i wanted to die. so this is what i did about it..

You in a small apartment by yourself is honestly so refreshing.

I feel like she needs to watch this again.

“saw this girl that jake was dating at the same time as me” ... can we send him somewhere yet

Tana doing her grocery haul: "I dropped a bag on a workers head, he laughed and said it was okay but Im gonna re-live it in my head for the next 6 months"
LITERALLY MEEEE

Dear editor: please don’t add the alarm sound in the video it’s literally the most worst sound EVER I had to switch my alarm sound

“While I was grabbing these I dropped a bag on a workers head. He laughed and said it was okay, but I’m gonna relive it in my head for the next 6 months.” God I felt this.

Like you can literally see how much happier and mentally healthy you are but you’re still YOU and I’m in love with it I can’t this is what I’ve missed.

i literally started to tear up when you went on the hike, it just seemed like at the lowest of your lows, you got up an started appreciating the little things again and i've been at that point and it's just so fucking beautiful.

The second I saw that Tana got up and started her day and was out of the house by 10:45 AM I was shook like wow she really is trying to change

this video should be titled: tana finally turns 21

I think Tana’s realized she’s an adult. We all go through this in our early 20’s for the most part. The stage between going from a teen to an adult. By 25 years old I feel like that’s when a person really understands what being an adult means. Maybe this doesn’t make sense. This is just what I feel like is happening with her.

Is it just me or does Tana look how younger Tana did? Like she’s really back

The fact that she realized she needed to isolate to build herself back up again to physically and mentally be in a good place and be genuinely happy is the SRONGEST THING EVER IM SO PROUD !

I really like seeing Tana take care of herself.

Mod seems like he’s having such a good influence on Tana. Like he’s encouraging her to take care of herself and express herself in a healthy way. She’s not making herself to fit in she’s painting her life for her own happiness and that’s wonderful. She’s spending time with people who are making her reflect herself and who she is at her core again. Really refreshing content Tana! Mod doesn’t seem to care about her “platform and influence” he seems to care about her well being and happiness- same with Jordan Ashley and Imari. She needed a wake up call and I think something has clicked for her that this is what her audience wants. Her being herself and feeling happy and healthy in whatever that is for her. She’s in the process of healing and self discovery and I AM HERE FOR IT! 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

“I dropped a bag on a workers head and he laughed and said it was ok but im going to relive it in my head for the next six months” ok me

This is what actual healing looks like. Is not perfect yet that’s what makes it so real and relatable. This was wholesome

why is no one talking about the fact that Tana was naked when the maintenance guy came in HAHAHAH

Tana: “I wanna just isolate myself and be alone” corona virus: “great, we can do that for you”

this was a movie. this is living now and moving forward. this is real. ily.

catch me crying when tana started tearing up talking about ashley

“Rock bottom became the foundation on which I built my life” -a quote by jk rowling that has always gotten me through those rock bottoms

Rewatching in June 2021 and I miss who she was when she was with Mod son and before OF. This is my favorite time in her life.

I've been watching your videos since before you blew up. There were a lot of times when I was concerned about your life style choices but I just wanted to say that I think you've grown so much and I'm really happy that you're putting your happiness first and taking control of your life.

14:44 “I dropped it on a worker’s head. He laughed and said it was ok, but I’m going to relive it in my head for the next 6 months” TANA IM DEAD

these Tana in a single bed apartment vlogs are EVERYTHING.

She is the only “KRplusr” that will sit down & address everything her fans think of her, & she does so by being genuine & honest without making too many excuses for her actions. I respect that.

I feel like Tana should get her own place. It might help her a lot. Having separation from work and home life is really important for mental health

"theres no toaster in this appartment which is a bit of a set back for someone whos simply trying to make toast" ahahahahah

Tana crying talking about Ashly hit me hard.

There just comes a time in your life where you grow out of wanting to be around people (even your best friends) 100% of the time. I’m 30 and just now realizing this. I love hanging out with my fiends, I love going out , and I still love sleepovers but there is something to be said for coming home to your own space. Even just knowing that you can come home to peace and quiet let’s you enjoy the times when you are with people even more. I’m happy you’re discovering it ❤️

This video is the most motivational thing ever.

Shane uploading and then Tana honestly is making isolation so much more tolerable

been there more times than i’d like to admit. but it gets better mama. it always does

It made me tear up when she said “I hope this video does anything for you, even if it’s just distracting you from the darkness for 5 minutes” I felt that in my soul 😭 I love you Tana!! 💜💜

at the end i literally almost cried because im so happy for you. This is my favorite content youve put out in a long time because its so unfiltered and i just want u to know we want the real you more than any show or appearance. so proud of u and love u much

i’m so happy right now after watching this i’m actually tearing up. tana this was needed. we love u and just it’s been a crazy 3 years and this felt the most you a video had felt in awhile. ily. continue to care for yourself. i’m so happy your happy.
edit: tana hearted and pinned. 🖤!

Ok so I been watching her but this is the most eloquent she’s ever sounded. Really loving this new Tana because you can see the life in her eyes and she deserves to be happy

People always forget how old she actually is and that she's still growing as a person.💛💛💛

This makes me so happy your entire face has change and the cheesy "you're glowing" is so true. You just look full of life and there are two very special people that are going through this right now and I just hope with everything in me that they can come to this conclusion. One of them is quite literally the love of my life and best friend, and I hope someday he will enjoy life and love himself again. If there is any advice at all you could give I would love you for it. I love you so much Tana and I am so happy for you

“He said it was okay but I’m gonna replay it in my head for the next six months” LMFAOO I’m glad I’m not the only one that does that shit

This was one of the BEST videos Tana has put out.. just being HER! Not having a zillion people going full hype house. Just a gal making a egg avocado sandwich all by her self.. so wholesome ☺️

Tana this made me cry depression will always be a struggle for me so thank you for showing ways to pick yourself back up and keep trying I love you !

I’m still trying to find my way to get to the journey you’re on. When you were talking about your feelings when talking about Ashly, girl. I sobbed from that point to the end.

Seeing her REALLY smile and be happy and take care of herself made me tear up. Love u tana

tana: *talks about mental health so beautifully and truthfully*
also tana: coffee makes me *SHIT*

i’m tearing up watching this because it just makes me so genuinely happy seeing you work on yourself and be proud of yourself. i love you so much

The ending montage made me cry- it is so beautiful see someone love themselves and the people the care about again!!! Literally so beautiful

when she started talking about ashly and the friendship they have i started bawling.

The most courageous thing I ever did was to continue my life when I wanted to die ......

I'm just imagining being in Tana's shoes and just thinking about how amazing it must feel to be completely alone for the first time in forever. I feel like I am taking deep breaths with her haha!

i relate to tana so much that this made me cry like i’m literally living a slightly less fucked up version of her childhood so to know that it’ll get better one day makes me happy for rn🥺❤️

I love seeing her genuinely happy. Like the clip where she talked about Ashley, she hasn’t let us see her vulnerability like that in so long. For a while she seemed like a robot just going through the motions. It’s so refreshing to see her be human again and have genuine emotion. Welcome back, T.

correct me if i’m wrong but i haven’t seen another youtuber that has ever made multiple videos about their own mental health like this and be this real and raw about it. i fucking love tana so much.

Every time I have a mental break down and my life spirals I come back to this video and it reminds me you can fall down, but get back up and keep grinding and you'll be fine. This whole video is such a vibe and that song ❤️❤️❤️ it keeps me going honestly

The end made me so happy for her. I miss seeing her THAT happy and just being herself. We love you, Tana. Don't forget that. ♡

Tana, this video is why we followed you from the beginning. Not for a half scripted MTV reality show, not for a fake wedding etc. We followed you for YOU. Your honesty and rawness is what drove us to you. Thank you for not being afraid to be yourself and using your platform to help your fans by giving us the power of belonging and and honesty because you being real and showing your real life and feelings helps us to feel free to express ourselves too. Good luck, you are in my prayers. Here's to growing TOGETHER in 2020. ❤

Tana doesn't even need MTV honestly look how much better she did literally filming herself workout and grocery shop

Girl this makes me so happy. I haven't smiled, laughed and cried during your videos so much in so long 😍 keep up the great work. Makes me really want to work on my self and my depression I have fallen into

Tana the ending of this has me literally sobbing like I’m so happy that you were able to finally find peace, happiness, and yourself because those can be some of the hardest things to get back.

Wow literally going through the SAME BULLSHIT and to see that she’s bettering herself and actually having positive results makes me so inspired

Cried when she was talking about Ashly. Tana, this comes across as genuine and this is the best video you’ve ever made

honestly
I fell like we have the old tana back
and she as inspired me try and be happy as much
as possible and remind myself im loved and to like
hang out with my family and shit , wow

This whole video is everything. I love to see you doing so much better and really looking out for yourself. This is the kind of content I love to see you making, making yourself happy and just loving.

Tana being naked while the maintenance guy was fixing her shower is everything 😂😂

this video is honestly so refreshing, like idk why but just seeing her genuinely bettering her life just makes me so happy

When you cried about Ashley I cried too 😭 I know EXACTLY the feeling of that shit it hurts

I love that you have so many great people surrounding you and that you’re finding your peace. I feel like I’m on this journey with you.

“I dropped a pack on a workers head and he said it’s okay but I’m gonna think about it for the next 6 months” okay me

When you move into your own house without your friends you’re gonna see a different side of them trust me

Girl you done made me cry like 5 times in one video. Especially the ending. It’s so good to see you thriving and glowing in a whole new way. I’ve been binge watching old episodes in my own depression and I swear seeing you get the gold mask across your eyes finally when in the first video you was too scared just sent me I laughed and cried over such a small moment that most people probably didn’t even catch. Just so good to see you grow 💕💕

Watching this right now was exactly what I needed. The last part especially got me. I'm so close to coming out of the hole i went down and I need to stay on track, and it's hard, but my motivation and my happiness are finally coming back even if I'm not totally there yet. Thank you for making what would have been half an hour of distraction into motivation !

Why do I feel like I just watched a Shane Dawson documentary

That alarm transition gives me literal ptsd...and hemroids

I’m so happy your happy and was able to find yourself again. This has been one of my favorite videos of your to watch by far💕

Finally sat down and watched this, Tana I am so proud of you. Been here since the Vegas storytimes and this vlog made me so happy to see you taking time for YOURSELF. Keep Thriving GORGEOUS!

this is so inspiring for girls trying to better themselves - WE LOVE SELF HELP

Tana eating healthy, trying to wake up earlier and have a morning routine!? We love character development. Literally, 💯 keep it up

TANA I NEED MORE CONTENT OF YOU AND MOD SUN YOU TWO ARE LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST COMBO IVE EVER SEEN ON KRplus, but to get real this helped me alot so thankyou

this video made me cry I've loved you for a long time and I'm so happy to see you actively trying to live your best life this motivates me to actively seek out MY best life ily tana I love you so much

Imagine having such a real and pure friendship like Tana and Ashley

tana doesn't even get a full set anymore she just leaves the salon with 9 nails to stay on brand

god I love Mod so much. your energy together is just so happy, I'm so glad that both of you are getting better (with drug stuff but just in general).
Also, big mood to the "egg in a pouch" thing, a queen of the people

This made me so emotional 😭 especially the end of the video. Im just so happy for you 😭

tana-“it’s like 10 am i just woke up “ *me going back to make sure i heard that right *

THE ENDING WHEN SHE FINALLY TOOK THOSE EXTENSIONS OUUTTTT SIISSSSS YEAASSSSS!!!!!

Thank you for taking care of yourself. It honestly makes me feel like I can do that too :)

i want her too watch this again

Y'all should remember that any reason is a good enough reason to stay. Girl, I'm talking "I haven't finished that show I'm watching yet" or "Rihanna hasn't released a new album yet and I wanna hear it" type of mindset. literally, the smallest thing.

“He laughed and said it was okay, but im going to relieve it in my head for the next six months” im crying same girl 😂

This is my favorite video on KRplus I’ve been going through a lot lately and this is honestly so motivational, love you Tana🥰

I am so happy for you girl!! You deserve to be happy an content!! Also I love that you have your own place honestly it makes your videos better and it’s good for your mental health!

Mod & Tana’s relationship is so real. You can just tell they genuinely enjoy one another’s company.

wait a second ... is this the apartment complex where trevor got locked out of ?.. does anyone else remember the storytime of trevors birthday

this video made so happy, seeing you putting so much effort into being healthy and happy is everything. I hope you continue doing it and not just for one video. I miss this type of content form you

I've held off on this video for sooo long. I seriously needed to hear all of this. Thank you, mama. 💖

this proves that money and drugs does not buy you happiness, we love u Tana

If you're depressed, these tips may help you .
1) Stay healthy, stay away from bad habits, especially drinking alcohol which effects your dopamine levels in ways that aren't wanted.
Keep the chemicals in your brain healthy, your body is your temple. Look after it.
2. Don't over sleep, only 8 hours or so of sleep is needed. Wake up early and start your day fresh.
3. Work out, our bodies more than ever often stay inside due to everything we have access to, our TVs, phones, so it's important to get physical activity in. It's what our bodies have evolved to do, move.
4. Don't distract yourself from the pain, to heal something completely you must pull the thorn out, and that's when it hurts the most. Sit with the pain, if you run away and act like it doesn't exist, you will only surpress it and delay it for later. That's why when everyone is forced to stay inside and not go out clubbing, all of their issues arise.
5. Socialise, humans have evolved to be social beings , we've spent our evolution in tribes, socialising. Make sure to call your friends every now and then and share your thoughts, it's not healthy to keep everything tucked inside.
6. We NEED darkness. Everyone wants to be in the light but not everyone wants to go through the lessons in order to reach the light, to find true happiness, many times you need to become lost in order to find your true self. Your body knows what it's doing, let it feel what needs to be felt and try your best not to let your mind disturb the healing process with negative thoughts. Meditation , writing, working out can help your mind relax in a healthy way.
7: most importantly , be yourself. (As long as your true self isn't some maniac killer lmao), stop limiting yourself and your souls cry for happiness just because you care too much about being 'cool'. Show the world your random, rememberable, hopeful personality.
I'm an introvert but there's still a fine line between liking your own space, and restricting yourself from being outgoing n funny when you want to be. Be fearless, you are kings and queens, and the universe is yours. Live it, as you were born to do.
Good luck everyone, a brighter future awaits you all.

Bro the ending was just the icing on the cake. Made me fall in love with her all over again. Never stopped. But it feels like a new tana. The same in so many ways but growth

thank you so much for this tana, i know you probably wont read this, but you saved me... i am coming out of the darkest time where i felt so dead i did crazy shit just to feel alive, i was in a mental hospital for a week and have been in crazy therapy, i cried watching this video and am so glad im finally happy again too... just thank you