I'm Not A YouTuber Anymore

I feel like we should normalize youtubers retiring. They shouldn't have to get to this point of burn out. Thankful for the laughs I got to have on this channel over the years!

Cristine is a big example of a KRplus Success Story. She’s moving on up . How can we be anything but proud?

It took me a YEAR to have the courage to watch this and still cried haha, thank you for everything but most importantly, thank you for taking care of yourself

I’m so sorry to hear about your dad Cristine. He was funny and bright and the world will be a little less sunny without that sweet goofy smile and delighted giggle every time you had him on. He will be missed.

Hearing her say "my dad died last year" broke my heart instantly. I genuinely loved cristines dad, of his humor, the love he gives to his children and more. I never knew that my tears can flow that fast until i heard her say those words... even though its too late cristine, my condolences and i wish you the best...

She’s not gone. She’s just creating different content that’s more fulfilling for her rn. I’m glad that she can find a form of content that she finds makes her ACTUALLY happy. :)

Rest in peace, papa taco 🌮
Sending you much love, and take as much time as you need! We’re here for you whenever you need us to be💕

I'm Deaf. It's a huge part of my identity AND my language. Your videos are 100% captioned, so I **always** feel included, even with your podcasts (which is actually kinda rare). The fact that you always put out quality products that I get to wear (99% of the time, HT is my first choice, and if I can't decide on one, I'll just pick 10 colors and go with it) and because I use my hands to communicate, these colors are often the first thing people notice.... so there's quite literally a little of you is in every conversation. And yeah, I guess that sounds weird, but this proud, Deaf, gimpy wierdo-oddball is totally okay with that. ❤ That and HT bottles are harder for my feline roommates to knock over than other brands, so there's that at least! 🤣
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This is so bittersweet. She’s a full fledged businesswoman and a real actual girl boss which we love. She may already be in her 30’s but she’s still grown up and matured. So proud.

This was, for me, as emotionally eviscerating as when Jenna Marbles posted her final video. Wishing you all the best in your future endeavors, Cristine.

It's actually so amazing to see that she could turn her nail polish obsession into a full fledged business.

As a male your channel got me through a lot of though times and depression. I never once have painted my nails but just your humor and the mysterious world of nails and holo tacos got me through some odd times. Especially around the pandemic, and those quarantine times that life just seemed to float. Thank you for everything.

I honestly never knew how you did it all. Having a “normal” job, owning a business, creating and editing videos, doing instagram and also be there for yourself and your family. You are an incredible inspiration to everybody. Not because you worked so hard, but because you show everybody that it is okay to stop something that is not good for you.
RIP dad - I’m so sorry for your loss.

"please don't be sad, I'm okay" literally made me tear up. We put so much pressure on ourselves to be okay for other people. like we owe it to THEM to be okay, not to ourselves. Christine, you owe it to YOURSELF to be okay. Take your time. Do what you love. Do what makes you happy. Do what's sustainable. You're amazing.

I almost bawled my eyes out, I have grown up with you since i was only 13 and now 17. To be able to grow up to you was amazing and to be able to still see you in a different type of content is comforting in the sense you are still following what you want to do no matter the changes you faced and challenges. I am just happy you're doing what makes you happy and at peace, and I am still able to see you grow! Sending much love!-Ashanti

Hearing that last crack in your voice when you said "see y'all later, bye." genuinely made me choke and feel tears welling up. Much like while watching that compilation of you sitting quietly in the basement staring into the void. Like I *felt* that. I haven't kept up with videos in the last year due to my own personal changes in life so I had no idea your dad passed away. I'm so sorry to hear that and I hope you and your family are healing well from that loss.
I can honestly say that 2022-2023 was the hardest and yet most rewarding time of my life, yet not without it's own fallouts. I've lost friends, moved 3 times, lost more friends, and at times felt genuinely alone and depressed even though what I was gaining far outweighed what I was losing. (and I wasn't alone, weird right?) It's the most bittersweet sensation to do what you know is right for yourself and that pang of guilt you can't shake when you know you're making the right decisions, but because they weren't for someone else then it's selfish, right? Like I get that struggle and that guilty feeling.
It makes me sad when KRplusrs or other content creators feel they have to apologize for losing steam or interest in the content that they used to produce or their fans were used to seeing because so often people forget that KRplusrs are people too and they deserve that right to lose interest or change gears without internet backlash. I hope that in the coming years you continue to do what makes you happy and healthy, even if that means never sitting in the basement again with a kids nail art toy. Honestly your happiness and your health is more important than one type of content. A happy Cristine is a healthy Simply. No matter what channel or platform.

Of course you’re not “just” a KRplusr anymore! You’re a badass multi-disciplinary, endlessly creative, delightfully entertaining CEO and founder of one of the hottest new brands of consumer products to yet be created! You’re also a highly productive, endlessly creative, hilariously entertaining live-streamer, podcaster and genuine gamer who delivers far more content than any of us could have ever predicted! Your fan base will understand and your fan base will always be here to enjoy whatever you produce for us. Thanks!

That “see y’all later bye” hit different. So proud of you Cristine we support you

i havent watched cristine since i was in 3/4th grade, and now i'm in 9th. im so proud of how much cristine grew as a business owner and person.

the route that she’s taking is honestly just an elevated version of her old videos and i love it and how far she came it’s beautiful tbh

that "see y'all later bye" in the end with her voice cracking just a tiny bit just made my tears drop. cristine, jenna & safiya helped me get through 2020 when isolation was just so hard. cristine's voice in this video says a lot on how hard it was for her to make this...i'm sad but also happy that her business is thriving, she's doing content that actually makes her happy (streaming & podcasts) & that she finally put herself first by letting go of something that didn't make her happy anymore. i wish nothing but happiness & sucess for you, simply! thank you for making us happy these past 7 years, it's your turn now

I didn’t know simply dadlogical passed 😭😭😭 I’m so sorry cristine! I’ve been here since polish mountain and will continue to support you in any and every way I can 💝

Gosh I didn’t expect to cry but Cristine’s channel was there when it felt like nothing else was, thank you for everything Cristine!

This video has such a “i am only human” vibe.. listening to Christine being vulnerable just brought hot tears to my eyes.
Thank you for everything Christine, you, your humor and all your videos were my companionship during sketchy times when I was a teenager, now I am 21 & all grown up.
I’ve learned that change is inevitable and we just have to make peace with life constantly progressing and changing. And your life is a bright example of that.
This video is a sweet farewell to an amazing cycle in your life. You’ve moved on and that’s good news, keep on doing whatever makes you feel good.
Thank you for feeling safe enough to be so emotionally raw publicly ❤️ Wish you all the best

“I’m not a KRplus anymore, goodbye… except for six hours of week that I stream and the dozens of videos I make about my business and all the tiktoks I’m in and the podcast I make with my partner” Cristine you have nothing to apologize for.

The voice crack in "thanks so much for watching and I'll see yall later bye" has me sobbing lmao. We're so proud of you Cristine. Thank you for being the company I didn't realize I needed in some of my lowest times, both with your main channel videos and simply podlogical. I can't wait to see what's next in store for you. We're proud of you, and so very grateful you shared your time with us and made us all smile.

Finally mustered up the courage to watch this video a year later and I’m balling my eyes out. I’m so very proud of you Christine, how far you’ve come. I’m glad you are taking care of yourself. It feels so weird to have been 13 watching your videos and now I’ll be 18 in a few months. You were a big part of my childhood and I will still continue to support you through your journey. We love you Christine, and will always have your back! ❤️

i hadnt checked her channel in years and i did now and i just bawled my eyes watching this. i’m happy you’re doing what best for you

Cristine,
When I was 17, 6 years ago, I was featured in one of your Q&A’s, as someone who was struggling because my parents wouldn’t allow me to wear nail polish. The words you gave me were the words that NOBODY around me ever said, but that I longed with all my heart to hear. You supported me and my love for nail polish when no one else did.
Today, at 23, I always have nail polish on my nails and I’m happier than ever being myself. I want to thank you for doing that for me, and I want to wish you happiness in everything you decide to do with your life. I’ll always be there to support you on any endeavors you take.
Love,
Johnny.

wait but the "thanks so much for watching and i'll see yall later bye" made me sooooo emotional, actually 😢 thank you christine for being such a critical part of my high school era. you introduced an aspect of self care in nail care that was sooooo important to me. best wishes to you if you read this

It feels surreal coming back to see this vid half a year later

Just watched this for the first time a year later, and it warms my heart to see you so so happy doing the streams and the podcast. You were such a staple in what I watched growing up and throughout high school, and now being in my senior year of college, I still love painting my nails to your videos and streams. So excited for whatever comes next for you 💜💜💜

The amount of pain in her voice, you can tell how difficult it was to make this video. I just want to speak for everyone when I say that we appreciate everything that Cristine has done for us for the past 8 years. Of course we will miss her old videos, but she is starting a new chapter in her life.

It’s been so cool to be here since 100 top coats. Seeing her go from no voiceovers to having her own brand and people under her. It’s so cool and as hard as it is to see this chapter come to an end, it’s so much more exciting to see this new, unknown, and cooler chapter

Me - haven’t watched in a while ,
Me searches - oh….

im proud of your growth!! i saw a holo taco ad and thought “huh, that’s that christine called them, i wonder what she’s up to now”. im so so glad you went forward with your creativity and ambition

Like her good friend Jenna, she took an out when it no longer served a good headspace. Nothing but respect for you! Thanks for the great entertainment over the years!

I think what kills me, is that Cristine had so much behind the scenes content edited out where she looks absolutely miserable. How much happier she looks streaming and in the podcasts is so worth it

Started watching in 6th grade, and now I’m going into my first year at college. Thank you for all the lightness you bring Cristine, your humor and emphasis on education motivated me a lot throughout my youth. Thank you for showing that ladies can be smart and love beautiful things at the same time!! So proud of you for putting up this boundary when you needed to. All my love in the world and thank you for everything. See y’all later, bye 🥹❤️

God when she starts speaking about her channel and herself, you can hear how hard it was for her to talk about it. I’m so heart broken for her but I am also so proud of her.. I love you Cristine, Ben, and the kitties 💜 I’m so sorry for your loss of your father. I know you would rather us be happy and not worry or be sad, but I am sad for you. You hold a lot of mine and others childhood here, and I will forever be grateful 💜

I was holding it so well until you got to the point of signing off “alright everybody thank you so much for watching and I’ll see you y’all later, bai” 😭😭😭 I’m so happy for your growth. I’ve been watching since 2015 when I was navigating through a hard time. New beginnings always supersede endings

So sad that you and Jenna aren’t part of my life anymore when you were such a big influence over my early teen years. Proud of you and happy for you both. Will always support you both and I hope you and Jenna are in better head spaces now xx

It’s been a year, we all miss you so much ♥️♥️

I'm currently rewatching a lot of your videos and just got to this one. I stumbled across your channel in sprint 2020, when I was really struggling to cope with everything. I have no idea why, but your silly videos, whether they contained nail art or not, helped me a lot and I started painting my nails just to have something to do while in lockdown. I went from someone who would occasionally pay for a mani/pedi to someone who does my own nails at home at least once a week and I still do so. So thank you, Cristine

Oh Cristine, you are enough. You have given everyone else enough. Closing this chapter is a gift you have earned. Your intense perfectionism is what made this channel and Holo Taco so successful, and you know that you can’t keep ramping up the pressure on yourself in EVERY area. After all these years of generosity to your audience, please do what you love, and only what you love. I hope it’s therapeutic, mentally and physically.

I used to watch Cristine religiously, she was a part of my enjoyment for years, but in the recent 2 or 3 I haven’t. Just like how my interests have changed over time, Cristine’s has as well. I hope that you truly are happy now, as you’ve made millions so, for a long time, love you Cristine💜

how did i find this out a year later😭😭😭😭

I came back to see you after years, I grew up watching you. My sister and I used to watch you and laugh. I always believed that you were gonna make more out of youtube. You were so talented and awesome and you STILL are. And you were part of my memories, love you. ❤.

WHY DID THIS MAKE ME CRY?! I'm so proud of you!! I'll always be a fan, no matter which direction you choose.

I feel like, though this channel isn’t active, that doesn’t mean Cristine is actually gone from KRplus. She is actually more connected to her community now than before. This is just another chapter in the Simply legacy! ❤️

I’m so sorry about your dad. I watched you growing up and I want to thank you for everything, and I hope you receive the happiness you brought to all of us ❤️

I know I’m late but hearing you cry was heartbreaking and gut wrenching. You’re wonderful cristine

God the last "See y'all later bai" got me. Don't apologize for anything. I think for most of us it's just important that you're happy with what you're doing. Whether that be you working hard promoting Holo Taco, streaming or filming a podcast with Ben. Do what you love, it's amazing

simply is a perfect example of a KRplus success story. most youtubers milk their content and act like followers are worth more then anything else, Cristine sees her followers as equals not a wallet. this chapter is over in her life and im proud of her.

i remember watching you release it the day the video came out ❤️ your videos are amazing

I completely missed this. I watched you a TON in middle school, silly fun videos I watched before bed. I grew up and fell off before all of this. I literally JUST stumbled across a FB reel that made me come back here to see what's been up lately. And babe, I am SO sorry for your loss. I lost my dad in 2019 and despite him being basically gone since I was 4 years old and not really having a relationship beyond my toddlerhood, it didn't make his passing any easier. I will always love and cherish your content for the memories and comfort you, your dad, and your husband provided for me and so many others. I'm a year late to the show, but I'll always love and appreciate you. Thank you for always being authentically you 💞💞💞

I didn't know SimplyDadLogical passed away. I'm truly sorry for your loss, Cristine. Whenever he appeared, you could tell that he was a great person that was proud of how far his daughter had come, even if he did disguise with the same sass we love from you. You rock, and your creativity and humor do a lot to uplift a lot of us. So thanks for creating a great community, and keep doing you!

I’m sorry for the loss of your father he raised an incredible daughter.
Life is about changing growing following your dreams and you’re one of the lucky ones who have been able to do that. The people who care about you should be as happy for you as I am.
Say hi to your fur children for me.

Im watching this a year after this was made and I randomly stumbled across this channel again and I left a few months ago and now that i catched up, im so happy i found this channel at 2018 and 2019. It was so fun to watch all the videos this channel put out, it always made my day and im so happy for you because you are finally doing what you want to do instead of doing things for us. Thank you for giving all of us the best content and Im so excited to check out more of your stuff

I’m going through all the ppl I’m subbed to, and I remember watching your videos all the time when I was younger. I’m so glad that things are going well! This makes me so happy. I’m glad you did what felt best for you.

Im crying tears ago i cant believe she thinks we would be mad shes literally thriving!!and her business has grown HOLOTACO IS GLOBAL ,love youuuuuuuu

We’re here for you and we understand that being a KRplusr is not forever. I’m just so glad that you are giving us a goodbye from the old videos and this really is the closure I needed tbh thank you so much for so many of my childhood memories and giving us your fans an escape

this makes me so happy to see after all these years, i used to watch you when i was younger, and i am so proud of the person you've become and the doors you've opened for yourself and everyone who watches you 💘 thank you christine

Thanks for giving us the videos you made I loved your journey ❤️ just got my nails to where I want them to be so bought a bunch of your nail polish so excited to get them! And so proud of you and your progress!

I had no idea your dad passed. I'm so incredibly sorry to hear that. Sending you lots of love. You have to do what is best for you. We still love you! 💖

You were doing essentially 4 full time jobs for 4 years!! The gov job, the KRplus, the nail company, the podcast/streaming, and being a cat mom! Thank you for prioritising your health, mental and physical ❤️

I remember watching you in middle school and laughing super hard throughout the entire video. I am now 19 rewatching the old videos. You’ve came a long way and now this is your success story. We love you❤️ You’ve brought this community nothing but joy. Thank you 💅❤️

Your channel got me though so many dark times, I'll be forever grateful!!

the saddest "see yall later bye" i ever heard. cristine, youve make us smile and laugh along with you for years, youve made the impact, and no matter what you do, i know we will always love you. thank you for making us all happy, and we only wish the same for you :)

It makes me sad that KRplusrs feel like they owe us content that they genuinely don’t want to make. This is the best decision for her mental health and overall so mature. It reminds me of Jenna, but unlike her, I’m excited that we can still watch you other places that you enjoy. We love you Cristine!!

Cristina I’m so sorry for your loss and the struggle you experienced I definitely would rather you feel happy and excited to film and do things tha feel alone like this! You deserve the world you’re so incredible and helped me through a lot of my anxiety I experienced in my childhood by filling the air in my life with laughter and happiness! Thank you so much for all you’ve done♥️

I still come back to this video because simply nailogical are like my safe space channels. They were there when I was struggling with school and still here when I'm in a better space but need a time off from all the noise. Thank you Cristine for just being here❤

such a powerful and well articulated video on something that rings so true to so many. proud of you and excited for what’s next for simply. 💕

We love you Cristine ❤️ with whatever path you choose

Thank you for the years ❤️

Thank you for this conclusion video and being open about how you feel and what you've been through. I had no idea that your dad passed, and I'm so sorry for your loss. It's totally understandable that you'd change and so would your interests. Hugs and happiness to you.

I was just wondering what Cristine was up to and found this video after not checking on the channel for a long time. It made me very happy to discover she has her own brand and is doing so well. Cristine kept me company through long sleepless nights, suffering from insomnia and depression in 2017/2018. I felt extremely lonely and had absolutely no friends in a new country. She’ll never know how much she’s helped me through with her humour, cats and peel porns! It’s only fair to wish her the best and all the luck and success in whatever direction she decides to go. xx

Oh Christine, I'm so sorry for the loss of your father. He was truly such a funny guy, thank you for sharing him with us. ❤️

I was a huge supporter in 2016-2017, and life got gross and disappeared. Coming back to find out she stopped creating is heart-breaking, but I am just so proud of her and her Holo Taco. You did it girl, go out there and get r i c h. I want to move to Canada in the future (shrug in america is a hellscape), and I hope I get to run into you and tell you how proud I am at some event you do. I can't wait to catch up on the ones I missed, all the love to this new chapter girl

Christine! You got me tearing up here😂 I fr cried, I’m so sorry what you have been going through lately I just want to say you were my childhood I’ve been watching since like 2017, you created and fuelled my nail polish love and addiction, I remember I was so sad I couldn’t buy any of your nail polish because the shipping costs to Australia were too high. But I just wanna say thank you for all these years of love and entertainment, you raised me when my parents were away and you were always and are always one of my most favourite KRplusrs of all time. Now I’m older and I love your podcast, I’ve loved seeing you grow as a person as I grew along with you! Thank you Christine you will always have a special place in my heart and when I think of my childhood one of the main things that will come up in my mind is your old videos ❤❤❤❤

This is probably one of the bravest things I've ever seen anyone do. Cristine, I am so sorry for your loss. Your father seemed like an amazing human being, and I couldn't help but feel like you got your sense of humour from him. Wherever he is, I am sure he is proud of all that you have achieved in your life. Just keep doing what makes you happy, and I know like me, a lot of us here will always be rooting for you. Love you!!!

And the fact that she feels so sorrowful (which I entirely understand she’s closing a major chapter in her life) but she’s still going to be present for all her fans in other ways has me so thankful to her. She’s still going to be present weekly online to fans. Honestly it’ll just be in a more lively and comfortable environment. Whatever makes you comfortable Christine! You deserve nothing but happiness!!❤

either way your old videos are still there for me to watch haha, we all support you Christine and WE LOVE YOU , you inspired me to do nails ilysm ❤❤❤

Christine we love you or at least i know i do, you were a huge part of my childhood (im 18 now) i cant tell you how many of your videos i watched back on 2016 and 2017. Each and every video of yours filled me with so much joy and i remember how hard i would laugh at my phone, you truly helped a lot throughout those few years. But like you said people grow up and we change just like our interests and over time i found myself drifting away from your channel, not because your videos weren't good enough but because my interests changed. I truly want you to do something that brings you joy cause when we do something we love, that love and care we put into it shines through so effortlessly and everyone is happy with that. Lastly i want to say that im so proud of you and your business and i remember when holo taco was released but i never got my hands on it though im sure it's an amazing product because of how much love you put into it. Keep doing what you love and be happy dont try to make others around you happy just be yourself. I love you. And btw im back cause i got a wave of nostalgia to just watch some old nail videos and of course you were the first one that came to mind and im so glad to find you here. see you soon!!

Burst out in tears at that last “see y’all layer bai”, it’s the end of an era. Happy to have been here with you along the way. ❤️

I’m not your target demographic. I’m not a typical follower. But, what I am is a massive fan. I’ve been watching since 2018 and just want to thank you so much for all of your time, effort, and passion. I got my wife addicted to your content, and I’ve purchased her Holo Taco nail polish once or twice a year ever since the launch. I am sad this channel is now “dead”, for sure, but I will continue to love and follow you and your content on your other channels for as long as you make it. Much love from a mid-30s dad.

I can't even articulate how much love and pride I have for Cristine. I'm so happy she's doing great things and I wish I was able to put together the beautiful things I feel in my heart. Do what makes you happy and be good.

I’m a relatively new subscriber (as in I subscribed about a month ago) and I’ve been catching up on videos from oldest to most recent. So, even though I haven’t been there in real time or real life, I feel like I’ve watched you grow and who you are as a person change to be even better than before. Im sorry that you’ve reached this level of burn out but I’m glad to still be able to watch your content and interact with you in new ways via live stream. Your business with Holo Taco and the story behind its progress is so inspiring and it’s natural to feel like your life and it’s focus is shifting from one thing to another. Im also sorry about your dad, he _is_ a joy to watch (and will continue to be when I eventually go and rewatch videos) and makes me think of all the times I missed out on with my dad (he died when I was six) whilst I whilst in my heart feeling happy that others can have this joy. Keep being who you are and do what makes you happy. We, as a fandom, are just happy to see you do what you now love and to see you flourish in new ways as you rediscover your life, wants and goals and I know that we will be here whenever you’re feeling lonely and that Ben will forever be your drink slave. 💜💿

I can't thank people like you, Jenna, Safiya, and Threadbanger enough. You all gave us your time, your jokes, your ideas, and *you* for free. You were the bit of joy that kept some of us going in the grayness that is the world. I am so proud of your growth and thankful for every moment we got on this channel. On to a new journey! Thank you, thank you, thank you ❤️

All of my favourite youtube personalities - jenna marbles, safiya nygaard, and now cristine - have spoken about the struggles they had while being solely responsible for the pressure of creating frequent and entertaining content. It must be a harder job than anyone realizes. As someone who's followed devoutly since the polish mountain days, this does feel like a loss, but I'm happy that Cristine is finding new and healthier ways to reach her audience.

Thank you for sharing earnestly and honestly about your struggles & triumphs. You've grown out of this channel or what it used to be, which is natural 👏👏👏👏👏
Your creation Holo Taco is absolutely stunning, I love the colours so much I look forward to them becoming more accessible to Europe ❣

i was an avid simply nailogical fan years ago, then oneday idk why i stopped everything! like i completely shut myself from online(not really but you know what i mean). today i suddenly remembered her after seeing a cd(HOLOGRAPHIC WOOO~) now this video had me sobbing

Not me bawling because it feels like I got to watch a friend start something and go make something massive of herself. So proud of you and so thankful for every video you’ve posted. Many have kept me sane in difficult times, let alone entertained. You’re amazing 🥲

The ending, when you said your unforgettable outro is what made me cry the most. Cristine, We are all so incredibly proud of you. You have come so far and it's time for you to move on to bigger and better things and should never apologize for that. We are so happy for you.

Im so sorry you felt so alone, and had to go through all of that more than once with editing. What you went through sounds very difficult, even if the premise of making a video seems simple. I assume this (in its own right) is probably something Jenna Marbles went through too. Good times change, we can’t do the same thing forever. I wasn’t expecting to cry watching this video, don’t feel bad though crying is important, it helps us release our emotions from our physical body so we can process things better. I haven’t watched your videos in a while, I feel like I can always tell when a KRplusr is having burnout, the vibes coming through just aren’t the same. Thank you for your honesty and so many great videos. I hope you have so many happy moments in your life💕(p.s my KRplus name is actually inspired by you. I enjoy witchy stuff and I my birth sign element is water. water marbling was one of my favorite ways to paint my nails when I was a middle schooler and I just thought it was so funny when you said only a witch could/ would want to water Marble their nails😂

That 'See you all later' killed us cus Cristine is just amazing and to hear her voice crack up was heartbreaking. A toast to the tea queen, beyyyn and the adorable children because they deserve so much love for their amazing work 🫖☕🥂 xx

Girl you don’t owe anyone anything! Content creation is HARD, way harder than people realize, and social media is constantly changing. Do what makes you happy ❤️

It's freaking crazy seeing how far you've come!! I've been a long time "lurker" since the start. I'm so glad you've been able to accomplish so much, you deserve it

i remember watching you when I was 12 or 13 and now I’m 21 almost graduating college it hurts me to see you go through all of this I’m sorry about your father I understand how it feels I also lost somebody close to me.. I remember the first day I came across a video of yours and from that day I watched you all the time I get what it feels like to have so much pressure on you to make videos and make jokes and have fun not all days are fun and happy some days you just can’t control what you do and say or what happens in life life isn’t afun sunshine and happy all the time I’m really going to miss you goodbye..

Not gonna lie, that video took a turn i was not expecting, despite the probably obvious title haha, it must've been so hard to do. But I'm just glad that you've listened to yourself and started doing what makes *you* happy! We all love you and are so proud of you! We'll be there every step of the way, cheering you on!