Tom MacDonald - "Anxiety" SPOKEN WORD

Oh good lord. I am crying my eyes out. I lost my son to his addiction. He wrote poems, stories, journals constantly. He could have written those very words. God bless you! And hug your mother.

To anyone fighting anxiety and or depression I pray you find a light thru all that darkness

One year sober prayers to all the suffering addicts out ther

You are so dearly loved Sir!!!
Thank you.
Your words connect us all!!!

“Man I lived a lot of moments that I probably should’ve cherished, now they seem so far away from me I’m angry and embarrassed”
That hit me so hard man.

3 time Combat Veteran literally taking my "Pills" as I listen to this. I can't even explain how hard this hit me.

Having PTSD and bad anxiety. It’s hard to even leave the house sometimes. It’s very consuming. I feel like you’re telling my story. Sometimes the end seems better then the now. Please never stop making your videos. You’re a beautiful person.

The only grown man to bring tears to my eyes without bearing bad news.

This is the most accurate description of anxiety I've ever heard.... not ashamed to say I got emotional listening to this. Anyone who has it, it feels like hes describing your life in this song.

Thank you for showing a younger generation what rap should be.

The honesty he expresses is bewildering. It allows me to see some sort of odd light in my dark tunnel.

Anxiety has ruled me too long and too much. 😪 It's caused me to be borderline agoraphobic but knowing I'm not alone helps.... God bless you all who suffer as I do. You can overcome and thrive. I have faith in you... yes you reading this... You Are Loved

I feel that myself Tom.
Being a Truck Driver, I can't take what I need so...
We can get through this life though.
Only reason I still exist is I have a handicapped daughter who has never given up. She has never spoken or walked and use to have over 200 seizures a day.
If she can get through this messed up life then so can we.
You are helping people Tom. Even old white women like me. You are needed.

45 year's of age and lived with anxiety all my life. .. this brought a tear to my eyes as it's spot on. .

How has no rapper thought of doing it this way before? Genuis. The medium of poetry reaches everyone.

Holy shit! Thank you. I'm ending a 20+ yrs in the Army. Sooner then I expected. I was diagnosed with Chronic PTSD since 2005 from my first deployment to Iraq; the craziest of the two. Anxiety, is my worst part. I can trace the anger, depression etc all to Anxiety. F'ing hate it. I ignored it too long and had a major relapse this last year, and now getting medically retired, a tragedy and blessing at the same time. I've only found your music a few weeks back, and love it all. It has meaning. Stay blessed Tom, and stay real. Music is meant to uplift, inspire, reveal, much like literature. From an old Soldier, respectfully. JM

All of his spoken word is great, in my opinion

Dear Tom,
This made me cry. This is the exact thing I go through everyday brother. I’ve never been able to put it into words but you have done that for me. I wish people understood.

This made me cry because this is how I feel every damn day.

“I’ll keep searching for the strength to find my smile”
Just simple truth ... a laugh can’t cure shit when you can’t even break a smile

Tom.. I can not even tell you how much this hit me... I literally felt like the words came out of my mouth. I am watching this for like the 13th time. I am a newer fan of your awesome talent. I hope and pray for the best for you. You are the only hope music has.

My dear wife called the title just by listening to your words Tom. She straight said “that’s anxiety”. She has it so bad, I try my best to understand it. I can’t fix it. I can just be in it with her.

I’m older and did not like rap music, mostly for what they were saying. I just heard my first song by Tom two days ago and was blown away. I found other songs by him and wow. This is clearly an intelligent individual who seeks truth and in the face of a culture that is becoming dangerous for anyone daring to speak truth. Thank you for you message and you courage to speak it. I have shared that first sing “Fake Woke” with friends and family. May YHVH bless you, protect you and enable you to keep on producing lyrics that we all need to hear.

I go to this vid when i feel lost.i might feel alone but im not alone in my feelings.thank you

I never ask for help i just struggle with it secretly..facts love you tom

I cried when I heard this. To know someone knows how you feel is bitter sweet...Your happy someone else understands yet sad that they feel the same way you do....

This brought tears. All too familiar! Tom, I have introduced all my kids, including the 14 yo, to your music. Right, wrong, or indifferent I challenge my kids to find music with different views, different languages, and different types of music.I appreciate your work and so do they! Although, the 14 yo did start a whole conversation in school based off some of your songs. Open discussion is good.

It’s a daily battle.

I am not a big fan of poetry, by any means, but this dude says some of the deepest shit. This stuff is incredible.

I'm sharing this, for all the Ppl like me who are stuck home with severe ptsd and anxiety.. Keep fighting! Thank you Tom ❤️

..”THOUGHTS ARE CREATING MY EMOTIONS I AM IN CONTROL OF MY THOUGHTS, how I react to events is my responsibility and it is great cause I CAN CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE”..
💞🙌💞

Thank you for turning your personal pain into lyrical poetry and music. I think you’re helping a lot of people to feel a lot better, especially in these times. God bless you.

This needs more views. This is so true and so relatable. I feel you man!

Rap at its core is poetry; plain and simple...

Now thats some poetry .You will always be one of my favourite rapper.

This is not just for younger people. Bless us all. Imagine being old and still being here.

Damn so deep! I have anxiety,depression,ptsd, and was also diagnosed with bipolar 2 after pregnancy losses, another horrible even, and my older brother committing suicide. So deep this and not alone. Thank you for this.

Having ptsd from iraq, I never could ecplain how I feel or think. Then I watched this. Thank you so much Tom McDonald.

I was an addict for 4 years. I got clean because I didn't want to die. 8 months after I was sober I found out that im terminally ill, that's unrelated to the addiction. But I wasted so much precious time in the dark wishing For God to take me. Now I pray to God for more time. For anyone who reads this, you are worth it! Your life is worth it! If you are struggling please reach out to someone. You are not alone. Don't wait until its to late. Stay strong! 💙💙💙

Beautiful. I could listen to his voice all day long ♡♡♡♡ his messages.

Can't stop crying this is my life I'm an artist too n u inspire me how u talk.... Just know it's important to people... And never let others get u down

I won’t have anxiety. Won’t be depressed. Won’t be anything less then a warrior when I die.

😥😥 toms music has helped me more then anyone can understand. I've thought about ending my life more then I'd like to admit. Takin a handful of pills not caring if I wake up. We all struggle an have hard times. Sometimes it's hard to see the light but u have to find that fire inside that drives you and hold on to it. Remember your not the only one struggling an keep your head up. We in this together🤘🤘

WE BELIEVE IN YOU. MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU. STAY CALM. YOU'RE IN THE LORDS HANDS.

"If I didnt make a change I would have drank myself to death." That was the line that really got to me. This was an amazing piece, from the visuals to the creativity and honesty in each line. Well done, this really inspired me as a poet to do better

thank you brother. ✝️🇺🇸❤️💪

Tom, I am 60 years old. and this is my life right now.

@Tom MacDonald, I am a great-grandma from TN, I came across your music a few months back YOU have helped me through some hard times & many depressed days... I have never really liked RAP, (my son did underground in the 90s for a while, YEAH, that horrible kind, lol) I buried my daughter to addiction while she was trying to find help, left behind 2 precious daughters, RIP Tab, my only other child, my son 36 years old, is 5 years clean, I had him listen to your song CHURCH, he is now a Fan. #HOG Thank you for staying Humble, speaking truth, & making songs all ages can relate to & appreciate, You have touched so many lives... My fam is #HOG4LIFE Nova is AMAZING as well, much love & respect to you both!!

I honestly have no words. It was like u were talking bout me. Tom you are amazing. Thank u

I felt strange that all I could do was inwardly nod while agreeing but the grin on my face never left. Not from happiness, but almost amazement in how he was speaking those words. My thoughts. His words. My words. His thoughts. When the sun rises it feels like monsters that are just never going to bow out. That's why I stay awake nights.

This is very relatable to me. I’ve had anxiety for close to 15 years. It was so bad at one point I refused to drive or leave my house. I was a slave to it. I found a video one day on KRplus from a doctor out of the UK explaining panic attacks and anxiety, and I’m not lying when I say it changed my life. Just having someone explain that panic attacks are your fight or flight system being triggered when you don’t really need it, and that it isn’t dangerous, its actually there to keep you alive, really struck me. He told people that to conquer anxiety you need to do whatever it is that makes you anxious. He said anxiety is uncomfortable but it isn’t dangerous, so why would you let a few moments of uncomfortableness keep you from living your life. Keep comfortable in your discomfort. I haven’t had a panic attack in years and while I still get anxiety occasionally, it doesn’t run my life or keep me from doing anything. No meds, just facing the thing that scares you imo is the best way to make anxiety irrelevant. I hope to all people who suffer from it, you conquer it!

My son took his own life... and you where his favorite our favorite artists. He wrote this spoken word and added to it talking about how he wish drugs or alcohol could num his pain. And how he rather end his life instead of becoming a addicted.
"why run or hide from something thats on the inside just say goodbye end it all better luck time"
* A.G.R. * RIP...

"The doctor doesn't help me much, He signs his name I buy the drugs," Damn...

Thank you for being real. The struggle sucks but I support the fight

Your search will end and only be found in Jesus! Love you young Bro!❤️

Tom speaks for the Massess, not the Asses! Big Love Bro!

Anxiety...something most have heard of but don't understand what it truly means! Not being able to be apart of life is agonizing in its self! He said, hes surprised he even left his room, that's me! I've had anxiety & a nervous condition since I was 4!! It's no joke! Thanks for the words Tom!!

For everyone struggling with anxiety and get their feelings out, this is the message we need to hear for them! Thank you Tom. 🙏🏻

6 months widowed at 28 with 2 young children. I have started drinkingalot more then I will admit. I listen to this to get through the day

Music is such a gift to the world. I love this because it’s my life in words and I find some comfort in knowing it’s not just my story being told it’s millions of others as well! Thank you for this one bud!

Tom, Thank You for putting this out there man. Every line you speak hits me in a personal and profound way.

The man even takes poetry to a new level!!

Sober since 1986 after 4 years in the bottle chasing Worms! You can do it, Tom, I have great Faith in you! 🙏🌹♥️💯🤗

Dude that is exactly me. Been suffering since I was 19 and I will be 54 soon. I fought and overcame, wrote about it, wrote poems about it, etc. then the past year it's back worse than ever. I've become an empty shell and when I talk to my Dr. about he says there is nothing wrong with me if I am able to admit my thoughts and feelings. I've gotten so tired of people saying to "get over it" but then they have a panic attack and the world has to stop for them. Anyhow, you're a strong man, and you have touched the lives of so many and I thank you. God bless you and yours.

Your an amazing artist. I like how it has a meaning in every word you speak an sing.

That was deep. Sure you haven't walked my shoes? You talk, sometimes; like you have. It's interesting, like finding a brother I forgotten about. Either way, I'll like your vids, if I resonate with them or not. If it's a jam or something only I should listen too. Either way I'll support you. Keep it up, you will be known soon enough.

I deal with PTSD and anxiety, and after listening to this, it inspired me to reach out to others suffering like I was. It has helped me to help others. So, we all thank you Tom. I don't know if you know how many you have saved with this Spoken Word.

God bless you in the name of Jesus.
Thank you for being so very brave to share your God given talent.

This deserves millions of views. My god. Gave me goosebumps.

I'm still young and the fact that I relate to this scares me besides the alcohol

These words hit home! Anxiety and depression are a daily battle in my war. I find strength in my creator my God pulls me through in the storm when my battles have me feeling like I'm loosing I find strength in knowing he has my back.

That hit the soul Tom...anxiety is a silent killer we struggle with daily. Every day is a test of your will to live. The Lord gives us another day (if we are lucky enough to recognize it) to better then we did the day before.
Keep your head up peeps. Pray. And walk in love.

three and a half years I battled severe anxiety due to an adrenal gland issue from chronic infection. Half of the time I was convinced I would die, the other half I prayed I would. I'd run through the woods in nothing but a pair of shorts in our cold wet winters. The cold slowed my pounding heart. My breathing would slow and I'd become a bit disoriented, but my brain would be alert and hyper attentive to every weird sensation in my body. The Xanax would work for a while, a brief relief from grief, but the next day would be twice as bad. Rebounding with a vengeance. "What are you anxious about?". My brain was like a TV with every channel playing at once and somebody could ask "what are you watching?". Everything. Every detail. Nothing. I'm afraid I'll die. I'm worried I won't. And then there would be a calm when my body was exhausted and unable to secrete any more crazy juice. And then I worried about the next round.

Keep doing your thing Tom MacDonald. Had to add this one to the playlist.

I have schizoaffective disorder. I get hit with spirits of anxiety and depression. Voices. Visual hallucinations. Thank God for people like Tom Mcdonald.

Your honesty and willingness to show your " issues" is life saving. Makes me feel less ...ashamed or weak... for having such anxiety and mental issues. Here i am in tears..again. your music and poetry is...cathartic

Man this was deep..... Cherish the moment you have people, I know I've been feeling like that since my mom got sick.. Battled myself for so long, that I'm left with the feeling I could of done more. Now I'd give anything to once again be in her arms.
Not always easy getting out of those clouds. And even though we might not know which way we are heading, main thing is that we keep on going, cause life is worth living.

BTW, mental health disorders, still today (for some reason), aren't very well advocated for, resulting in antiquated perceptions of these diseases. Anxiety and depression, despite their place of origin, does not mean you are weak minded, crazy, hypersensitive or any other stereotypical misconceived label our "pick yourself up by the bootstraps" culture has slapped onto you. Over 90% of adults 30 years of age and older have suffered from depression at one point or another. And of that 90%, 85% have admitted to having suicidal thoughts. More and more, every day, I am seeing poets, song writers, lyricists, rappers, authors, bloggers and social media posters advocating for mental health awareness and education. When artists like Tom bare their scars to the world, although it may not be intended, it can almost be promised that someone , somewhere needed to hear those exact words, at that exact moment and, at least momentarily, felt some semblance of comfort knowing that theyre not alone on the battlefield. Noone should ever have to feel scared or ashamed to talk about they way they feel. Odds are, the person you would least likely expect to understand you, has dealt with very similar shit.

This is some real shit. Dame Mad at myself for not Noticing him him so much sooner.

Ive been watching tom mcdonald videos for 6 months have never once seen any of your spoken word until tonight when i need it most.

Damb! You nailed this perfectly. I deal with this everyday.

I really feel you bro

Chronic pain makes you feel this

Been there!
Mine started when I got into relationships with people. I sacrificed what I needed to do for myself to make the persons I was with happy.
I stopped doing everything I was great at because the people I dated were insecure.
That ended up with me becoming stuck and lost as I drowned knowing the answer was be me but didnt want to hurt them.
Years passed as I got weaker they got stronger and they eventually consumed me then turned on me.
As soon As I was single The old ne started to rise again slowly got stronger , happier, healthier and successful.
sure enough here came the relationship vampire again sucking the life out of me turning into a mad man trying to please the other while suffocating myself.
moral of the story is some of us do more harm to ourselves trying to make others happy as we ignore our own power and light.
dont let em distract you.

Thank to Tom. Your music has help me more than you will ever know. You’ve made me realize that I’m not alone and that it’s time to pick myself up by the boot straps and man up. I hope you Make it to Albuquerque soon, we love our underground music around here. This place is stuffed with talented people I’m sure you would love to meet.
Again, thank you for your wisdom.

This hit me so hard. There was times I thoight I was the only one who had problems. Specially with the beginning of the song/spoken word.i battled depression and anxiety for years. Im still climbing out of it all. This blew me away and hit home.. amazing tom macdonald. I truly wish u the best.

Thank you brother!!!! Its sooooo hard to live in such BONDAGE!!! I was a tweeker junkie & by the grace of God I have been clean 20 yrs & sober 15!!!!! SWEET!!! PRAISE YESHUA!!! you CAN do it Im living PROOF!!! I WAS 60#'s @ my lowest!!! Yea I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!!!!

I love it how you speak the truth, keep it up💪🏾💕

Damn Tom, that's deep and alot of people struggle! Keep fighting the good fight! I know "enough" of what you speak of, and prayers go out if this is truly how you feel. Be blessed 🙏

Thank you for helping this mama grandma hippy of '74 where I been. Loved your rap and truth. BLESSINGS.

Music I'll let my 4 year old grandson PROUDLY listen too.

you'll find your smile soon bro. we all will.

One day we'll all be dead, hopefully this species can actually RIP. Resting in peace after all, is the only thing we ever deserved.

Amen! Good job Tom and congrats. Don’t look back!
I’m 27 yrs clean with a couple hiccups along the way. Those that need help, reach out for it. It can be done and it can be yours.

thank you for speaking the truth on how we feel

Fuck.... this hits. It hits hard.

Thank you! I watch this everyday to remind me I’m not alone even though I am alone. I wish there was an audio only version of this so I could download from Apple Music and keep on standby for when I need it.

I've always been strong on the outside. Soft on the inside. Thought I had walls strong enough. Then they crashed down into rubble. I am literally in pain daily. I cherish Tom and his words. Showing me that I can get back up. Pulling me up out of the rubble even when I feel I can't. Thank you so much. I love you Tom. I mean that.

Thank you for all that you do Tom this song is 100% relatable I really needed to hear this.

Damn dude, if you looked like me, Ida thought you were a version of myself that could rap. Seriously. You got it pegged buddy. That's what's up.