Times I should've realized I was autistic

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  • illymation
    illymation  14 일 전 +8563

    hi I’m sorry I didn’t do a good job explaining what I meant when it came to self diagnosis - it is valid and I self-dx’d myself for the longest time because my past therapist (who was not educated on autism at all) refused to have me evaluated because she said I “didn’t look autistic.” I saw a new psych who actually studies autism, and I was properly diagnosed. The point I meant to make was: self diagnosing and faking a disability are two different things that I feel become conflated by others who aren’t in our position - because they have access to diagnostics and doctors who listen. And I only “agree” that self diagnosing is wrong if someone is knowingly faking a disability. I used the fake service dog scenario to illustrate this because this is a common issue my friend in the video experiences way too often: people claiming to need a service dog, so they buy a fake vest online, put it on their untrained pet, and that untrained pet will attack and pick fights with my friend’s service dog, sometimes resulting in her and her actual service dog getting denied service places. This is the behavior I’m against- KNOWINGLY faking a disability; not self diagnosing. Thanks!

    • The Gaming Person
      The Gaming Person 16 시간 전

      I have autism to I feel you

    • H0PL3$$
      H0PL3$$  일 전

      @Stana Milanovich Awwe thank you, :) My name is hopeless for that but also because I was gonna name myself "hopeful" but yt kept deleting me for that name, I don't think I'mma use a suicide hotline considering my parents check who I call, But I will try to get more help, Thank you :)

    • Jerika Giggey
      Jerika Giggey 일 전

      I am glad you clarified the difference. I am still confused as to if you actually have a diagnosis for autism/ASD? I ask only because as someone who has an autism diagnosis, it can be really frustrating when someone who does not have it tries to speak for others that do, because they don't really understand. Not that I think that anything you said is bad or harmful to the autism community, simply pointing out that that can be the downside of self-diagnoseing. It is really irritating when someone says to themselves "oh I'm sensitive to sounds therefore I'm autistic" and their not, but they think they have a right to speak for a community that is not really theirs. Anyway love your videos, just wanted to share perspective.

    • Stana Milanovich
      Stana Milanovich 일 전

      @H0PL3$$ I feel people kind of glossed over your post in an attempt to protect Ily. You're very young and it breaks my heart you are or were feeling so bad about yourself. I don't know you but just by this brief interaction and what I've read I can tell that you are NOT hopeless and you have a ton of things to offer so I really hope you are getting some support from someone in your offline life, and that you are not feeling so bleak anymore. Your feelings are valid. You are worthwhile. You have a lot to offer. Just a reminder that the suicide hotlines are free and will talk to you day or night for as long as it takes. I hope things are better and I believe in you!

    • svnset_rain
      svnset_rain 2 일 전

      Hi illy, I have just looked at symptoms of ADHD and I have a lot of them, do you think I may have ADHD?

  • Whatever
    Whatever 14 일 전 +12727

    Important note. The things that people see as autistic and are the main diagnostic criteria are the things that happen when autistic people are overwhelmed and unhappy. Those "symptoms" go away when they are able to communicate, cope, and are happy.

    • Rylan Spence
      Rylan Spence 7 시간 전

      as a person with autism I struggle to be in a crowded area and I just walk away listening to my music and calm down

    • 𝓑𝓮𝓮
      𝓑𝓮𝓮 2 일 전

      Yes! I can be perfectly ‘normal’ for intervals of the day or a whole day sometimes

    • R Axolotl
      R Axolotl 3 일 전 +2

      @Whatever I agree with you. Sadly a lot of people do not understand and I wish they would.

  • Not Yoshé
    Not Yoshé 7 일 전 +182

    I’m autistic too, and I’m so glad that I have someone as successful and talented as you to relate to. Autism comes in all shapes and sizes; people make hurtful stereotypes about us like that we’re “retarded,” or “autistic people are dumb.” I have trouble with social interaction a lot, and I tried to do stuff that other people did. Autism isn’t all about not making eye contact or social interaction; autism is all about people who are different and weird in their own way. Honestly, I wouldn’t cure my autism because it’s what makes me special and different. Keep being you, Lily, because anyone who thinks being you isn’t okay, they should definitely get a slap in the face. ❤️

  • translinuxcat
    translinuxcat 7 일 전 +58

    as a white girl who was perceived as male by herself and everyone around her for 14 years of her life before her egg cracked, obviously i dont relate to the experiences of others, but since my autism was never talked abuot that much (i forgot i had it until i was 11 years old) i've had this weird self discovery of "oh that's an autism thing? that's another autism thing? that's an adhd thing? how many things in my life was related to this???" neurodivergence is truly a life long neil cicierega, you dont know it by name, but it's responsible for literally everything you remember

    • TheRealFanmaster
      TheRealFanmaster 2 일 전 +4

      Well I've never heard Neil Cicierega be used as a metaphor before, but I mean, you're analogy isn't wrong.

  • Meg on Cloud9
    Meg on Cloud9 5 일 전 +31

    “All they see is the hyper, over- talkative and forgetful kid who for once Is sat still and quiet”- I FELT THAT SO MUCH- I have and probably always will be an excessive talker, I am actually hyperverbal and when I’m overwhelmed go hyperverbal sometimes (which means i essentially speed up and physically can not stop talking or have to force myself to stop talking- talking is a stim for me too. But it feels like I’m on a runaway train and I’m about to crash but I also can not stop talking and it’s exhausting. I have also gone non-verbal too at times but I mostly go hyperverbal. But yeah I didn’t think I could be autistic because I am “good at socialising” - yeah turns out jumping in (and interrupting people) rambling and talking AT people because I don’t need them to talk back I just need to talk, missing every social cue there is to miss (and even when I picked them up didn’t understand- or I know what they are I just don’t know why or how to process it. It’s a little more complex but yeah not getting social cues verbal and non- verbal is a big issue) being either way “too loud” or “too quiet” (because idk what the appropriate volume is nor can I control it) is not actually socialising 😂- and I am in fact not good at it. I talk a lot. But not good at Linear conversation flow where I have to read a bunch of social cues that i don’t understand and am expected to know and also expected to make eye contact and everything else.
    Anyways loved this video but also I realised that like most of my friends are neurodivergent, (and my girlfriend is autistic) and like so many of family I think like no one is diagnosed but I feel like most of us should be

  • CoronaFetish
    CoronaFetish 4 일 전 +9

    this makes... a lot of sense, like actually, I knew there was a spectrum but I didn't know that the spectrum of autism varied that much. Also I'm like 90% sure I have ADHD, but I don't want to self diagnose until a therapist or someone actually confirms it. (PS) I also hate washing dishes, it just makes me wanna freak out, so your not alone on that one :D

  • Hopeless Peaches
    Hopeless Peaches 14 일 전 +7152

    I can relate to needing headphones and getting weirded out at specific things. My parents used to keep asking why I needed headphones everywhere I went, but that's because they didn't see that when I was alone walking the dog, or on the train, the sounds of other people or sounds of rustling really got me upset and wanna escape home OOF.
    I don't know if that means I have autism per say, but I can relate to a good chunk of this video. But I also know I've had untreated depression since I was little, and got a prognosis for ADHD, so as you said: similar symptoms might be baking different types of cake.

  • Harper Woods
    Harper Woods 6 일 전 +30

    Hey illy, I just wanted to tell you, with the autism spectrum, it is actually alright to self diagnose as you know your mind better than some random doctors, as long as you do some research and you talk to a parent/guardian, I think it’s completely fine to self diagnose :)

  • Caramel Bloom
    Caramel Bloom 6 일 전 +17

    I just got diagnosed with ADHD, and the way you talk about how you think and act differently reminds me of how I feel about my adhd

  • Ashton Snapp
    Ashton Snapp 7 일 전 +10

    I am an autism (diagnosed Summer 2011), and my cousin (who is also an autism) once referred to me as a jelly bean.
    I shall embrace this new identity.
    *I AM BEAN*

  • chrisadeth
    chrisadeth 4 일 전 +6

    The way my autism shines thru is in my social interactions. I stutter, I fumble, I say weird things, often without thinking. The overstimulation issue doesn't often come into play, but it does every now and then, such as concerts or... trying to use a sharpie on paper *shudder*.
    I'm also very disorganized.
    I've never seen my official diagnosis, but when my mom first told me I was autistic as a young teen, suddenly everything started to click.

  • 🎗 ordinary extraordinary 🎗

    i heard someone tell a girl with asd, “well, you don’t ACT autistic” and she just went, “Oh sorry! One second.” and then started hitting her head while listing off train facts. 10/10 response

    • Michael Daigle
      Michael Daigle 6 일 전 +2

      @eenisoo I'm a very straight looking man. I don't pluck my eyebrows, I don't get my hair done, my beard is wild, and I wear very plain, cheap clothes. Black hanes T-shirt, black jeans. My voice is fairly deep unless I'm super excited about something. I don't get into relationships for personal reasons. When most people learn of my sexuality they are VERY surprised. 10 times out of 10. Most people just kind of assume you're a cis male if you don't prance around in rainbow shit and speak in a high pitched melodic voice.

    • Mario Mastr
      Mario Mastr 8 일 전

      @eenisoo 😮😮

    • Itzstayxd
      Itzstayxd 9 일 전 +3

      @Nooby ツ ong

    • Nooby ツ
      Nooby ツ 10 일 전 +3

      L + bozo + razio + skill issue + cope + no bches

  • 🦴PIXIE🍰
    🦴PIXIE🍰 7 일 전 +14

    I can’t believe how relatable the masking part was. I was friends with dirty minded friends and I was one of the incont one and I hated being left out and I tried to mask them, and I got called toxic by them, I felt sad so I tried myself and I got left out.

  • FabulousSlob
    FabulousSlob 8 일 전 +9

    I felt that part about the jeans. Also my brother sometimes makes those dark humored sarcastic remarks that I used to take seriously. At this point I just assume that anything horribly rascist he says is his sarcasm. Although my parents also fell for it a few times. Maybe he really DOES have a too-serious voice for sarcasm!

    • Russian Русский
      Russian Русский 4 일 전 +1

      I feel ya! My parents make somewhat racist jokes (which was acceptable in the USSR, where they grew up, so they don't see anything wrong with it), and I once confronted them, thinking them hated all nationalities ever. Apparently not

  • Yuki Senmatsu
    Yuki Senmatsu 8 일 전 +4

    I found out I had autism when I was around 13 or 14. Yeah, THAT late. I think either my parents or my elementary school speech therapist did tell me, but I had Patrick Star IQ where I didn't pay much attention to that. So yeah back then, I was in-between the middle and lower part of the spectrum until I was around 25-26 hell, I was in a homeroom ran by the S.T.E.P.S program with kids that was autistic when I was in highschool. While I was the smartest in there, I still needed a bit of help with very few things. I also hated doing the dishes back when I was doing some volunteer work at Antonio's, but since I'm now older, I don't mind doing that at all

  • No U
    No U 4 일 전 +4

    I'm sitting here in absolute shock because I've never heard of someone having such similar symptoms to me. Being terrified of flushing toilets, especially automatic ones, affects me to this day. Being terrified by loud noises, too. Guess who's going to finally email her doctor about getting evaluated :))
    Tysm illy for sharing your experience. I cannot believe someone else has experienced these same phobias that impede daily life. I really am not alone

  • Vixy
    Vixy 13 일 전 +1195

    “It’s like the *be yourself* quote applied to everyone but me”
    Honestly that hit very close to home. I’ve always been labled as annoying and I never understood alot of things the way other people did, I get called stupid and/or slow for not understanding questions or following conversations properly/differently. I always thought maybe I had some sort of mental problem with me. Maybe I do, I don’t know. I’ve never been diagnosed with anything (yet)

    • The Bread
      The Bread 6 일 전

      @v1ctor1a_4444 I'm not diagonosed and I dont think I'm autistic but that was literally me when I went to school all of those comments omg.. I'm so sorry you had to go through that too :(

    • The Bread
      The Bread 6 일 전

      @The Gamer FACTSS SAY IT LOUDER!!

    • The Bread
      The Bread 6 일 전 +1


    • Khloe G
      Khloe G 6 일 전

      @Nooby ツ what’s your problem??

    • Jclaypotch
      Jclaypotch 9 일 전

      I hear that. People tend to forget that everyone is different but yet some still strive.

  • Blaze Wadley
    Blaze Wadley 4 일 전 +4

    Omg this is so relatable, I am more on the "high functioning" part of the autism spectrum(also have adhd and anxiety) and most people think I'm just weird. Knowing that I'm not the only one with these issues feels nice.

  • yemiravity
    yemiravity 2 일 전 +2

    Hey, I'm not gonna get all sappy and tell my life story here, but I'd just like to say thank you so much for making this video. It really means a lot to me.

  • MisfitRi
    MisfitRi 9 일 전 +14

    I’m going through the same journey! I was diagnosed with ADHD as a kid; however, something else was always wrong or “off” about me. I had the same reactions from others around me. Years later, I was 20, and started noticing my differences and how I see the world is different it took MONTHS to even fully admit I was also autistic. The more I researched, the more the world made sense. The more I started to love myself. It was scary. It still is, however I’m glad I found out I was autistic and have ADHD.

  • Olivia drinkwine
    Olivia drinkwine 6 일 전 +5

    As someone on the spectrum who got bullied and taken advantaged off so many times when I was in school. Thank you for explaining autism and sharing your experiences.

  • LozFanXV
    LozFanXV 10 일 전 +696

    “It felt like the be yourself quote applied to everyone but me.”
    As someone who has ADHD and many overlapping symptoms with autism (sensitivity to certain sounds and bright lights, hyperfixations, auditory processing disorder, overly emotional, stimming.) That hit me hard. The amount of times I was the "weird" girl during school was a lot, and I found myself either the target of pranks, or left out of social events happening. And I sometimes find myself still struggling with feeling accepted nowadays.

    • Angel H
      Angel H 일 전

      Yeah same here, that line really resonated lol

    • Rhino_Raine
      Rhino_Raine 2 일 전 +2

      "the best way to get friends is tojust be yourself" yeah i tried that and it didnt work, funny how as soon as i stopped being myself i actually got some

    • ZoellaFischerVA
      ZoellaFischerVA 3 일 전

      i forced myself to change into someone more socially acceptable over the years
      While it's a little sad, i do like the new me. I'm cool lol, and i still have my unique way of thinking

    • Koni GamingGR
      Koni GamingGR 4 일 전

      im pretty sure this isnt an article..

  • alex
    alex 7 일 전 +5

    I was diagnosed with autism in 2014, however I’m lucky to be diagnosed. In the UK, it’s hard to get a diagnosis due to the circus of NHS, so I sympathise with those who had experiences like yours.

  • [ E R R O R ]
    [ E R R O R ] 5 일 전 +5

    Getting diagnosed with ADHD is _weird_ like you walk into the office of a dude with a medical degree and they say "yeah you got diet autism" and the cure is to microdose meth

  • Nekorina
    Nekorina 9 일 전 +13

    Thank you so much for this video. I'm self dx'd autistic as well after reading abt it a LOT and talking with autistic friends about it. It's really helped me understand myself better and realize I'm not "weird" or the "problem starter" my family always made me out to be. I want to list a couple of reasons self dx can be just as helpful bc it seems like a lot of people don't really understand the difficulties and even dangers of getting a diagnosis.
    1.) a lot of doctors will misdiagnose people if they don't fit into their preconceived notions of what autism is supposed to be, and 2.) official diagnoses can be used against you by employers and even doctors, and some will even use it as an excuse to not give you opportunities or even give you treatment (yes including life saving surgeries) on the basis that you're "incapable". No, I'm not kidding.
    This is why we still have a LOT of work we need to do when it comes to discussing autism, researching it, providing support for autistic people, how we talk about autism, etc. And when I see videos like this one, it honestly makes me feel super hopeful that things *are* getting somewhere, and that we *are* making progress.

  • Adrizoe Lumity Winter and Sugarsock Beyond!

    This video means a lot. As someone who is also autistic and has aspergers I couldn't handle when things got too loud or overwhelming. So I wore headphones while I did my work when I was little. I got bullied for my stimming and being happy all the time when I was having a good day. And when people bullied me. I'd cry a lot or get really angry. And as I got older I became much more sensitive. So whenever I was crying or at a breaking point. Others made fun of me to where I wanted to just be left alone. No one should be judged for being autistic or having ADHD. Ect. They should be respected and accepted like anyone else.

  • The Music Decomposer
    The Music Decomposer 14 일 전 +801

    6:18 “Pfft, you’re not autistic. Why aren’t you playing Roblox and screaming into the microphone? You know, a totally real symptom and not a stereotype.”
    (Yes, it's a joke.)

    • Magda Zapałka
      Magda Zapałka 4 일 전 +1

      Chill out in replies, I they're just making fun of people calling every weird kid autistic or something

    • Russian Русский
      Russian Русский 4 일 전

      Thank you for writing that it's a joke. Kinda hard to tell when we can't see your face :)

    • Cerebrum
      Cerebrum 9 일 전

      @Super Sonic Ding!

    • Sanriohub
      Sanriohub 10 일 전

      @Super Sonic it’s for people who can’t understand tone.

    • L.P.
      L.P. 13 일 전 +9

      @tatis021 tatidd021 what braincells

  • Shannon 025
    Shannon 025 9 일 전 +18

    It's hard accepting yourself for you when you grew up being told that 'different' meant 'bad'. I personally only found out what being on the spectrum meant when I was well into being an adult and my sister and I were discussing how my eighty year-old grandmother had a lot of the symptoms. We then realized that EVERYONE in my family had some variation of the symptoms, me most noticeably. It was actually really freeing to have a label to put to my experiences.

  • Adalexen The Time Traveling Unicorn

    More autistic friends would be fun. I need more literal people in my life lol. It gets so tiresome having to think if people are being literal or hyperbolic, a simple convo would be great for once lol. Hell even getting to talk to someone that's passionate about anything!

  • Max Kennedy
    Max Kennedy 23 시간 전

    I need everyone who's ever been like "Don't self diagnose" to hear this - my psychiatrist refused to test me for autism because I'm an adult. I was 18 for 6 months at the time

  • Wimmie's World
    Wimmie's World 7 일 전 +14

    I’ve always had sensory issues with noise and clothing and used to have to specifically make every conversation and task about The Wizard of Oz because that was the only way to get me invested. It’s interesting seeing these experiences years after the fact and starting to see the signs. Thank you so much for this video! I think it’ll help more folks than you’ll ever know.

  • abelina sabrina
    abelina sabrina 13 일 전 +768

    Love you little lady ❤️

  • Lps EnderArt
    Lps EnderArt 5 일 전 +2

    I have almost all of the things mentioned in the video. I just started improving with some of the things after years. For me, it's sensory processing disorder, but I am close to the spectrum for autism. Also, I love your videos, and you are amazing :3

  • Shoyu Becca
    Shoyu Becca 7 일 전 +5

    Even though you described my childhood down to a tee, I still have a hard time believing I'm autistic. I'm so used to believing that there's nothing wrong with me. I'm 26 and still trying really hard to fit into the "strong black woman" stereotype that my mom laid out for me.

    • becca m
      becca m 4 시간 전


    • Cook
      Cook 3 일 전

      Or adult

    • Cook
      Cook 3 일 전

      Correct you have trouble acclimating to a neurotypical society not your fault kid

  • AtomicToad666
    AtomicToad666 3 일 전 +1

    As an autistic person I’m glad that this video exists-
    1= one prayer for every time someone said that autism was a “learning disability“
    (which it can be but not in my case).

  • Charlie
    Charlie  2 일 전 +1

    I have all of these symptoms but I’m getting tested for Autism next month! Hope for everyone who has undiagnosed Autism is able to get properly tested!

  • Owen Lewis
    Owen Lewis 14 일 전 +464

    For anyone who needs to hear this, ADHD and autism have a surprising amount of overlaps: sensory issues, lack of focus, hyper focus, issues with socialization, and so much more. If you researched autism and thought “well, it kinda fits me, but not perfectly” I would recommend looking into ADHD, because that may be what’s up.

    • pondpigeon
      pondpigeon 8 일 전

      thanks! this has helped me clear up my suspicions, you see i've always related quite heavily to some autism symptoms but it's been over the last month or so that i've actually started to recognize them as such, but i've been already diagnosed with ADHD so that might be it! i'll still do some research before bringing it up to my psychologist just to be sure! :D

    • Keniko RB
      Keniko RB 10 일 전

      You can also have both!

    • The Supernatural house
      The Supernatural house 14 일 전 +3

      @Leah thank you! And yes, I know that add is an outdated term I just didn't know what else to call it-
      But thanks, I ought try again to explain to my mom, but idk
      My friend also has adhd, and he says I definitely seem like I have it; might try to ask a teacher or just wait until I can do it myself, idk

    • Leah
      Leah 14 일 전 +5

      @The Supernatural house ADD is actually not considered a diagnosis anymore- it all falls under the umbrella term of "ADHD" and you can have either hyperactive or inattentive type or a mix of both! So what you're describing is likely inattentive type ADHD 😊 I hope you can convince someone to have you tested if you think theres something up because I went without a diagnosis for 21 years and it would've been amazing to know when I was younger- good luck!

    JELLY 9 일 전 +9

    wow illy. wow.
    you are so...
    good at expressing these things, i was diagnosed 5 years ago and relate to a lot of these things, im on your kind of end of the spectrum but i know some people on the other end and still understand whats going on in their mind, and you are really good with this stuff 👍

  • Emily Matusz
    Emily Matusz 8 시간 전

    My autism was spotted at a really young age (4), however I wasnt officially diagnosed until I was 14! It was simply put as being overly dramatic despite the signs. This video was super relatable and really fun to watch; thanks for sharing!

  • JoshuaVids
    JoshuaVids 2 일 전

    I love how Illy nonchalantly called herself hot. Everyone should have that much self love

  • FlakeyJakey
    FlakeyJakey 4 일 전 +2

    I have a strong feeling in autistic but just can't bring myself to get myself diagnosed, since doctors can deny you a surgery, even if it's life saving, just on the basis that you are on the spectrum. Since they can't determine if you're "mentally stable" enough to ask for said surgery.

  • 𝚂 𝚊 𝚕 𝚎 𝚖   ☹︎

    “It felt like the be yourself quote applied to everyone but me.”
    Hits way to close to home. Over the years I’ve been very selective about sharing my interests with people because whenever I went on long rants they’d ignore me or tell me that I was annoying. I’ve only ever opened up to one close friend, who I’m still in contact with even though they moved 3 years ago. I just feel like there’s no safe space for me to express my feelings and ideas. There’s certain thing I know I can’t say because I’m me. Like, if i said a certain joke they wouldn’t laugh, they’d just give me a polite smile. If my friend said that joke, everyone would act like it was the funniest thing in the world.
    Edit: also the ‘You don’t seem autistic.’ Reminded me of an experience. I let slip that my brother was autistic (something that still haunts me to this day) and we also had an autistic kid in our class. He was closer to what people view as typically autistic, he had trouble talking and doing certain things. One of my friends immediately got it into their head that my brother was like that kid and asked about it. The others, who had met my brother, were pretty shocked (which I don’t blame them for). They all said stuff like; ‘Wait, hold up! He acts so normal, not like (insert kid in our class’s name)’ ‘Are you lying? But he doesn’t have any trouble with school!’ ‘He was probably diagnosed wrong’
    I was so mad at them but didn’t speak up, because I was afraid. I’ve always been afraid of my friends because I’m if I tell them what I’m really thinking, they’ll hate me.

    • Anime Weeb
      Anime Weeb 9 일 전 +1

      @Kanykei Doorova it's exhausting -_-

    • Kanykei Doorova
      Kanykei Doorova 10 일 전 +1

      @Anime Weeb I KNOW RIGHT

    • Kanykei Doorova
      Kanykei Doorova 10 일 전 +1

      i definitely agree

    • Anime Weeb
      Anime Weeb 10 일 전 +4

      when people say be yourself, they're actually saying "be yourself as long as yourself fits inside the box society created for you"

    • Llova1
      Llova1 10 일 전

      I can fully relate to this

  • Clara Bishop
    Clara Bishop 6 일 전 +1

    Dude, I relate to the vast majority of this on a deep, spiritual level. I didn't realize I was autistic until I was 20. It was rough working so hard to be "normal" but then having no friends anyway and having no clue why.

  • M H
    M H 3 일 전 +2

    Omg… I also got adhd and am on the spectrum and never felt to not alone 🥺.. thanks for sharing your experience means a lot for me and hopefully many other ppl

  • Zoe Eichen
    Zoe Eichen 5 일 전 +1

    I was diagnosed professionally at 3 years old, and while it's a blessing I got the help I need to function and even excel in many areas of life, I prefer doing things alone because I know I won't always be socially understood. It sucks, feeling like something is missing and knowing exactly why but being unable to change. Even my mom hates when I'm dramatic and I feel like I'm not allowed to say how I really feel half the time.

  • loszhor
    loszhor 8 일 전 +1

    I can relate. How different my life could have been if the grown ups around me took me seriously when I mentioned some of the signs.

  • Nick Chambers
    Nick Chambers 11 일 전 +302

    I loved the owl house references! And thank you for bringing up the “it’s not just young white boys” part. It ignores so many other people, especially when someone’s looking to be diagnosed as an adult. Our needs change as we grow, and an adult who has trouble with socializing would be able to mask or adapt more than, say, a six year old. Our struggles still exist, they’re just sometimes harder to see

    • Euphemia Lyra Eyre
      Euphemia Lyra Eyre 8 일 전

      @Anvi oh I think it might be a fushion of Mei and Totoro, but it was in the totoro bus stop setting.

    • Anvi
      Anvi 8 일 전

      @Euphemia Lyra Eyre i thought that was mei? do you mean the red panda? or maybe i didn't catch totoro

    • Pesterbot
      Pesterbot 10 일 전 +1

      and a bluey reference! :DD

    • Euphemia Lyra Eyre
      Euphemia Lyra Eyre 10 일 전 +1

      And steven universe references, and totoro.

    • Anvi
      Anvi 10 일 전 +3

      I do too lol. Did you see the latest episode? I saw young Eda somewhere in this video

  • SaltyHQ
    SaltyHQ 15 시간 전

    I would explain the feeling of autism like a constant haze, warping, dulling and amplifying stimuli till it becomes unbearable for a normal human being.
    It's as simple as that, though what makes it difficult is how the brain reacts to that situation.
    This leads to a sorts of issues like low social skills, depression, low motor skills, derealization attacks, anger issues and more.

  • Mitchie Mari
    Mitchie Mari 일 전

    As someone with a little brother with autism, I greatly appreciate this video. I'm always explaining to people that he's not "weird", just a little different. He's such a smart and sweet little kid, I worry about his future sometimes with all the bullies out there. I hope this video will help others see autistic people in a better light, and educate them more.

  • Lauren Lozano
    Lauren Lozano 9 일 전 +1

    I can relate to this, but I didn’t know my diagnosis till my parents told me as a teenager. I realized why I was so different and I felt like living two different lives. I felt betrayed for not knowing when I was younger, but learned to accept myself

  • Jen
    Jen 4 일 전 +1

    I relate to a lot of this video and have wanted to get some sort of screening for autism or ADHD for awhile, but my mom has a lot of stigmas around this sort of thing and I'm too scared to ask... I'll probably just wait until I'm a legal adult so I don't have to get permission

  • Christy Clasgens
    Christy Clasgens 10 일 전 +581

    Another important note. The spectrum isn’t linear!! The autism spectrum isn’t “low functioning to high functioning” or “more autistic to less autistic.”
    A lot of people like to say it’s more like a color wheel. But personally I like to use the sound board analogy. Each slider is an autism trait/symptom. Each trait or symptom is a spectrum of its own. And the amount you experience each trait can change. So your personal spectrum can look different and change day to day.

    • Seymour Disapproves
      Seymour Disapproves 2 일 전

      @Reut Gal that analysis only really makes sense if you don't know much about any symptoms of autism. When OP talks about symptoms being on a sliding scale, they mean something like, "many autistic people are or have a phase in childhood where they are hyperverbal, however many other autistic people can say the same thing about being nonverbal." Similar things can be said about fine motor skills; many autistic people struggle with them, but some are piano virtuosos, which requires insane amounts of control. No single place on any of these scales dictates whether a person is autistic.
      You seem to think that there is some magic combination of places on each of the "sliding scales" for commonly recognized symptoms of autism that makes someone a "normal" or neurotypical person, however neurotypical people, who by and large don't have impairments in socializing, communication, or operating outside of restricted or repetitive behaviors, simply don't have to consider their place on these scales at all. The scales are a tool to address perceived impairments or abnormalities, so if there aren't any to speak of in a person, there aren't any to speak of.

    • Zakrovik
      Zakrovik 2 일 전

      @Seymour Disapproves That doesn't change the fact that you still have no credible concrete evidence.

    • Seymour Disapproves
      Seymour Disapproves 2 일 전

      @Zakrovik A chunk of this video is devoted to speaking on some ways autistic people have been denied professional testing, much less diagnoses, for autism due to bias and discrimination. This video specifically covers a bias against women and people who were assigned female at birth, who often exhibit "atypical" symptoms according to a body of research that has almost exclusively focused on boys for decades. However, as also brought up in the video, this discrimination affects other demographics as well. For example, a large body of research spanning decades at this point shows that Black autistic children are much more likely to be misdiagnosed with Oppositional Defiant Disorder before receiving a proper autism diagnosis when compared to white children, with some studies listing the disparity as being over 5 times more likely for Black children. This is likely to do with Black people already being stereotyped as violent, brutish, and dangerous, so Black autistic children's outbursts due to frustration or overstimulation are more likely to be viewed as malicious than similar outbursts from a white child.
      Point is, these are ongoing problems within the field of autism research. A PhD isn't a talisman against bias or prejudice, and the only reason a lot of people get diagnosed with autism outside of childhood at all is because they start putting the pieces together and requesting tests themselves. So maybe, idk, don't dismiss the lived experiences of disabled people in favor of this imaginary concept of an infallible medical establishment which is largely made up of people who do not have the disorders or conditions they're studying in other people? Is it really that shocking to you that a person who actually lives with something could perhaps be better at articulating what that's like for them than someone who has never lived with it and can only ever really guess at what it's like?

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    • Russian Русский
      Russian Русский 4 일 전

      Dude bro, amazing comparison with the sound board. That's what made it click for me once and for all. Thx :3

  • Rey Kenobi
    Rey Kenobi 8 일 전 +1

    To be honest, I also wondered if there was something else that differed me from others. I also had no friends growing up and I was being isolated and bullied for reasons I still can’t seem to remember.

  • Official Cat Lover
    Official Cat Lover 8 일 전 +1

    the one symptom that has always been thing for me is hearing. I’m so sensitive to little noises and sometimes hear things others don’t or think things are way too loud when others say it’s not. i had to start homeschool because i was autistic. i was the shy kid, i had one solid friend all throughout public school and homeschool.
    i’ve overcome a lot of the sensory issues but i’m still working on others.
    also i share the cat obsession thing

  • LovelyRadiant Unicorn
    LovelyRadiant Unicorn 6 시간 전

    I have autism too. I’m very glad that someone is talking about it even if “it’s not the most perfect description” it’s just nice to know someone else is talking about it. Maybe someday I should do the same… Autism needs to be discussed more honestly. Hell, mental disorders really need at least more attention. Not that anything is wrong with any of them, but it should just be discussed more. Especially because Autism is rather common, idk about the case for ADHD but still.

  • autumncolourss
    autumncolourss 7 시간 전

    I’m so happy to see you sharing this experience!! It makes me so much more confident that one of my biggest inspirations has had similar experiences to me ❤️ I was recently diagnosed with both ADHD and ASD (and let’s just say it took a while) and the way you explain it here is great, especially sensory overload and shutdowns. Keep rockin’!

  • AnJelloProductions
    AnJelloProductions 14 일 전 +562

    I love how “non traditional” topics are being talked about by Illy. I definitely find these videos more personal and really helps those who can compare. This SHOULD be normal conversations.
    Amazing video and thank you for using your platform as a bigger voice for those who cannot!

  • Freak Servo
    Freak Servo 6 시간 전

    As one who was diagnosed with high-spectrum Aspergers and Major Depression, this video hit *VERY* close to home. About %90 percent of what I see or hear I take seriously, and it causes me to either argue about it as loud as I can, or silently ruminate over it for months - even years - at a time.
    I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

  • Hannah Jane
    Hannah Jane 2 일 전

    “It felt like the saying, ‘just be yourself’ applied for everyone but me specifically” wow

  • A Fox Named Sean
    A Fox Named Sean 2 일 전

    Someone on the spectrum and also has ADHD here: I tend to find myself talking a lot and carrying on conversations longer than they should have. I personally never really tried to fit in though because I didn't and still don't try picking up on whatever is trending among my peers. I just be me and talk about video games I like and obscure video games and dissecting the inner meaning of themes and choices done in media I like. I'm very analytical of a person lmao

  • 27 rats in a trenchcoat

    I can't explain how happy this makes me!!!
    The whole time I was just waiting for you to say something wildly incorrect or use puzzle piece imagery but you didn't! And honestly I relate so much to your childhood stories growing up autistic (or in my case autistic and ADHD) is not fun.
    I'm so happy, there's so much misinformation about autism and so many well-meaning people unknowingly spreading misinformation that it's such a breath of fresh air to see someone explain it so well :D

  • cookietiger
    cookietiger 10 일 전 +304

    One of my family friends has this "funny" story about me when I was a kid. One time my dad put some ketchup on my plate but he didn't make sure the food was out of the way so the ketchup was touching the food and I started bawling my eyes out and refused to eat it. My dad had to wipe the ketchup off my plate and redo it properly. My family friend always tells this story as if it's soooo funny but it's always made me so uncomfortable. Only this year did I figure out that I'm autistic and that this funny situation was an actual sensory problem, one of many sensory things that I continue to struggle with.
    Shout out to everyone who's on this journey of discovery. I've found it quite difficult but it feels so good to finally be able to understand myself.

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    • Sadie Burris
      Sadie Burris 4 일 전

      omg i thought i was the only one who hcant have food touching :o

    • Emma Bringhurst
      Emma Bringhurst 5 일 전 +1

      @Total Trash Mammal yeah, that's horrible, nobody should be made fun of because something makes them uncomfortable. It's like the people who make fun of irrational fears, like yeah they might not make sense to you and might not have a purpose but it's still a valid fear and you shouldn't make fun of someone for it, and you especially shouldn't trigger that fear and laugh at them for being afraid. It's a very similar situation and it's not funny in either situation. Side note: I have the same thing with some foods like slimy foods like beets and some squash, I physically can't swallow them. Like my parents had a rule where you had to try every food once and I kept trying to swallow the pickled beet but kept gagging and started crying and almost threw up. After that incident my family stopped making me try every food. My mom just said if you don't want to eat what I cooked you can make something yourself which I was happy with.

    • Total Trash Mammal
      Total Trash Mammal 6 일 전 +3

      Yeah my family also used to mock me for my sensory issues. I was called "overdramatic" because I "refused" to eat green beans. When the reality was that the texture and sensation is so horrible that it genuinely sets off my gagging reflex just chewing on it.
      They used to compare me to a dog because the vacuum used to make me cry because I would get so overstimulated by the noise. Especially since my mom liked to blast the volume on the TV when vacuuming so she could still hear her show.
      And yet, my brother got so much understanding and accomodation because "he has ADHD!" even when he was just being a spoiled brat...

  • ecentrisi
    ecentrisi 일 전 +1

    Theres a boy in my class who seems like he is on the spectrum, he yells out in class randomly, always has headphones on, and gets stimulated and distracted easily.

  • The Pokemon Guy
    The Pokemon Guy 2 일 전 +1

    As someone who has always had quite high functioning autism I get a lot of crap about not being autistic, I was diagnosed very early, (3 or 4) it was because I didn’t talk at the time (and didn’t till I was 5 and now I don’t shut up) and I had another thing where I couldn’t pick anything up and it would drop out of my hands (that wasn’t autism but anyway) and my mother was quite concerned, and I had a 1 to 1 therapy till I was 5, I also ended up in a school for special needs kids (low and high functioning, autism, adhd, etc.)
    Also, autism and adhd are not the same!!!! It’s so annoying when people lump the two together, no!! Autism is a wide spectrum while generally effects social interactions, sensory overload among other things
    Adhd is a condition which I believe gives you a heightened state of alertness and effects your focus (I don’t have adhd so if anyone wants to clarify that they can)
    My things are eye contact and social interactions, more specifically I will go off topic about things which no one was talking about and made things awkward
    Honestly I have never had sensory overload, I don’t know why I just don’t get overwhelmed with loud noises or gooey/weird substances, after all it is a spectrum.
    Thanks if you read the whole comment, I don’t tend to comment a lot but whenever I see a creator talk about autism it peeks my intreat because it’s relatable and I like to talk about my symptoms.

  • Jordan Tajchman
    Jordan Tajchman 6 일 전 +2

    Hey if anyone has bad anxiety and thinks they may have autism, one tool that helps with my sensory stuff is a weighted blanket. It really helps me and maybe it'll help you. It's like a tight hug without having to touch anyone.
    Loop earplugs are also extremely useful. I really recommend them. The case is small and hooks onto your keys, the plugs themselves are comfy and block background noise and dampen loud noises. They are barely visible in your ears.
    Keeping a change of clothes in my car without tags, zippers, hard seems, etc makes it easy when I have a bad sensory day. Compression tank tops also help me. Compression tanks are great instead of a bra because I still get support without the wires and tags and straps.
    Let me know if this helped anyone or if you have questions or need more suggestions. I'm always happy to help.
    Oh also I love listening to the song ":(" by the garden with both earbuds in. The sounds move in your head and soothe me. Give it a try when you need to take a minute to calm down.

  • Bisexual SmoothTalker
    Bisexual SmoothTalker 5 시간 전

    I'm almost 27, yet I feel like I sometimes don't act like other people my age. Sometimes, I feel like I'm not mature enough, that I'm weird, shy etc. I recognize myself in a lot of things in this video. I am not diagnosed, but my brother is on the spectrum.

  • Flugan
    Flugan 6 일 전 +1

    I'm bawling! 😭 I figured out I have autism two years ago (age 28) so I thought I was through with the "cry everytime I feel understood" faze. Nope, I've never seen someone talk about being scared/overwhelmed by flushing toilets and being unable to do the dishes before. Que the tears!

  • Amanda Burris
    Amanda Burris 7 일 전

    I was diagnosed with Autism when I was five. I relate to all of this so much! There are still things that I'm learning about myself and how my autism works and I love learning about other people's similar journeys!

  • Tamzin Molloy
    Tamzin Molloy 7 일 전 +1

    Omg! Thank you so much for making this video! I've been on the spectrum since i was little and my younger brother too and am still going through some tough things with it, but I accept and like being weird too! I struggled so much in high school and could barely fit in with my autism but now I'm at uni and am better than ever!! New friends and pursuing what I love! Animation!!
    So thank you illy!!

  • Holons Pokémon
    Holons Pokémon 6 일 전

    Wow, I related to this a lot, specifically, when I was younger I had sensory problems with smell and touch, and would avoid things like hand dyers because of the sound and doorknobs because of the metal smell on my hands. After watching I talked to my mom about it and she said that I'm on the spectrum, and went OT when I was 6 to help with my fine motor skills. This video is really a breath of fresh air. Luckily for me, I'm not very autistic and doesn't really affect my daily life that much :)

  • Rhexx Greymane
    Rhexx Greymane 11 일 전 +349

    As someone who is autistic and deal with everything mentioned here, thank you so much for explaining things I cant put into words because explaining anything about myself is an absolute nightmare and my brain completely forgets how to organize any information. So, i usually tell people to "specify what they want to know" in order to give a reply but for anyone completely ignorant (not in a bad way) to autism has no idea where to start. Now I can just link this instead!

    • PaperMania
      PaperMania 8 일 전

      I also struggle with how to start explaining my experience with autism and what it is, its always easier to talk about it in my mind for some reason.

    • Jellyspace
      Jellyspace 9 일 전 +5

      I swear my teacher yells a lot and it hurts my ears but my classmates say she’s just talking normal id never thought of that

  • Eva-Marie/Wrixx
    Eva-Marie/Wrixx 2 시간 전

    I just wanna say watching your videos makes going through my breakup a little bit easier. I like to watch them when I feel a little extra sad. Thanks for making entertaining yet educational animations

  • Halah AlH
    Halah AlH 8 일 전 +1

    1:36 I love how ryuji is the one saying you talk too much, which says alot about "bad" it is lol.
    Great video as always!

  • Aoife Cregg
    Aoife Cregg 2 일 전

    I’ve finally started doing my research on why I act the way I do, I haven’t been diagnosed but I’m so sick of people calling my a “crazy fangirl” because of my interests. Being called dramatic when I express my emotions in a certain way. It’s so annoying and honestly upsetting when I get told I’m dramatic and obsessed with stuff I’m passionate about.

  • Raidyn!!_2
    Raidyn!!_2 3 일 전

    My cousin's autistic too, and i always look forward to looking at other's experience.
    Thank you for this video for my own research

  • XanderVs
    XanderVs 14 일 전 +277

    With me being one of those "lucky white boys" I was diagnosed at a very young age which honestly came in to help me alot with all the issues I had. Especially my "blackouts" but, unlike alot of people on the spectrum they were pretty dang violent. Although I know what I did was wrong alot of people at my middle and elementary school didn't know how to handle it and even though by the time I was in high school I got meds for it I still feel that with any trouble I still had my teachers handled it way better. Shout out to all the teachers at Holland High

    • texugo branco
      texugo branco 13 일 전 +3

      @Zipporian You kinda lose focus on what you're doing and ''blackout''

    • Zipporian
      Zipporian 13 일 전

      Wdym by blackouts?

  • Cadce Mainer
    Cadce Mainer 6 일 전

    Hey illy I just want to say thank you for making this. A lot of the things you listed I also deal with but my mom refused to even go over the list the doctor gave us because I'm not stereotypical (witch was also similar with my adhd) anyway after I showed her this video she's now letting me talk to the doctor 😊. Thank you

  • Heyjo
    Heyjo 3 일 전

    I almost check every of your boxes but the feeling while I experience this discomfort is probably pretty different.

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  • Minnim
    Minnim 6 일 전

    im autistic as well! i've been diagnosed since I was 6 or 7. now I'm really glad I've been seeing more people are being open about their autistic experiences

  • Platinum XYZ
    Platinum XYZ 14 일 전 +232

    Hearing both about masking and mimicking how others acted, and even the "doing nothing" really resonated with me and my experience with ADHD and ASD. "Doing nothing" or just "acting normal", although might seem like a great thing to neurotypicals from the outside view, it's often not a happy state for that individual, and them acting "normal" is more a sign something is off, forced, or they are unhappy. I actually didn't even really realize that this was part of the condition. I just thought it was just me, and that I was crazy. This explains so many interactions and experiences I've had at school. Many people seem to be only accepting of one "normal way" to act. It is amazing to see how much you have learned about yourself in order to even be able to educate others like you so well! Finding out content creator I heavily look up to have a similar experience to me is something very special! If anyone like us is reading this I wish you all very well.

    • Platinum XYZ
      Platinum XYZ 13 일 전 +1

      @Heiagam Pee excuse me? so you think this is all fake?

    • Platinum XYZ
      Platinum XYZ 14 일 전 +2

      @🍌 Len Sam you're not bothering. it basically varies wildy per person. It's like saying "we went on a trip". That doesn't just mean one thing. When did you go on that trip? How long? Where to? There's so many possibilities you couldn't possibly consider "going on a trip" just one thing. same thing here

    • YG64
      YG64 14 일 전 +3

      @🍌 Len Sam like the video said, it can depend. Sometimes it isn’t even a problem at all.

    • YG64
      YG64 14 일 전 +5

      I’m autistic and can very much relate to mimicking others, specifically when I’m speak. I feel like often reuse verb cues, phrases, tones, etc. just because I can’t imagine anything that fits better.

  • Live Laugh Lesbian
    Live Laugh Lesbian 8 일 전

    Thank you for putting this out. I was recently disgnosed as being Autistic and I am having a hard time of it.

  • Blooper Dooper
    Blooper Dooper 6 일 전

    I am just like you! I was diagnosed with ADHD in 4th grade. Even with medication I felt off. I was and still am deeply interested in phycology so I would often go on huge rants in front of my friends. I talked to my therapist about it and they recommended an autism check or whatever. I did it and was diagnosed with slight autism on the spectrum. Thank you for making this video!

  • Samantha B
    Samantha B 7 일 전

    Illy it is amazing the timing of this video. I am 34 and went for my intial intake appointment a month ago. And will be starting my official assessments in June, to see if I am indeed on the Autism spectrum.
    I have done many online evalutions and always test high. So it will be interesting to see what comes out of these appointments.
    Gotta say I relate to every bit of your video.

  • Willow the Tree
    Willow the Tree 일 전

    I relate to this video so much. All my life I've struggled with severe "panic attacks" that I've recently learned are actually autistic meltdowns, as well as sensory overload and a bunch of other symptoms you've mentioned. It was only last month that I realized I'm probably autistic (during autism awareness month haha). I'm going to be evaluated in a few weeks and I'm unnecessarily terrified and having a bit of an existential crisis because I'm worried I'm not "autistic enough" to be autistic if that makes sense? I've been trying to research stuff about autism to learn more about myself, and this is by far the most helpful video I've found. It honestly makes me feel so seen because instead of just reading facts off an article I can relate on a very personal level to your experiences with autism. And for once in my life I'm not going to delete this comment because it's written weirdly because that's okay.
    Also, love the Owl House references, those just sweetened the deal

  • eLL cartoons
    eLL cartoons 14 일 전 +1345

    This video is EVERYTHING. I seriously appreciate you using your platform to bring so much more awareness to us awesome weirdos!!! ❤️🙃🥳 Your toons are the best 😭🙌🏼 P.S. I WILL NEVER DO THE DISHES WITHOUT GLOVES.

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    • WingDingfontbro67 Null
      WingDingfontbro67 Null 12 일 전 +2

      Who doesn’t? I dont want crap water in my hands who wants that getting all in their nails and oh god I touched my face because I needed to scratch my nose and now it’s in my face. You can see how this goes down the drain very quickly,

    • Sitharos
      Sitharos 12 일 전 +1

      Hey Ell! Love sweet potato! 😃

  • Lunar
    Lunar 일 전

    as an autistic person a lot of this stuff happens to me too!!! thank u for making feel so heard! also, before my diagnosis but after testing for it, all my friends used to say that they didn’t think i had it and ofc when i found out i did, i told them, but they still treat me like i’m just weird

  • Phoenix of the Stars
    Phoenix of the Stars 4 일 전 +1

    I’m ADHD-C and related to this SO MUCH. Not the sensory stuff (mostly) but more the emotional and social stuff. Including getting bullied for unknown reasons. And the masking. And the being weird.
    Also I am also always in my noise-cancelling headphones. So much my parents are annoyed.
    Also I self-diagnosed as ADHD then went into a psychiatrist, she immediately started getting me tested for it without prompting.
    Also isn’t wearing gloves and headphones while washing dishes… normal?

  • shanali chulalu123
    shanali chulalu123 3 일 전

    I know how you feel. I too was diagnosed with autism at a very young age. I didn't really feel like I fit in with the others in school cuz I was the weird kid they laughed at and made fun of/mocked. But me watching this helped me feel I can accept my autism no matter how strange I may seem. It made me feel better to see something's I can relate to with some people ☺️

  • Ghostein Stereo
    Ghostein Stereo 4 일 전

    4:40 Bluey!! And thank you for this video. I’m self diagnosed but plan on getting an official diagnosis so I may receive the help I need. I really appreciate this video

  • Sea Dragon Slayer
    Sea Dragon Slayer 12 일 전 +276

    I have ADHD and people think I'm just stupid and say I don't seem like I have ADHD which is very sad and its hard to cope I'm glad she made this video to make this more aware. Thank you Illy.

    • Layton T Montgomery
      Layton T Montgomery 10 일 전 +1

      @Cashcorn agreed. my mum always says i should be happy that i can hyper focus because “it’s like a superpower” which it really isn’t. yes it has it’s perks but it’s mainly just an inconvenience

    • Cashcorn
      Cashcorn 10 일 전

      @Layton T Montgomery the worst time period of my life was being on ADHD/autism medicine just so I could do decent in school. Hyper focus sounds nice until you realize it’s uncontrollable and it either kicks in at the worst times or you usually are waiting for it to kick in.

    • Layton T Montgomery
      Layton T Montgomery 10 일 전 +1

      same!! i’ve been told “you don’t look like you have ADHD” by so many people and a few have even said that ADHD is cool and they wish that they had it too which really upsets me. so many people stereotype about ADHD and it’s literally the worst, people need to just shut up and stop speaking about other peoples experiences. i used to be “friends” with this girl and one time we were talking about my ADHD diagnosis and she pointed out that i wasn’t bobbing my leg under the table and she had the freaking nerve to say “i have a friend who has the hyperactive type of ADHD and she’s always bobbing her legs under the table and you aren’t doing that so obviously you don’t have the hyperactivity, i think it’s really insensitive that you’re going around telling people you have the hyperactivity when you clearly don’t”. just typing that out makes my blood boil. i stopped being friends with her ages ago but the fact that people like that exist just annoys the heck out of me. they don’t realise that not everyone with ADHD has the same symptoms and they compare you to others and invalidate your experience just because you don’t act like a stereotypical person with ADHD.

    • Cashcorn
      Cashcorn 10 일 전

      @Whispurr C4t I couldn’t have said it better myself.

    • Raven 星
      Raven 星 10 일 전 +1

      Me too, my teachers and parents always yell at me to just focus but I can't. And other students make fun of me for being hyperactive saying that I act like a kid

  • Britt Vaughn
    Britt Vaughn 일 전

    I feel this. I'm in a super judgy and neurotypical environment right now and I've honestly never felt more autistic.
    I relate to all of those things so hard... I was just blown away when I was only borderline on the AQ but through the roof on the CAT-Q. Every afab person who wonders if they might be autistic should take the CAT-Q, not the AQ.

  • Grrlblox
    Grrlblox 4 일 전

    The “white boys” thing is the same with ADHD. I have it, and, because it was originally created to only affect male bodies, the teachers at my school treat my differently. For example, I have a friend who has ADHD and he doesn’t get in trouble for shouting out from being excited as much as I do.

  • Dirt.
    Dirt. 8 일 전

    Thank you so much. I’m in the process of diagnosis for ASD and this video made me realize I’m not alone. Getting diagnosed late in life is hard (even for a 14 year old like me) so I wish you the best of luck on your journey!

  • Rosemaree Bariteau
    Rosemaree Bariteau 7 시간 전

    This video really helped me , I'm not autistic but my brother and sister are and they are on very different parts of the spectrum but growing up I knew my siblings were on it, but my parents never really sat me down and explained it to me. I just thought it was kinda like having ADHD

  • Carley Osburn
    Carley Osburn 14 일 전 +145

    As an autistic female myself, this made me feel heard in a way that I can’t quite explain. Thank you for sharing your experiences, Ilyssa.

    • Cody Hines
      Cody Hines 14 일 전

      I hope you have a good life

  • Awesome Specs21
    Awesome Specs21 2 일 전

    As an autistic person on the spectrum myself I completely understand where you’re coming from. My autistic quirks are things like perfumes and cigarette smoke really bother me and if people are talking about things I know nothing about I shut down. You do a wonderful job of explaining this and I love this video.

  • J Long
    J Long 3 일 전

    There is a genetic change difference that separates HSP (highly sensitive people) from those that are Autistic. Most autistic people are HSPs, and based off of Illy’s description, she is probably and most likely both. I am an HSP myself but do not struggle with autism, but I face lots of similar challenges.

  • Tex redtailfox
    Tex redtailfox 2 일 전

    Funny thing is I didn't know I was autistic until my last job where I was working for a psychiatric hospital as a (psychiatric nurse's assistant )or a PNA. I found out from a doctor I was carrying a conversation with about some patients and personally just trying to pass some time while we were doing paperwork he ran me through evaluation and found out I was autistic and I am on the lower spectrum of autism it kind of shocked me at first but he explained to me what I can do and shouldn't discriminate that's hardly my bosses discriminate against me and I have quit but I'm not making this as Symphony I'm just felt this was kind of interesting and I enjoyed the video

  • oreo
    oreo 22 시간 전

    I'm so glad your animations are very educational, informative, and very fun to watch.
    The symptoms you have listed throughout the video made me question myself because the majority or even mainly all of them are something I can relate to. I am always called sensitive and too shy. But me being 20 now, I can never make friends and have a hard time doing it. I even have a hard time understanding people's emotions. I do get sad, but when I see someone else in that state I don't know what to do.
    I went to a therapist when I was around 14-16 years old and was diagnosed with low depression. But I lied to that therapist about getting better and no longer have depression due to being forced to tell my parents what happened after every session. I wasn't allowed to choose whether to talk about it or not. I was forced to have a good relationship with my dad who I didn't want to and never want to.
    Your video has helped me a lot and I am hoping to seek a therapist to diagnose me. Not to just diagnose me to see if I have autism, but also to help me be happy and hopefully change my lifestyle.