 🥲
Being seen is weird, isn’t it? I wonder if BDG has OCD. I’m not sure if the song is even about OCD explicitly, but to me, it feels like it is.

@@silversalmon1541 doesn't it? Like, I feel this so strong. There are so many things in my life that feel exactly like this. This one was wild for me. Lol.

I was seconds away from commenting this is exactly what my OCD feels like

100%

People with addiction can relate to some of this, too. I just recently read some fascinating literature about how both conditions partially work with rushes of dopamine, a signal of wanting to do, that can grow stronger and stronger while the answering opiate response of satisfaction is dwindling or completely absent.

real

@actualwomenlover finally someone who got it

And its important to add, that toxic relationships can be formed with ourselves. Everyone has, for lack of a better term, brain-rocks that we know are untrue or unhealthy thoughts, but we've become reliant on them for whatever reason. Step 1 is recognizing the rock, step 2 is seeing what it's like without the rock, and then step 3 is the long rocky back and forth of healing. It's why I don't see the end as a negative. It's ok to return to comfort zones when dealing with new things. But acknowledging what ones rocks are is the most important step. What's great about the metaphor being so well streamlined is that the details are irrelevant. For me this reminds me of my journey as a trans woman, but that's because I'm the one looking at it. The rock can be anything: relationships, addiction, anxiety, ocd, intrusive thoughts, identity, sexuality, whatever. And as an added bonus, it's catchy as hell 💜

I had the same interpretation

the rock is twitter

...what's magical thinking?

@@walkerx1813 It's the term used for the OCD symptom where the suffer believes irrational solutions will solve unrealistic problems - for example, in my case 'if i don't hug this person a certain amount of times before i leave, a bus will crash into their house'. The suffer often knows this kind of thinking is ridiculous, but can't stop themselves following the compulsion to 'resolve' it

@@Nemrex Wouldn't be surprised lol! This is what it makes me think of though, personally :)

I hot the dame thing out of this

The same sediment? Eh?

@@ejmcmurtrie lol

Absolutely my first thought as well

Me too!! It's actually such a great metaphor for it.

I was literally just thinking that, and scrolled down into the comments to see if anyone else mentioned it!

Yes!!! The rock is obviously a metaphor but the shirt is a visual metaphor too and I didn’t see it until the very end. Such a minor detail but very powerful and totally brilliant of Brian.

The colorful shirt symbolizes the need to "put on a show" for social media/society (or an equivalent). Society can influence you to be creative and colorful, but it can be overbearing. Wearing the grey shirt while out of view or influence of the rock symbolizes comfort and tranquility. Life might be unvaried, but life is simple.

the colors in the colorful shirt look puke the background of his profile pic and hasn’t he talked in an unraveled about people telling him what to do with his facial hair before ?

I mean it seems like he's taking a break from twitter recently if there's any connection

Glad I'm not the only one that immediately thought of my phone!

Definitely where my mind went. I was surprised to see takes on abusive relationships - I guess it struck a chord for different people in different ways.

i don’t know why more people dont get that, like hes laying down outside looking at it like you would in bed

@@musicbykurt it gave me OCD vibes off the bat but it's pretty amazing how many ways this can be interpreted

I think that is because it isn't necessarily describing any one condition or action, but instead a state of mentality that all these conditions relate to. Personally I identified with this song in relation to my anxiety that I've been experiencing lately. My world is changing, but I'm unprepared and unconditioned. Nothing is as easy as it was before, yet I keep acting like it will be. I have been stuck doing the same things I've always been doing even when those things don't make me happy anymore. Even when life is so different that those things can no longer provide for my basic needs. I feel the need to change my behavior, but it feels overwhelming and scary at the same time. Just like looking at the rock does for Brian.
We as a race all fall into this bad habit way too easily. The habit of staying in the familiar, even though the familiar is bad for us. Whether it's conditioning as in abuse, different brain make-ups like OCD, the pressure of maintaining that which we think gives us value that so many content creators suffer, or the unwillingness to make drastic life changes that cause my anxiety, all of these conditions stem from the same root. Fear of the unknown.
At least, that's what I think. Also, in case you were wondering, I am making moves to better my life despite my self-conditioned reluctance.

I’m not an English teacher so my interpretation is that this man REALLY needs to look at that rock.

I think this song is just a great metaphor for just unhealthy attachment, it's so interesting how other people interpret it For me, this song instantly made me think about alcoholism and other substance abuse. Alcoholism runs in my family so not only seeing this in other people but trying to both prevent myself from falling into it while also trying to just enjoy it and life hits in a werid way.

I very clearly connected it to my body dysmorphia

@@BeeGuns In the words of Brian David Gilbert, "this song is not a metaphor."

appy juice and naps, the best recovery. god bless you.

I'm gonna say rock = phone and by extension social media and mob mentality

also the line ”so I guess I will be treating myself bad for now” because you know the person is bad for you, but also in some situations are reliant on you and you’ve decided to put their well being above your own

Yes, the facial expressions at the end were incredible acting.

If you check the description, I’m pretty sure it is.

No, I’m pretty sure this is quite literal.
Everyone in the comments is like “wow so many layers” and obviously it’s great that people relate to it in different ways, but it’s clear enough that this is just straightforwardly about serious OCD.
It’s so crushing because it’s *not* a metaphor. His “thing(s)” might not actually be looking a rock, but even then the point is that what the thing actually is is totally arbitrary.

@@PseudoPseudoDionysius I have OCD, and I agree with you 100%. It’s the first thing I thought of when I saw the video.
I wonder if BDG has it? Even if not, this video makes me feel validated in my illness and I love that.

I don't doubt that this video is about something in Brian's life (personally, I think it's very likely talking about his KRplus career), but that is still a metaphor. The song being literal would mean there is an actual rock/eldritch horror (eldritch horrock?) forcing Brian to look at it.

To be fair, nowhere in the song does he say "this song is not a metaphor," so it could go either way.

And watch Brian's shirt. It changes when he's not looking at the rock!

That's partly the case. He had still lost the beard he'd been growing, and which the rock had told him to shave. But also, his shirt changed from the colorful one he wore once he'd shaved to the grey one he wore before he looked at the rock. Also, his hair before he looked away was messier than when he looked away.
And then he looks back.

Once you've clawed your way out of the hole, don't look back guys. It's the first step to falling back in.

It seems like part of the filming process as well

100%

I think, when I share this, I won't mention what Brian said the 'rock' is to him simply because the bias we emotionally offer the authorial intent can get in the way of valuable personal interpretations. Hey, sometimes you even see something about the author; one of the most famous horror stories about an alcoholic family man was written by someone who would not have called himself that at the time, but now often does. Not saying that's happening here, just that it happens.
But anyway, Brain Divide Gilded says this song is about the metal, gold, silicon and glass brick that his job and hell live in.

For me the act of looking at the rock reminded me of some of my OCD compulsions, the lingering fear that if you don't engage in your compulsion something bad will happen is very real.

Makes me wonder if this could be about his time making Unraveled

This is such a good interpretation of the shirt color change oh my god

I noticed the drop, but I never thought it could be intentional. Sounds like something BDG would do. Nice catch

“They’re minerals, Marie!” OK, Hank…

'good' 'healthy'

@@h.c.49 rocks are natural so it's natural :^)

I beat the bot to this one

thank you bald neil cicierega

Yes exactly!!! Omfg

Beat the bot by a whole hour

The man is _an artiste_

@@chizy3904 Thank you scambot, very cool
Edit: The scambot is gone :D

Say "pull up [this video] on KRplus and watch it. Right now. I wanna talk about it "

Email it to her

For real, there’s so many comments like “wow so many meanings” and like, great that people get something else out of it, but the most crushing part of the song is that it’s just a totally straightforward description of OCD symptoms. It’s just not a metaphor or a layered thing at all.

100%, the compulsions and how you want to stop but your brain tells you that you will not survive if you ignore them. And you can avoid them for a while sometimes, but still end up giving in unless you have enough outside support.
I had a wrist surgery and the stitches were driving me mad from the sensation of them but also because my OCD absolutely laser focused on them and I was barely able to sleep for over a week until I had a breakdown and ended up removing them a few days before the 2 week mark that they were originally supposed to come out (but I wouldn't have been able to get done until week 3.) And I had been asking for help, I'd asked to get them checked at the ER and stuff but my family blew me off because it seemed fine to them, and when I was having the breakdown I tried to call my partner but they didn't pick up and I couldn't hold off anymore.
Terrible decision to make and could have ended up with a nasty infection, but in the end I was ok and holy guacamole the relief when they were finally out and my brain was quiet for the first time in two weeks. I think if I'd be able to get an appointment to remove them at the time they were supposed to be, I would have been able to hold out just a few days longer. But my body was not responding well to them and my brain wasn't helping me ignore the worrying sensations and symptoms I was experiencing.
In the end the only negative impact was that my scar is slightly wider than it might have been otherwise (though that could've been from my ocd fueled dermatillomania) but I am incredibly lucky it turned out that way

I definitely need to make sure I have a good support system before the next surgery I get. And probably have a nurse come a couple of times during recovery to help with care and soothe my worries

I think I know what you're going through. I used to be similarly isolated and didn't enjoy interactions, and I didn't really understand what my "specialty" was or what I brought to the table when interacting with people. But through a lot of trial and error, I slowly learned what kinds of interactions and people I truly enjoyed, and I figured out what my personality really was and what I was good at. (For example, it turns out I really enjoy 1-on-1 deep conversations over video chat, and there are specific friends I have that are on the same "wavelength" in that sense, so I end up talking to them a lot.) I'll admit that I had to try a bunch of things and interact with a lot of people to get to this point, and most of the things and people I tried didn't resonate with me, even after multiple attempts. But it was ultimately worth it because I'm in a much better place now. I know exactly who I enjoy spending time with and what I enjoy doing with them, and I now have the confidence and skills to do those activities well. Stay strong and keep trying. But do it all at your own pace. :)

fucking hell why'd you have to remind me, i was having such a good time not relating to this video

I relate to this very much as someone who's Autistic and also has complex PTSD. If you're very different from the norm in terms of socialising, do consider if there might be some neurodivergence and/or mental illness behind it. My suggestions for being more sociable are:
a) focus on quality of interactions not quantity - the goal might be to find a small group of people you genuinely enjoy talking to / hanging out with, and maybe still needing a lot more alone-time than most people - rather than setting the goal of a 'normal' amount of socialising.
b) once you find some people like that (or if you already have a few) tell them what you're going through and that you want to work on it, so you have their support, both to help you connect more, and also to understand why you aren't always able to connect.
c) make a plan, but take it slow! Having a structure to help motivate you to build in more social time can be really helpful - like "for the next 2 months I'm going to make an effort to send a text to each friend/close family once a week, even if it's just to ask 'how's it going?" and the next step might be "I'm going to try to have a short skype with my closest friend every Sunday afternoon, even if I don't feel like it. They know I'm struggling and will understand." If you aren't able to meet certain 'goals' on time don't beat yourself up, just adjust your plan. Remember the whole point is to find a way to make social time an enjoyable part of your life, not punish yourself. There's a concept in the treatment for c-PTSD called 'The Window of Tolerance' which is about finding the edges of where you're comfortable (which might currently be very narrow) and then incrementally pushing those edges a bit further out and getting used to feeling comfortable in that slightly bigger space.
Hope some of that helps! Good luck x

isolation getting into every aspect of my life is something I definetly relate with. So I'd like to remind you the same thing I remind myself every once in a while: You are not your lonlieness. There is so much of you outside of it. It's possible for you to live without isolation. The road to get there is really hard, so when in doubt remember! There is a you that is happy at the end of the road! Stay strong!

hey thanks for all the advice, I actually really appreciate it :)

my eye also caught that instantaneously lmao

Looking forward to more from Green Bastion.

Had to rewind the first bit because I spent that time being catapulted back to middle school

Came here looking for this. Eulalia!

@@CaptainOblivious23 Salamandastron!

I was thinking something similar, but specifically related to like different forms of media like social media.

Usally atleat in my case hyperfixations give me joy

I create entertaining vids as well g

it took a while for me to really separate from my rock but it'll happen eventually :D

I was gonna say, this seems painfully related to my OCD too.
hahahahahahakillmeidontwanttobethathahahahahahah

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Finally it’s here.