I'm Not Giving Up ...

That blue on you Tati🤌🏼

Don’t feel weird about your emotions following the loss of your sweet pup. You’re sadness means you also felt love and happiness. He was a big part of your life and it’s okay to honor that.

100% he’s taking advantage of you during this grieving season. TATI, MY GIRL, YOU GOT THIS. Do what you feels right. But something doesn’t seem right about him reaching out. You deserve fulllllll respect.

Tati!!! You will never get over Puka. I was the complete opposite when it came to getting another dog. After my poodle passed - and it was tragic for me, because she died unexpectedly in the middle of the night. It was 2am & I sat staright up in bed asking where she was because she wasn't under the covers with me. I found her on the floor at the end of my bed & it must've just happened because she was still warm. I cried all night & the next day. I ended up going out to look at puppies & came home with not one but TWO PUPPIES! While it did help me, after 8 years, I still cry when I think of her. It's been a year since we put our shepard down & we planted a tree in his honor and today, we have brand new leaves sprouting out of a stick tree & it warmed my heart so much I bawl my eyes out. But it's healing.

You never get over the loss of a dog if I’m being honest. You do grow bigger than your grief and live with it but you’ll always miss them. People that don’t grieve their dogs didn’t view them as family like many of us dog lovers😭

With Clark coming to yall privately to say "hey i wanna settle", my opinion, don't do it. He is trying to take advantage of your emotional state with Puka passing (rest sweet boy). I understand that there is alot still to happen but SEE. IT. THROUGH. He started this fight and came after you and your Husband. If he wants to settle, then he needs to do it the right way. Through your lawyers. If he can't respect that, I hate to say it but you have an option for harassment.

My cat Delia died in 2021 and I still cry because I miss her so much. I think some grief just stays with us forever, honestly. I will never get over it, but I have learned to live with it.

I just had to put my fur baby down on Feb 20 too, so I completely understand where you are in the grieving process. I don't think the pain will ever fully go away, but I've heard it will be less often and will be easier to get through when a wave appears eventually.
Much love Tati ❤

I don't think it's weird to have your pup's picture in the background at all. You have to do what's best for you and most comforting for you. My girl has been gone 7 years in June and I have a bunch of photos up and a little display with her ashes and a shadow box with her collar and paw print. I'm so sorry you're struggling. I wish I could say it gets easier but I would describe it more as you get more used to it. The hardest part was getting used to the silence - not hearing collar tags or nails on the floor or just little noises, and not being greeted when we get home. Sending love your way!

Clark Swanson should not be trusted. Be patient and wait for the date later this year. You will be victorious.

Re: exercise.... what keeps me motivated is that I'm actually feeling BETTER and am improving. I was in a horrific car accident 3+ years ago. Yes, it's been hard work getting to where I am now. . But I'm feeling more humanlike rather than a broken doll.
Exercise is a super stress reliever and a mood booster too.

Dear Tati, I got sad when you told you have lost a part of you... your innocence... I recognize that unfortunately and it's something that I cry about very often too. It comes with age, loss, and life experience. However, I know for sure that you will keep your inner light burning and will always bring light to others. It's radiating so strongly, as I feel your love and good intentions you carry with you through the screen every time, and it makes you so beautiful and inspiring ✨✨✨ Thank you for sharing your vulnerability like this. Sending you love from the Netherlands ❤❤

Healing from the loss of a dog is really hard. I found I only moved past the grief from my first dog when I got my second. My second wasn't a replacement, just a happy, loving distraction that helped ease the pain.

I cried every day for 3 months when my first dog died. It gets better! Consider giving a rescue a home. 😊

My best advice is to let yourself be angry! Bottling it up will only cause you to redirect it where it doesn’t belong. Acknowledge and respect your anger - just don’t let it bleed into the rest of your life. Love you!

Your eyes are the main focus in this video. Can't stop looking at them. That sweater really makes them pop❤ beautiful

Praying for a speedy conclusion for this trial! Justice will prevail 💪🏽

That blue is gorgeous on you!

Thank you Tati, you are just the best. You said so much that I related to for different reasons and words that I could not find to describe how I was feeling with my life.

Also, I’m obsessed with the Tati list and I am SO GRATEFUL you do it!!!❤

I love that color on you. Makes your eyes sparkle.

Tati! Don't you dare take down the beautiful Puka shrine! I still wear a sweater that has a picture of my bloodhound on it and she has been passed on now for years. My sweet giant, fluffy cat Miguel passed away two years ago, and I still have his paw print cast up on a stand in my kitchen. You never stop missing them, but over time it will get easier. I will forever love them and I know they will welcome me when it is my turn to move on to heaven. Hang in there Tati! Don't stop looking at pictures and remembering all the happy, funny memories!😘😘😘

Feeling you with going through a hard year watched your video and had a well needed cry. Stay strong and keep being your amazing self. ❤

Thank you for being so honest with us. I am sending you all the good vibes and praying this trial ends well so you can move on once and for all ❤

Love you! Please don’t leave longform content. The other stuff is OK but we love you here

My dogs are like my kids, and I lost my most recent September 10, 2019. It took me 1 year to be able to talk about her without crying. It will get easier. It will hurt less. Praying for you.

Dogs are a gift. One thing that really helps me is that I KNOW I did everything I could for my first dog, Rocky. He had degenerative myelopathy which paralyzed his back legs. In the end, I had to make a decision based on his quality of life. Once that was gone, it was time to do the right thing for him, not the right thing for me. My vet helped a lot because after I made the decision, and it was done, he told me I did the right thing by Rocky. That really helped validate me. As for getting another dog, it was a no brainer. I waited 6 weeks, which may seem fast to some, but for me, I felt that Rocky would have wanted me to. I was a great mom to him and so many dogs need good homes. I think Rocky would have been mad at me if I wallowed in my grief and didn't provide a good home for another pup. But that was me, everyone grieves differently. I now have Pippin who is a joy and has his own personality and quirks. He didn't replace Rocky at all, and he never could. Rocky has a space in my heart forever, but Pippin helped my heart grow and now he has his own space too. I know that you will make the right decision for you and James. And whatever you decide will be the right thing.

of course i’m watching this at the gym on the treadmill and bawling my eyes out.. i look insane😂 you’re so strong, love you tati!!

I still grieve my dog that I lost in 1994. I don’t think you ever truly get over any big loss. The best description of grief that I found was your life experience is a box and your grief is a ball inside it. In the beginning the ball and box are the same size , every time the ball hit the side of the box you feel the loss. In time the box(life experience) gets bigger but the ball remains the original size and hits the sides of the box less often. I am so sorry Tati, loss of a pet is so difficult. 💔🐶

It's been six years since I lost my fur baby, and I'm just starting to think about getting another dog. Give yourself as much time as you need to heal. My thoughts are with you.

Oh Tati I can relate to what you are going thru. I won't go into the specifics but I have gone thru some ABSOLUTE TOUGH times. It was very difficult and I too MISSED MY OLD SELF. I have come a long way (by the Grace of God) but fear and trust issues still linger. 🥰🥰🥰

Thanks for making videos all these years! I come to share in the energy you put out, and it's always so good for me:) in good times, it's nice to just hang out and find great new product. In bad times, your energy helps me get back to a place of calm and motivation. Much love!

Tati, we went through the book of Ezekiel at church and the one thing that really struck me was that the Bible doesn't mince words. And in Ezekiel it says, "Don't be a fool" and dwell on the past, thinking about what might have been, but look toward the future and what you can build there. Ezekiel, chapter 5 I think. But it says "don't be a FOOL...." I'm very nostalgic and that verse really caught me. We all fall into this problem, it's part of humanity. So, you are setting a good example for everyone to accept things as they are, you aren't constantly pining for things of the past to be different, and you are encouraging everyone (and yourself) to look forward and build things. Be blessed.

Amen Tati. About the whole working out thing. I became paralyzed at the age of 32 and it does make me sad to see so many people not taking care or loving their bodies. It’s our greatest gift; to have a functional body to where you can do ANYTHING. Thankfully, I worked out 5x a week prior to my accident which has helped me tremendously now in my day to day life.

This blue looks amazing on you ! 🦋🩵🧿

Love you Tati! In times of struggle, I think about what I’m grateful for. And I ask my friends/family to flood me with genuine compliments and love. It helps pull me out of the darkness so much. Feel the feeling. Cry, scream, do what you need to do. And then move on. Don’t dwell on it. You’re safe, you’re valued, you’re appreciated, you are strong!

I still see my cat out the corner of my eye and it has been months! I really miss cuddling with him. You have your health and that is the most important thing. God bless you.

I’m a grief guide and I’m about to specialise in grief from the loss of a beloved animal. I feel that this is an area that doesn’t get talked about enough. Grief of our fur babies, can bring up all kinds of grief! It’s no different to losing a human. Go gently with yourself 🙏🏻you have had a lot to cope with. Sending blessings your way ❤

sending love and strength to you Tati 💗 you're the best!

Hope this trial comes to an end for your piece of mind Tati! saying a prayer for you never miss your videos I just don't comment as much due to my English but 'm getting better ! I have been watching you from day one I always thought you were a classy person my daughter and I watched you together she was so young and to this day she still watches you we love you take care ❤ I'm on your list as well thank you ❤

My dog Roxy spread her angelic wings in 2020 and I still have moments of tears. It's been 4yrs and I'm FINALLY coming around to the idea of a new fur-baby... TAKE YOUR TIME, Tati. The right time and place will eventually come when you will want a new family member. If it doesn't, then it doesn't. Wishing you mindful and soulful peace. ❤

Tati, your eyes POP in that color.
I lost my Cleo 7 years ago and it still hurts. We did adopt another dog about 18 mos later. I love her dearly but there is always going to be that little empty spot in my heart.

Thank you for sharing with us! You are so strong keep on going Tatti God is good

I send you so much love and healing. I am so sorry for all the hardship you are going through. You will make it through and will be stronger and wiser but I know how hard it is to be where you are. I hope you will consider finding an excellent therapist who can help you navigate through this without blaming yourself for anything outside of your control. Truly sending you so much love ❤️

For some reason, I love knowing that the Tati List is being handled personally by you and James ❤

Loved this vid…got teary when you talked about Puka. Having lost both 4- and 2-legged loved ones, grief isn’t something you get over; you get through it. Sometimes you can recall them or talk about something and you’re fine. Other times, you just start to lose it. This ebbs and flows over the years, but you never get over it. It’s just part of you. 🤗

That BLUE suits you so well! Brings out the vibrancy in your eyes out. So beautiful! 💎💙

I had my yorkie for almost 17 years. And done for 3 and I still cry randomly about her. Grief is love with no where to go. ❤

My sweet maltipoo - Scott - passed away 15 years ago and I can still cry when I think about him. Just like a person - you learn to live with the hurt ❤

A quote i incorporated in my vision board this year is, "Each day you must choose... The pain of discipline or the pain of regret." I have pretty debilitating chronic illness, so i am working on making the most of what I've got lol. I love that you're taking us along on your healthy lifestyle journey 💜

Pets are so wonderful because they love you no matter what. I can’t believe it’s been over 8 years since my last fur baby passed. It took me a few months to decide to get another cat but every day I am so thankful I did. There will be times, even now, when I get a little heart broken missing my last kitty but Henley also makes my life so joyful. They give you so much more than you could ever give them. When you are ready to open your heart again, there is no need to compare. They are all so unique and pure love. That being said, everyone should be allowed the space to make those choices in their own time. Whatever feels right for you is the only way to go. Grief is not linear. You are in my heart.

I feel for you!! I’ve learned the hard way too that I can’t be friends with everyone, and that I have to be more discerning with who I associate with. Praying peace and strength for you 🙏❤️. One of the things I love about maturing in life is realizing sometimes it’s not me, it’s them!

I read a really great analogy about grief , your grief is a ball and it's inside a cube and for what feels like the longest time the ball won't move it takes up all the space and there is no movement and slowly as time goes on the ball will shrink it will never go away trapped inside the cube but eventually with time it does get smaller , there is no timeliness for grief everyone feels it differently ♡

As far as working out goes, I’ve been consistently going for 4 years now. The best motivation I can give you is, do it because you love your body not because you hate it. Also, I’m not addicted to working out, I am addicted to the results. They’re not just physical (which is amazing) but it’s also about how strong I’ve become, how I can do my kids fun runs and not quit, the endurance I’ve gained. THATS what it’s about ♥️

Good luck with getting at your court things over with. Also the blue sweater is really pretty with your eye color. Always love your tips and tricks

It’s ok to be angry and hurt when injustice comes against you. Your emotions are valid Tati.
It’s taken me a long time to learn how to deal with anger, frustration, hurt.
Still learning.
I stopped “spiritually bypassing” my anger when I misunderstood what turn the other cheek, love your enemies, and forgiveness meant. It never meant we can’t be angry, stand up for ourselves, set boundaries, share how you feel (in love and if appropriate).
I will pray for you and whatever evil is in operation through Clark. I pray he turns from his ways and aligns with Gods grace and love.

It took me a full year to get over the loss of my last precious fur baby to pass. You will never have another pet like the one you lost, but ultimately that's not the goal. The goal is to find another 'soul match' to add that something you're missing to your life. I truly believe our fur babies enter our lives when we're really in need of something, even if we aren't fully cognizant of what that thing is.

As an animal obsessed person who has been left heartbroken by the loss of many dogs and cats, I have always found comfort in adopting soon after. An animal is out there that is in need of the love and wonderful life you would provide. Puka would want that, too...❤

🎉Throughout some sad topics, this video left me feeling uplifted..thank you TATI❤ ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel.

Good luck with the trail Tati. Love seeing the picture of Puka. Sending you lots of love ❤

We women always make it through.. we have a strength unseen and unchallenged, and watching you get through it with grace makes me fiercely proud and protective. We're the same age. I just started talking to my GYNO about perimenopause and HRT and am praying it helps with my mental health decline over the past couple years.🤞We GOT this, girl... we got this 💜

I understand forgiveness, but anger is also ok. Honestly. Live through it and get through it. You are strong, and amazing!!!! So proud of you!!

I love what you said about going through hard times and the strength that comes from that "the is a strength you can't purchase." That was so powerful! Thank you for mentioning Hotmail too! I think that what happened to mine. But texting now since you gave us the number!

I so feel for you Tati you are a good kind person and people have taken advantage of that over the years and you only learn with age about how bad some people are. I think most of us have had that over time I know I have I don’t trust people now and never will as sometimes you are better off with only a few friends and family around you. I hope all goes well with you I have followed you for many years lots of love xxx

about getting over a pet's death- In the fall of 2020 my Lupin (orange kitty) died. He was 14 and the little love of my life. It took 2 years for me to stop actively missing him. It was so bad at some points that I'd have thoughts like "what if he's a ghost and hanging around me and I can't see him and he thinks he's being ignored???" that's how much I loved and missed him. It's been 4 years now and I only tear up when I think of him (like I am now.) I'm sorry for the loss and pain but it's so special when you have had a little love like that in your life.

I totally understand the sadness. I lost my childhood cat when I was 18. I am 26 now and there are still days when I think of him and get emotional. It gets better with time but I will always miss my buddy.

Hey Tati, I can't remember if you've ever mentioned anything about angel numbers before on your channel (I'm wanting to think you have?), but the number 5 is all about big, never be the same again transformations & life transitions. Usually some chaotic period of life that will ultimately usher in something more positive after the transformation is complete. I've been seeing cardinals too recently, and your story definitely resonates me my own journey. So maybe the 5 is applicable to you as well. May healing & peace find their way to your heart. ❤

I’ve been a silent viewer for years. I love your videos. I love the quote you shared “add life to my years”! Thank you for being you.

I saw a video once about the size of your grief. That it never gets smaller but that it starts to feel less overwhelming - like hitting a button in a box. It will never go away completely because that person or loved one will always be a part of your life.

My Cooper passed 9 years ago & occasionally I still get misty. The first year is a struggle, but each year, your heart heals more & and more; and although the sadness never completely goes away, it is not the same level of all-consuming grief.

Tati, I love you! You’re the best. Prayers and good thoughts going your way. 🙏🏼♥️

Tati you have the kindest, generous, most BEAUTIFUL soul I've ever met in a person. I'm so grateful that I get to enjoy your videos, engage with you, and be a part of the Tati list. It would be a dream one day to meet you. I truly feel like it would be like hanging out with my long lost sister. You are awesome, and so strong for braving through all the pain you've had. Lots of love to you always ❤

Tati, I have been in a 7-year ongoing setback in my life, similarly with legal and formal institutions. Seeing you go through such a similar circumstance, but publically and with much more at stake is unreal. When you said you aren't sure that you can get the parts of yourself back, I feel that in my soul. It will end. You will heal. You will be transformed. Those parts will be added back to you but even purer, richer, stronger. Joel 2:25 “I will restore to you the years that the locusts ate".

Sometimes an animal comes into your life that touches your soul differently. Sometimes you never get over it. Eventually, the sadness does take a backseat to good memories, but never does it go away. I have had many cats, but one that I lost 10 years ago has been especially heartbreaking. We had an unexplainable connection for 16 years. To this day, I still cry just looking at his photo. I am happy I was privileged to have that experience, but it doesn’t make it easy when you lose it.

Thinking and praying for you Tati!🙏🏻🩷

you’ll never leave that grieving state. I’ve lost a few dogs, all of which gutted me. I still grieve. I lost my soul dog 3 years ago in a traumatic way. I still cry about once a week. his medicine is still in my fridge. his bed is still next to my bed. I have another dog that I’ve had through all of this too. He helped me grieve and respects his brothers “areas.” all of this to say, the grieving doesn’t end and however whenever whatever you need to do so, is normal and ok. feel it all. they love us unconditionally, it’s expected for us to grieve the immense loss. we can only dream of loving them as much as they love us. grieving is an extension of our love. sending you wishes for comfort and much love!

Don't give up love♥️you got this!

That's my mantra, " I only get one body for life; gotta take care of it inside and out ".❤ there's no time limit for mourning. Blessings to you, Tati.

Stay strong and keep up the great work. It sounds hard but you are moving in the right direction. Sending love - and a big hug!

I really connected with you during this video on many things ……. Thank you ❤

Perfect time to cosy up for a Q&A. Good luck for the rest of the trial stuff! Sending love 🤗

Regardless of the trials and tribulations - your skin is chef's kiss and your blush highlighter combo is AMAZING! You mourn the loss of your other self - but the person you are now (been watching for a long while) your inner happy - shines through. Puka was a lucky pup.

I am so sorry for your journey that keeps you and who you are suppressed, and that you feel like you have lost part of you !!! I get the trust issue as well and I understand as we went through and still sorta going through a law suit with my brother and have lost him from my life and am mourning that loss, while he slams us and blames us for his decision to take us to court when it could have been avoided as well as you mentioned. We are struggling financially because of this too.... which sucks in these times
Your strong woman and thankfully have lots of support....this shall end and I hope you feel better when its over ❣❣

I'm with you, 1000%, when it comes to your dog. We lost ours about 13 years ago and, truthfully, it hurt so badly that we just aren't ready for that again. I could still cry when I talk about him. They truly are our angels while they're here but they're gone so quickly. It's still heartbreaking. A coworker once said that she gets another (she rescues dogs) to help another and to never have only one because when one goes, the house is just too quiet. I can see where she's coming from.

I am home sick today and when I just saw this come up, it made me immediately feel better. You have a way of freaking such joy into my life. Not to mention that the blue you are wearing is simply stunning! Stay strong, dear friend. You have such a wonderful support group behind you! how I wish I could tell you that in person. Hugs!!!!

You and James truly amaze me! Every project the two of you take on is always done flawlessly and with attention paid to every detail! I can only imagine what y’all will be able to accomplish once the litigation is over, and you can put your full energy into it.

I feel youre pain....i still cry over my cat and its been 3 weeks. You responded to my DM and I am so greatful.....Thank you

I recommend the crest white strips. They stick really well ❤

Wow your eyes are just POPPING with that blue shirt. So gorgeous!!

When it comes to your sweet baby, Puka.. you never get over it. As a thirty-something woman that doesn't have kids, my Boston Terrier Ellie was my absolute life. I lost her May 16th of 2023. I cry over her every single day. It was so hard to talk about anything relating to her at all at first but now it's getting easier to be able to openly talk about stories of her life and the love we shared. My heart aches for you. I have a little Ellie shrine on the dresser behind me at my computer. I still have a lot of her things that I refuse to give up or get rid of. Don't feel like theres a time frame for this. Don't feel like your photo of him behind you is "weird." Grieve as long as you can and as hard as you can.
"Grief is just love with nowhere to go"

You have been a positive example for me for nearly half of my life. I wish you all the strength and love for this year ❤

Just joined tati list 🎉. Been watching your channel for years and truly inspired by makeup looks . Such a fun channel!

Love your Q and A videos! Hope your litigation goes your way!

Tati! I am hoping that this trial is over soon for you! I am sure this is soooo absolutely overwhelming and you are sick of it!

We are so here for you Tati! You are such an inspiration! ❤

Clark “what’s his name” has met his match…STAND STRONG LOVE!!!! I love your content! You will come out smelling like a “ROSE.” “Get spiritual!!!” ❤️🥰🥰

We lost our dog in august and I still go to the dog toys and food aisle just automatically and then I remember… my brother when he comes to visit still shouts on her sometimes when he first comes In… it takes a long time and it’s very hard and you’ll never ever truly get over it. But one day you’ll just realise you’re content and you’re living your life ❤

That BLUE is beautiful on you!

As to being a naive person, trying to help people and saying yes a lot. That spoke to me. I need to check that in me. Thank you for saying what you said about that it was very helpful!

Praying for strength and comfort for you and James.